Zaia's here people. And for you people wondering Kurozaia is working on updating but she's been a little slow lately for various reasons, one being forced to combat her MP3-player. And she's also been busy lately since she suddenly got herself a social life and stuff and that her acquaintances keeps interrupting her in writing.
Anyways, here we have another song based one shot/maybe two shot from me.
Hane no Zaia versus MP3-player, 1-0
Disclaimer: I don't own D. Gray – Man, Hoshino Katsura does. If I did then I probably wouldn't be writing fanfiction on my free time.
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Reflection
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Allen was lying on his back on his bed, looking at the roof.
Link finally seemed to have fallen asleep at his futon by the bed and Allen felt relieved, seeing that he might actually get some time to think in peace.
Then he felt like he was going to be sick, bringing his hands up to his mouth. He was overcome by a wave of nausea, but he was slowly getting used to it by now.
He swallowed soundly and swung his legs to the side of the bed, setting his bare feet down on the cold stone floor and getting to his feet as the bed screeched slightly.
Almost immediately Link's eyes snapped open and he located the source of the noise within moments, eyes narrowing slightly as they settled on the white-haired teenager.
"Walker. Why are you up?" he immediately asked.
"I'm just feeling a bit sick…" Allen replied as he made his way to the washroom.
Link, for once, made no attempts on following him, but he sat up and Allen knew that he wouldn't go back to sleep before he returned.
Allen went into the washroom and locked the door behind him before he took a quick glance in the mirror, seeing the shadow there greet him with the same grin as ever. Allen sighed, talking in a deep breath while trying to get rid of the nausea that once again overcame him with full power. After a few seconds Allen finally gave in, vomiting in the sink. Once he had finished the nausea had decreased a little but had resulted in some minor dizziness instead. He cast another glance at the 14th's reflection and sighed. Then he soundlessly mouthed the following lines:
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"In the mirror
Reflected
Memories of old
As I see your grin in the mirror
My heart grows so cold
Knowing that eventually
You will be me
Knowing that too soon
I'll cease to be"
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Allen felt another wave of dizziness come on and he leaned towards the stone wall, seeking some support. He almost hit his head in surprise as he heard how the 14th started singing in his head.
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There's no place for you here
You'll meet only fear
All the voices you hear
Will be raised in fear
All the eyes that you meet
Will be filled with hate
As you accept your defeat
And comply with your fate
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Allen felt like punching the mirror, but he didn't since a broken mirror would be hard to explain to Link.
The 14th continued singing.
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You'll never be welcome
Not one of them
Always alone
Until the end
Say will you never learn
That you can never return
To those bright skies
Reflected in your eyes
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Allen took a deep breath, trying to collect himself as his vision went slightly blurry. He shut his eyes, wanting to escape somehow to a place where the voice didn't reach him. But he couldn't.
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You look at the sun
Shining brightly above
Still you feel no warmth
Still you're cold inside
Still why do you hide
Still why do you fear
I'm still here
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"Stop…" Allen whispered. "Stop messing with my head…"
But the 14th continued, ignorant of its host's protests.
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You turn your eyes down to the earth
You close your eyes and turn your back to the world
The rain is falling from the sky
As you continue to ask yourself why
It has to be that way
Why it'll never change
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"Shut up… Please…"
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They'll never accept you
For whom you want to be
They'll never respect you
The only one with you
Will be me
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"Just go away…"
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You turn your eyes to the sea
Wishing that you could be free
Since you do not belong in this place
You run away at a fast pace
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Allen opened his eyes lightly, once again catching sight of the shadow in the mirror staring at him. Its smile was widening, as if it was taunting him.
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Even if you want to leave this place
Remember that you're not alone
Realize that I'm still here
Don't look at me with fear
Don't deny that I am here
Don't tell yourself it's just a dream
Since I'm here listening to your scream
This is no dream
This is truth no lie
You can run
But you won't get far
Since as I may remind you
I'm not that far behind you
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Allen got to his feet, using the wall as a support to keep steady as he stared back at the one staring at him in the mirror. His silver eyes narrowed slightly.
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"Even if I ask myself why
It has to be this way
You're always right behind me
When I try to run away
Smirking in the darkness
Messing with my head
Waiting for the blankness
I wish that I was dead
Since if I'm still alive
When I become you
You will strive
To kill my friends too"
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The 14th's smirk widened and a tired Allen concluded that he was definitely being mocked by him. Luckily the nausea was going away and the dizziness had decreased a bit, so Allen wouldn't have to put up with the 14th's mockery for much longer.
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"Smirk widening beyond compare
Eyes widening before closing in despair
Opening again to see what I feel
Is a truth too cruel to be real
As I stare into the mirror
Seeing what I've become"
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Allen took a quick glance at the mess he had made in the sink earlier and he pondered whether he'd clean it up now or later.
