AN: Yay! I got another idea. –nods- I've had this idea floating inside my head for awhile now, and I finally sat down to write it. I got this idea from the song Hero/Heroine from Boys like Girls. I changed some of the words (like maybe two or three of them) to make since, and just so you know… this isn't the full song. I took parts of the song and threw them where I thought they'd fit perfectly. I think I did well considering I wrote this at night/early morning.
Shortening that long, rambling AN above- This is what Edward is thinking about Bella being his heroin(e). Hope you enjoy! Please Review, even if you have something bad to say.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or Hero/Heroine by Boys like Girls.
"So what you're saying is, I'm your brand of heroin?" her sweet voice echoed throughout the clearing. She was obviously trying to lighten the mood but little did she know how right she was.
It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you need to know
That this time
She was my heroin... in more than just one way. Of course she was like a drug to me. I was hopelessly addicted and there was no way of getting out now, no cure. I craved her smell, her beauty, her delicacy. I craved her. I needed her to survive. I cannot fathom my existence without her ever again. I needed her like a drug.
Yeah, you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
And then she was also my heroine. She was so brave and courageous. She didn't even seem frightened by a monster like me, such an illogical response, it's simply unbelievable... but even though I knew that she'd be better off without me, I was ecstatic that she did, in fact, choose me. She made me feel alive, human. It seemed like she needed me as much as I needed her, and she made me feel human. Not a monster. When she murmured my name in her sleep it felt like my heart was beating once more. It was amazing how it soared, simply because she said two syllables unconsciously in her sleep. But it did. I've waited over ninety years for her without consciously knowing it... and for the first time... I am truly glad that Carlisle had decided to change me that night in Chicago, because if he hadn't, I would have never fallen in love with my precious angel. My Bella. My heroine.
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so so real
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie
I smiled down at my love, grateful that I had this opportunity to be so close to her, for surely this cannot last much longer. She will soon come to her senses, her human senses that she'd been avoiding, and she'll run away. I won't try to stop her when she runs because even though I never want to let her go, I know she can do so much better. Because as much as she makes me feel human, the fact is that I am a monster. An angel should not be condemned to anything with monsters.
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
But as far as she runs, I will always love her and nothing could ever change that.
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
"Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin."