Loving the Unforgiving

Disclaimer: I own nothing of Grey's Anatomy

Summary: This story is told in first person. What Alex felt about his father.

Mommy told me that when she first held me in her arms that I looked just like you. She told me that I was the most beautiful thing she's ever seen. She wanted to protect me from everything in this world, well almost everything except you.

Daddy when you first hit I was only three, but that's okay cuz mommy says that it won't happen again. It happens again and again and nothing changes, mommy was wrong. I cried every time you hurt me. I usually cried myself to sleep. At night when you were done giving me my bed time beating I would pretend that you were tucking me in. I would say, "Goodnight night daddy I love you."

Daddy when you whipped me with the belt it hurt and left scars, but that's okay cuz you were high. If you were sober it might have not happened liked this. Sober daddy just slapped me around a couple of times. My back was bloody daddy but I know you were just showing me love.

I hear mommy scream and cry every night, Daddy I know you are hurting her and I want to help her. When I wake up in the morning to poor my bowl of cheerios I see the new bruises on mommy's face. I think mommy still loves you daddy only because if she didn't love you nobody would love her. I think she's afraid that no one else would love her. I love you daddy even though you hurt the person who wanted me to be protected me from this cruel world. I love you cuz your my dad and nothing will change my mind.

When you hit me several times with empty bottles I had to get stitches in my head. The doctor was suspicious when mommy took me in with bruises on her face. When he asked mommy what happen to me she told him a lie. She told him that I was running around the house and that I slipped and fell onto a coffee table. The doctor stopped asking question after that. I love you daddy even when you make me go to the hospital so someone can clean up after your mess.

When I got older you still beat mommy and occasionally hurt me. I finally got the chance to protect my mommy from the person I loved no matter what happened. Daddy that day you hit mommy and made her scream was the last time you hurt her. I hurt you so bad that you were hospitalized. Aaron and Amber watched in horror. Mommy kept on telling me to stop but I couldn't When you got discharged you never came back. I love you daddy even though you didn't come back.

I love you dad even though you made my life a living hell. I wish I wouldn't have touched you because we could have made things better. I could of helped you. After you left mommy didn't look at me the same. I think she did this because I scared away the person that she thought was the only person that loved her. I love her but I don't think it counts for her. I love you daddy, why? I don't know I guess it's because I feel that everyone deserves to be loved despite what they did in the past and what lies in the future . I hope you can see that.

"Goodnight night daddy I love you."

This one was shorter than other one's I have written. I wanted to change it up.

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