Donna's Choice
There are certain moments in your life when you're being pulled in two very different directions, your heart is telling you to go in one direction and your brain is telling you to go the other. Why do we trust our hearts and not our intellect? When it fails are mind is there telling us," I told you so? For me I wanted to do the right thing, or maybe for once I just wanted to do something worth wild. Or maybe we were just two lonely souls who out of a miracle found each other. He had nothing, no family, friends or love but I had all of that and I still felt alone. I was empty and maybe the reason for that was because my family treated me like a stranger, "my friends" treated me like a joke and the man i love, really wasn't in love with me. So, yeah. We were both lonely but making the best out of what we had. I don't know about him but I was numb and it seemed like life always slipped by me and everyone is so quick to point a finger and laugh at me. My whole life I've been called stupid, useless, a mistake, not special, ugly, fat, untalented and a waste of a human being. I never had anyone and people never needed or depended on me before but they were so quick to pick on me, step all over me and use me. Then he came in my life and my world turned upside down. For the first time in my life I felt special and worth something, he looked right through me and he smiled… even though the whole time I had been yelling at him and calling him names. He smiled and waved before he left, did he see past the facade and want to be friends or did he just not care. So, I didn't care either and I did all that I could to save him… I me- I meant help him. It felt like he needed saving, in a way he was just like me… he was lonely and he needed someone to lean on and I was going to be there for him the way that no one was there for me. I was going to help him in anyway that I could, If he needed someone to lean on I was gonna be there, If he wanted to cry I would hold him while he cried. If he was ever in pain, i would try to soothe his pain and wipe away his tear. I would make him laugh and reminiscence like I was there. I would be his best friend but one thing was for sure, I would always! Put him in his place.
So, there I was standing in the middle of chaos. I was scared out of my mind and looking for a safe place to hide. Then I watched him do the same and then he got up to stop the monster from hurting anyone. As stubborn and annoying he might be at time, he is my best friend. He's always making sacrifices in spite of himself and that's why he's so sad because he had to leave everyone behind. I saw it in his eyes, the heartache and the pain every time he has to let someone go. We had just met and I already knew him so well and that's why when he ran, I ran with him and I kept following him until I couldn't anymore. It was a choice, one single choice
I was about to run after him when my mom asked me who you were, I didn't know how to respond. I didn't know which answer to give her that she would understand. I just ran to you because I wanted to help you figure this out.
The doctor, that's all you told and that's all I knew. You were a doctor who was also an alien and you had a weird spaceship. That looked like a police box but was bigger on the inside and it was a spaceship!
So, you're always going to find yourself being pulled in two different direction. Right and wrong, following your heart and being smart and sometimes those things are in opposite directions. Sometimes doing the right thing means doing something very dangerous and stupid to perform a good deed.
I never regretted my choice
I never look back and say that I should have chosen the other way, I always look back and say that I'm glad that I did that.I'm glad that I was able to help. I'm glad that I actually did something right for once, something that actually impacted someone in a positive way. He always made me feel special, smart and I felt like I was a big impact in his life.
So yes I ran to my soon to be best friends aid and I never left it
I'm glad I knew you
My heart pulled me in your direction and my legs moved, my head reassured me that this was what I needed to do but a small voice told me to be careful.
You are my only family, besides my grandad
My only best friend
My soulmate and the only person I trust, you are
The doctor and my only choice. Not in that way of course, I don't fancy you. You just mean so much to me, much more than the planed, the universe and the stars combined.