Later, he concluded as another wave of dizziness reminded itself.
His eyes darted off back to the 14th's shadow.
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"In the mirror
Reflected
Memory of old
As I see your grin in the mirror
My heart grows so cold
Knowing that eventually
You will be me
Knowing that too soon
I'll cease to be"
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The 14th's round orb like eyes never left him, glowing in the dim light of the room.
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There's no place for you here
You'll meet only fear
All the voices you hear
Will be raised in fear
All the eyes that you meet
Will be filled with hate
As you accept your defeat
And comply with your fate
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Their eyes met briefly, but then Allen looked away. Then suddenly he charged forward, punching the mirror, making cracks and sending shards down into the sink and into his hand. It was really painful, but Allen didn't care.
The 14th was still staring at him, but his smile was as ever still present even though the eyes narrowed considerably.
Allen stared back at him without flinching, but their staring contest was interrupted by a soft knock on the door.
Well, of course Link had heard Allen break the mirror.
Allen sighed and looked down at his injured hand and then at the broken mirror before his eyes darted off to the door.
This could be a little hard to explain…
"Walker. Are you alright?" Link asked.
"I'm fine." Allen replied tonelessly.
"It didn't sound fine. It sounded like you broke something." Link said.
"I did break something, but I can take care of it." Allen answered calmly.
There was a brief silence until Link finally spoke.
"Allen Walker. Open the door now. It's an order."
Allen sighed and complied with unlocking the door while hiding his injured hand behind his back.
But Link had sharp instincts and as he entered he cast a fast glance at the broken mirror and then his eyes stuck onto Allen. Then he charged forward, grabbed his wrist and held it up in a firm grip. His eyes narrowed slightly and Allen looked away.
"May I inquire as to the reason of why you did this?" he asked, fingers pressed onto the wound, making Allen flinch slightly.
"No reason." Allen said. "I just felt like punching something."
Link let go of his hand briefly as he went to get the first aid box. As he got back and started dressing the wound while muttering to himself.
"This kid has issues."
Allen smiled slightly.
"Who wouldn't get issues with a guy living in my head and you people following me around everywhere?" he asked with sarcasm in his voice.
Link looked up at the boy, noting the apparent difference in his behavior. The usual Allen, the one during daytime was a happy and cheerful person in most cases and seemingly innocent, but nighttime the Allen that he met had a more dark and depressed aura around him and a certain amount of bitterness and irony in his voice. With further observation Link concluded that Allen seemed to be in worse shape than he had earlier anticipated.
"You look even paler than usual." He said. "Are you sick?"
Allen sighed and closed his eyes, still refusing to take eye contact.
"No more than usual." He replied.
"Allen, look at me."
The white-haired teenager looked up, surprised to be called by his first name for once. But he had trouble keeping his eyes focused as another wave of dizziness suddenly overcame him. He shut his eyes again and slumped slightly against the frame of the blond man before him.
"Allen? Allen Walker?"
Link's voice suddenly seemed to awfully distant to him, drowning in the buzzing noise filling his ears, but one thing that Link said Allen heard really clearly.
"… Should I get you to the medical wing?"
Allen took a deep breath.
"I'm fine, just a bit dizzy, that's all." He said quietly.
"You don't look fine."
"There's need to worry about it." Allen said as he straightened up, taking a quick glance into the mirror, seeing the 14th's smile and suddenly he smiled back at him. "It will be over soon."
Link looked at him weirdly, frowning, but he said nothing.
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"I sigh heavily
While still refusing to give in
As I stare into the mirror
Seeing what I've become
I want it all to shatter
I want it all to be gone"
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The End? (Or not. You decide. If you want a continuation then beg me for it.)
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Zaia: Kurozaia is currently busy with other updates, but she left a message for you all… It says: "I'm writing on the upcoming chapters of TCoM, SyH and PB, however, it might still take some time before I get them up, ok. So don't be mad at me, since I'm actually working on it… And I have another test to study for also, but it won't affect my writing too much I hope. I'll update soon, hopefully. – Kurozaia (with a gift to break electronics)"
Zaia: Actually, in my opinion Kurozaia's just lazy. (ducks for a flying axe) Ok, she's gotten in a bit over her head and stuff. But she IS a lazy person, with big ambitions. (receives a rock with a message in her head) Ouch… Oh, another message… Let's see here now… It says "Show me some gratitude since I got you the highest score on the economy test. Without me you would've been flunked, period." (sweatdrops) The most painful thing is that she's right… though I truly hate to admit it… Oh, whatever, REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW and make me feel like I didn't waste my life writing this!
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