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I saw her eyes follow him across the room. I just couldn't fathom why she had feelings for him. The guy's a total git. He constantly toyed with her, not to mention he only showed interest when she began to be happy with someone else. And that someone else just happened to be me. I saw her eyes go vacant as Teddy walked out of her sight, arm in arm with some blonde. The girl didn't hold a candle to Lily. Lily grabs your attention with her loosely curled auburn hair and her striking hazel eyes. Her smaller stature and curves only add to her sensuality. In truth I think I fell in love with the girl my last year at Hogwarts, but I knew it was too late then. The one time I tried to talk to her I failed miserably, and I don't think she even remembers. When I graduated I figured my shot was over. She would either meet some bloke in that time or move away after school. But by some amazing chance Albus decided to stick around and try the Auror thing with me instead of his original plan to travel after graduation. We got a place together and Mrs. Potter insisted that I join them for dinner. The entire family seemed to have warmed up to me, even James. When I finally did talk to Lily I found out that she had had some kind of relationship with Teddy Lupin. She was clearly still hung up on him, but I was determined to give it my best shot with Lily. And now here I was at the Potter's Christmas party with Lily as my date. Watching her watch him.
"Lily," I said bringing her attention back to me. "Are you ok?" She seemed anxious at my question.
"Of course," she smiled, but it didn't reach her eyes. I wrapped my arm around her waist and led her to the dance floor. Her petite waist fit so perfectly in my arms. A slow song began to play, which I was grateful for. She looped her arms around my neck and I pulled her close to me, not leaving an inch of space. I was thankful that James had gotten drunk early on in the evening, while Albus had met some girl and wondered off with her.
"I've missed you," I whispered in her ear. I could see her cheeks tinge with pink. She was so beautiful. "You look stunning in that dress," I didn't even bother hiding the enthusiasm in my voice. It was true; she was dressed in a simple black dress, which made her beautiful auburn curls stand out more than usual. Her makeup was simple, which I always appreciated about Lily. She never wore too much makeup, like many girls.
"You think so?" She asked doubtfully.
"Of course," I brushed the back of my hand across her pink cheeks, "You always look beautiful." She leaned her head against my chest. Even in her heels she was so small, fragile. We twirled across the floor, but I was more focused on the feel of her in my arms. The song was ending and I wanted so badly to prolong the moment. I wanted to do what I hadn't had the courage to do since that day on the porch. I wanted to press my lips against hers. I wanted to kiss her more than anything in the world. But that stubborn part of my brain wouldn't let me. In the back of my mind I knew now was not the right time. The first time I kiss Lily it would be my last first kiss, and right now I knew she still had feelings for that wretched Lupin who in no way deserved her. Instead of kissing her I pulled back a little, still keeping our bodies painfully close. "Would you like a drink?" She nodded.
I made my way over to the drinks but was stopped by a slightly drunk James.
"You know," he slurred, "I don't want my baby sister dating." He was grinning as he slapped his hand across my shoulder. "But I guess if she had to date someone you're not the worst choice."
"Oh?" I smirked. I found it amusing that James Potter found someone out there worse for Lily than me, a Malfoy.
"Trust me," he continued, "There are worse guys out there." I didn't push the matter. He was drunk after all. I noticed James looking in the direction I had just come from and followed his gaze. I felt my blood boil when I saw Lupin talking to Lily. He was the master of games and Lily seemed to just be a victim to his charms. He didn't truly care about her the way I did. Lily's face, however did not seem that of a happy girl, which calmed me a little. James was watching with a strange look on his face. He seemed angry. Could he know about Lily and Teddy? I doubted it. James was never one to catch on to those kinds of things. James had seemed to forget about me, so I continued making my way to the drinks.
I had finally reached the drinks and began pouring them, when I saw a tear stained Lily come running up. I dropped the drinks and wrapped my arms around her as if protecting her from everyone around us. I rested my head on hers, vaguely noticing the coconut smell that surrounded her hair.
