„Noooo Noooo I can't! I can't! It hurts. Please make it stop it hurts!", Elena screams and breaks down on the floor, tears running down her cheek. Her friends have been right when they said she was in denial. She was until she went looking for her brother and realized what everybody already knew, her brother's dead. Yesterday, when she found her brother, lying on the floor of the cave, realizing he wasn't breathing anymore, no blood was left in his system, she saw everything infront of her eyes again: it's her fault. It's her fault that her parents died. It's her fault that John and Jenna are dead. And now it's her fault again. It's her fault that her brother's dead. One mistake caused all their deaths. And it was her mistake. If she didn't go to the party with Matt that night the car accident happened, her parents would still be alive. She should have stayed at home as it was planned and have a family evening. Her parents wouldn't have been in the car and they would be alive. If she didn't go to the party, she wouldn't have met Damon and Stefan. Her life and the life of her family members would be vampire-free. Klaus probably wouldn't have found her and the sacrafice wouldn't have been taken place-Jenna would be alive, Elena wouldln't have died and John wouldn't have sacrafice himself for her. No vampires-Elena wouldn't be a vampire by herself. Her friends and her brother wouldn't have searched for the 'cure' to make her human again. They wouldnt have gone to the island and into the cave. Katherine wouldn't have been there to kill Jeremy and her brother would still be alive. They would probably have a family evening now, laughing and getting on each other's nerves. They would be happy and ALIVE. But they aren't. They're all dead because Elena made this one big mistake which changed her whole life. It changed the lifes of everyone who lives in Mystic Falls. Elena dealt with the knowledge that she caused her parents, Jennas and Johns death as good as possible. She tried to convince herself that it wasn't fully her fault but deep inside she has always known the truth. It was her fault and everyday she prayed for forgivness but she knew there was no forgivness for people like her. She didn't deserve forgivness, she didn't deserve anything but being punished. But she couldn't think like that, she didn't allow herself to think this way because she needed to be there for her brother, to be strong for him. But now that he's gone and she has nothing to be strong for anymore it's all rushing back to her mind. Everyone is dead because of her and now there's nothing left for her anymore. She has nothing to live for. She can't be strong anymore, her whole life power that kept her standing and talking vanished and now she's sitting on the floor. No words can describe her pain, it's more than anyone can ever imagine. Losing her whole family and being the reason that they're dead-nobody can live with this knowledge. It's just too much. „Elena, I need you to calm down.", Damon says kneeling infront of her, causing her to cry harder. How should she calm down? There's no way she'll calm down it's not possible. There's no going back. When her other family members died she had a reason to calm down and move on with her life-her brother. But he's gone and this time she won't suffer and then move on. She can't. She can't go back to being the girl who has lost everyone. Damon realizes the same. Elena won't move on, not after losing her brother. It breaks pieces in Damon seeing her like this. He knows he has to be strong for her, help her, but it's very hard not breaking himself. He puts his arms around her and pulls her toward him. Elena clings to him as her life dependens on it and it probably does at the moment. Damon holds her tightly, murmuring,"I can help you." and after a while he breaks apart, causing Elena to look into his eyes. „I can help you."he repeats louder,suddenly knowing what he has to do. „How?" Elena asks desperately, ready to do anything just to make the pain stop. „Turn it off."Damon says and feels the power of the sire-bond. „Turn it off" he repeats more strongly. As Elena looks into the blue ocean eyes and listens to Damons voice she feels how the pain slowly starts vanishing. The pain about losing her parents, her aunt, uncle and her brother vanishes. But not just the pain vanishes. The next emotions leaving Elena are, love, sadness, joy... until there are no emotions left in Elena. She still looks like the same girl she was five seconds ago but now her humanity is gone.