Violence Never Ends Part 1:
As I sat with Emma,Sean,Toby,and Liberty in the hospital
waiting room I thought of what had just happened. To JT of all people. I'm not as dumb as people think I am. I know things. Violence won't end. Never. It didn't end two years ago when Rick died by his own gun. The same gun that left Jimmy paralayzed from the waist down, And it didn't end with Toby getting beat up by Lakehurst goons,leaving his arm broken and a cast around his neck. Now the same violence had gotten JT stabbed to death. No amount of doctors could've saved him. I know now that death doesn't choose someone evil. or someone who isn't as loved. Death has taken someone who was wonderful. Someone who was really loved and who was a great friend and a knight in shining armor to everyone. Someone with a heart of gold and who most importantly could make people laugh and smile and who was absolutely great with children. Death is harsh and cold and hateful. We lost a friend tonight and in a way lost a part of ourselves. We aren't as innocent or as carefree as we where even two hours ago. We will never be the same. Nothing ever will. Hate and jealousy killed someone. Someone much to young to have lost his life. Because of this JT won't ever get married or be able to see the son he and Liberty gave up' or graduate. Liberty was the one who found him. lying lifelessly on the ground. Slumped against his car,bleeding. She loved him you know,everyone could see that. If only more guys where like JT is-----------was. Then maybe people would be happy.
Beside me I hear Emma's muffled sniffling. She is hanging onto Sean's arm and crying into his shoulder. I see people staring at us and I know to them we must look strange...frightening even. Liberty's dress is torn and stained with JT''s blood all of us have red,puffy eyes and extremely messy hair but to tell you the truth? NONE of us give a damn of how we look right now. We're in a hospital. It just shouldn't matter to them how the hell we look.
I just can't help but blame myself for what's happened. I had to have a party. I had to invte a Lakehurst guy. Who in turn must've told his friends about the party. Perhaps people are right about me. Perhaps I AM weak and to dependent on men. Maybe I am slutty like they say even after three years have passed since the whole Craig/Me/Ashley thing. JT wouldn't want me to blame myself though. He wouldn't want to see me upset. we had been friends for years...since we where little kids. me,Emma,and him...the three musketeers. In fourth grade we had seperate seats and we all got so mad that we bit and kicked the teacher. After that she didn't even try to move us away from eachother,
Toby came into our little group later. It seems that he and JT had went to a summer camp together. Then Toby came to Degrassi and JT introduced the three of us. So then we where the four musketeers and it was great. Sean later came into the picture with us as Emma's very first boyfriend. I guess you could say he became close to all of us too. About two years later we all just sort of grew apart. We where still friends but with Emma mad at me and Sean turned gangster after the breakup with Emma. JT was the only one there for me at that time. The only one who didn't just blame me for what had happened with Craig. We began dating and he was a wonderful boyfriend,but he knew I still loved Craig and in a way I think he knew he loved Liberty no matter how much he tried to deny it.