"Can we get out of here?" There was no way I could say no to her tiny voice. Part of me wanted to stride over to where Teddy was and curse him into oblivion. He was no match for me. I had far more training, not to mention James and Al always found a way to back me up. The bloke wouldn't stand a chance. The only thing stopping me was the beautiful broken girl in front of me.
"Of course," I murmured in her hair. She looked up at me with her beautiful wide eyes. "Come on," I said as I reached for her hand and pulled her to the door. I found our coats on the way out and helped Lily put hers on. We walked outside of the house's apparating boundaries before holding my arm out and asking, "Home?"
Lily looked thoughtful for a moment before looking at me with a new gleam in her eye. "Actually, well I was thinking we could go somewhere else?" I was a little confused and she seemed to notice, quickly adding "If you want."
I held my arm out "Sure, where to then?" Now the gleam in her eye was evident and she smiled at me slyly.
"Actually I was thinking I could take us," She held out her hand and I took it without a moments hesitation. I would follow the girl to the ends of the earth.
I looked around our new location and couldn't quite figure out where Lily had brought us. It was dark out, with only the stars and moons rays for lighting.
"I'm sorry," why was she apologizing? "I just had to get out of there. It's still hard being around him," it seemed to have taken her quite a bit of courage to admit this, something that neither of our houses at Hogwarts were known for.
"I understand you still have feelings for him," as much as I didn't want to think about that I knew I had to get it out. She loved the guy for who knows how long, it can't be easy to just forget about them, not that I would know. Sure I dated girls, but it was never serious.
"I guess," I struggled to get out the words. "I just need to know how you feel about me." It was hard to speak the words, but I had to know. She may very well not feel a thing for me and I needed to know.
"I like being around you," she began. "You make me forget about Teddy and the pain." Perhaps it was the words she was saying or the setting around us, or simply her beauty as she gleamed under the moon, but I felt myself pulled to her. "And," she continued slowly, "I miss you when I don't see you." I tired to catch my breath at her words. She may have feelings for him, but she also had feelings for me. Her red hair glowed under the moon and her skin looked like porcelain. Her dress hugged her petite frame and I felt myself resolve. I locked my eyes onto her beautiful hazel orbs.
"Lily Luna Potter you are so beautiful," I murmured caressing her face with my fingers. I felt her body closer than it had been only a moment ago as I tangled my hands in her hair. I leaned in smelling her sweet scent as I pressed my lips to hers. She tasted sweeter than I had imagined. I felt my control waver and deepened the kiss. She reached her soft hands to my face and pulled me closer. I released her hair and trailed my hands down her sides to her waist so I could pull her closer. There wasn't an inch of space between us, yet it still didn't feel close enough. It was the most amazing feeling in the world and I refused to be the one to pull back from the kiss. I would rather suffocate from lack of oxygen than lose this moment.
After what seemed too short a time, Lily pulled back. I was gasping for air as I felt a smile spread across my face. I couldn't look away from her. I felt hypnotized by her beauty. She finally looked up at me after what felt like an eternity. A smile spread across her face and I was flooded with relief. There was no going back for me now. I would always be hers.
"So," she started, but didn't continue as she ran her fingers through her hair.
"Yeah," I said a bit awkwardly. Her cheeks were flush as I am sure mine were. She smoothed out her dress and lowered herself to the grassy floor beneath us. I followed her lead surprised at how soft the earth beneath us felt. I folded my arms behind my head looking up at the stars. I wanted to preserve the beauty of this night with Lily by my side.
"Thank you," she murmured softly next to me. I propped myself up to look at her.
"For what?" Her cheeks tinged pink, which I found utterly irresistible.
"For making me feel alive again," she breathed. I reached over to stroke her hair as she let out a content sigh. "I felt so broken, but it's not so bad anymore." Angry thoughts of Teddy threatened to invade my mind, but simply watching the girl in front of me erased all traces of those thoughts.
I laid back down, not taking my eyes off of her. "I just want you to be happy," I told her honestly.
I watched her hands fiddle with blades of grass as she told me the story of her father's owl and how it hurt her so. I knew from the moment I saw her in her room that she had a gently soul. I reached for her hand unable to restrain from touching her any longer. I never wanted to let go of her,
"Anyway," she said changing the subject, "How did you like being sorted into Slytherin?" I smirked, although she probably couldn't tell in the dark. She knew exactly the right question to ask.
"Well," I rubbed small circles on her hand trying to distract her to no avail, "My whole family was in that house. It was expected." She gave me a sidelong look that told me she wasn't fooled. "It was better after Al and I became friends. We had more in common than the others in our house." I paused not sure if I wanted to reveal more, "You know, I was almost sorted into Ravenclaw. I all but begged the hat to put me into Slytherin." She was the only soul in the world that knew that other than the hat and myself.
"Imagine," she said still looking up at the stars, "How different things could have been."
"What do you mean?"
"Well," she turned her gaze on me. She looked even more beautiful in the moonlight, if that were possible. "We could have been doing this a long time ago."
"You know," I reached my free hand to stroke her cheek, "I tried to talk to you my seventh year at Hogwarts."
"I remember," my eyebrows shot up in surprise. "I was watching Al practice on the Quidditch field and you flew over to where I was sitting," she paused looking thoughtful, "All you said was 'Hi Lily' and then…" she trailed off.
"A stray bludger came flying at me when I wasn't paying attention and I ended up in the hospital wing," I finished for her, trying not to feel too embarrassed.
"Yeah, but I didn't see you after that. I mean, you never tried to talk to me after that."
"I know," I was feeling stupider by the minute. "I figured I blew my shot."
She lightly squeezed my hand. "Well you didn't."
We had been talking for a little over an hour about things like favorite colors− during which I leaned over and planted a kiss on her for no particular reason− and our families. After I pulled back from our second kiss I brought her closer to me and wrapped my arm around her. She rested her hand on my stomach, which sent sparks deep inside.
Lily yawned. "It must be getting late."
I know," I hated to admit it, when another thought occurred to me, "You think your parents will be angry?"
"No they usually stay at my grandparents all night," she made a noise that almost sounded like a laugh as her eyes drooped shut a little. "I should probably go home, though. Al and James will notice if I'm not there when they wake up." I brushed my pants off as I stood up and helped Lily off the ground. She flattened her dress looking mildly self-conscious.
"I'll walk you home," I grabbed her hand and made my way for her house. We made idle conversation on the way back and I could already feel the pain of separation. We reached the front door, but I just had to prolong the moment.
I stood in front of her, bringing my face closer to her. "There's something I want to do," I whispered my lips almost grazing her ear. She shivered slightly before I placed my lips against hers. I could feel my need for her creeping up inside of me as I stroked the sides of her face before pulling her closer. I felt her small arms wrap around me and pull our bodies closer than I would have thought possible. I had to pull back before I lost control, although I would be perfectly content to lose myself in Lily. "I had to properly kiss you goodnight." As soon as the words were out of my mouth Lily clutched my jacket and pulled me in for another passionate embrace. I couldn't fight it anymore. I slid my tongue across her bottom lip, noting the sweet taste. She responded by gently nibbling on my lip, which sent me over the edge. I let out a small groan as she pulled back. She smiled seductively before turning toward the front door. I reached for her hand before she could turn the knob.
"When can I see you again?" I asked desperately.
"Won't you be busy with your new case?" I touched her flush cheeks.
"I'll make time," my hand now cupping her cheek as she laid hers on top of mine. "Goodnight, Lily."
"Goodnight," she said sleepily.
I love you. I thought the words I wanted to say as she turned toward the door and walked inside. I made my way down the walkway that let to the front door, turning once to look back at Lily. She was watching me, which made my heart jump, as I disapparated away from the Potter cottage.
AN: Ok, I know that was a long time coming, but I wanted it to be perfect. I hope you all enjoyed it! And let me know what you think so I know if I should continue this or leave it as a one-shot.
Also if you're reading my other story I will have a new chapter up tomorrow, I promise.