Never Gonna Be Alone Chapter 1, a twilight fanfic

Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer, I own nothing you recognize.

Ok so here is the New Story I promised. Hope you enjoy it.

The title is from a Nickelback song.

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Stasia Miller lost her boyfriend tragically. She isolated herself from her friends, shutting them all away and promised never to date any other guy again, if she couldn't have the only guy she would ever love she didn't want anyone. When Paul imprints on her can he stop being a jerk and help her, knocking down the wall she built around her heart.

Never Gonna Be Alone by Nickelback

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall,
You're never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'till the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall,
When all hope is gone
I know that you can carry on
We're gonna take the world on
I'll hold you 'till the hurt is gone

Oh,
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun
Every single day,
May be our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

I'm gonna be there all the way,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day.

CHAPTER 1

Sometimes life doesn't turn out the way you planned or hoped it would. Sometimes the last person you ever expect to help turns out to be the one person you need and can't live without. Sometimes it's the person who you never thought would ever help you that saves you and gives you a reason to smile again when you thought there would never be anything to smile about again and sometimes you have to loose everything before you get everything you ever dreamed of.

Stasia Miller tossed her long blonde hair over her shoulder and glanced over at her boyfriend Ethan from the passenger seat of his black Honda Accord. He smiled over at her, the two of them were driving back from Forks to La Push after a date. Stasia and Ethan had been dating for a year now. Stasia never would have imagined he would have looked twice at her. He was one of the most popular and best looking guys in school. Tall, dark and handsome with a killer smile and great personality to go with it. Stasia never thought of herself as being pretty or being the girl the popular guy would love but Ethan said he loved her and she loved him. Yes she was a bit more curvy than all the other girls at school, she never thought of herself as being fat though, she just had curves the other girls didn't have. Ethan said he loved her curves, he found her beautiful, the popular football star all the girls wanted found her beautiful and she had never been happier until everything was taken away from her. On the ride back from Forks the car broke down. Ethan managed to get the car pulled over to the side of the road so he could check it out.

"You stay here, I'm going to see what's wrong," he said and leaned over and kissed her lips, if Stasia had known what was going to happen next she would have made that kiss last longer. Ethan got out of the car and lifted the hood. He had only been looking under the hood a few minutes when a car pulled over and two guys got out and walked over to Ethan. Stasia heard them talking and then she heard Ethan talking to them calmly at first then in a panicked voice and then she heard two gunshots and she let out a scream and in a moment of insanity got out of the car to see what happened. When she walked around to the front of the car she saw Ethan lying on the ground, blood staining his shirt from a wound.

"Stasia," he managed to get out and the two guys looked at her one of them pointed the gun at her and fired and she felt the bullet hit her hip and she went down by Ethan with a scream and she heard the guys run off and then speed away. Stasia managed to get her cell phone from her pocket and call 911.

Stasia woke up the next day in the hospital. She managed to survive, her mom and dad stayed with her all night. They looked so relieved she was awake and they both went quickly to her bedside.

"We're so glad you're awake," her mom said.

"We were both so worried," her dad said and kissed her cheek. "How do you feel?" he asked worried.

"Sore and tired," Stasia said quietly. "I have a headache."

"We'll get the nurse to bring you something and come check your wound," her dad told her.

"Do you remember what happened?" her mom asked.

"Ethan and I were coming back from a date and the car broke down, he got out to check it and a car pulled over I heard voices and then gunshots," she said and her eyes teared up. "Ethan, I need to see him." she said and tried to get out of bed.

"Stasia, please lay down," her mom pleaded.

"Where is he?" Stasia asked.

"He lost a lot of blood before the ambulance got there and they did everything they could honey," her mom said.

"No mom," Stasia whispered as tears fell down her cheeks.

"He didn't make it, Ethan passed away last night," her dad told her.

"NO!" she yelled and tears started falling down her cheeks. "No," she cried and laid her hand over her heart, it felt like her heart had been crushed right before it was broken into a million pieces. Her mom wrapped her arms around her and let her cry as she gently ran her fingers through her hair. It was only later Stasia learned the guys that did this were caught and that Ethan died over the fifty dollars in his wallet and the watch he had on his wrist.

After Ethan's death Stasia went through a few months of not talking to anyone, she went to school and came home but never did much because she thought it wasn't possible anyone could know how she felt, what it felt like to loose the guy you love, the first guy you loved, the first guy you really kissed and the first guy you slept with. How it felt like she would never love anyone again and why she would never want to love any guy again because they could be taken away from you just as easily as you found them. Her mom eventually made her go to therapy to talk about her feelings, hoping it would help her and that she could get better. Stasia gradually began to get better but there was still a brick wall built around her broken, shattered heart that she wouldn't let anyone get through, so she spent most of her days alone still, at school and home because after months of not talking to her friends and pushing them away they finally decided to just leave her alone. She never dated anyone else even though it had been almost a year since Ethan was shot. Guys asked her out of course, turns out Ethan wasn't the only guy who thought she was beautiful and loved her curves, but she never went out with any of them, preferring to remain boyfriendless and dateless because no guy could ever compare to Ethan the first and only guy she would ever love.

Stasia Miller walked down the stairs of her house to the kitchen to have breakfast before school. Her mom was already up and drinking a cup of coffee.

"Morning," her mom said.

"Morning mom," Stasia said quietly and fixed a cup of coffee and grabbed a bagel and put it in the toaster, she grabbed the cream cheese from the refrigerator while she was waiting on her bagel. Her bagel popped up in the toaster and she grabbed it and spread some cream cheese on it and then put the cream cheese up and sat down at the table to eat.

"Your dad and I are going out for our anniversary tonight."

"Oh, that should be fun for you two," she said softly.

"You going to be ok by yourself?" she asked.

"Yeah," Stasia said. "I'm staying after school anyway, work on things for my music class."

"Ok," her mom said and she walked over and took her wallet from her purse and grabbed some money out of it. "Get whatever you want for dinner," she told her and handed her the money.

"Thanks mom," she said. "So you said you're staying after for your music class again?"

"Yes mom."

"You stay for that class almost everyday," her mom stated.

"Yes mom, it helps," Stasia whispered. "My music helps me deal with everything."

"Its almost been a year sweetie and you're still…."

"I'm fine mom, I just lost the first and only guy I'll ever love."

"Stasia, you'll love another guy,"

"I don't want another guy I want Ethan," she told her and wiped a stray tear that ran down her cheek.

"I know honey, but you will meet someone one day," she told her.

"I'm going to school," Stasia said and took a final bite of her bagel and sip of her coffee and grabbed her bag and walked out of the house.

Stasia started the walk to school, she didn't live that far so she felt driving was ridiculous. Her mom was always on her case about trying to move on and spending time with her friends. What her mom didn't know was that she pushed all her friends away and turned every guy down that asked her out and most of the time the guys got really angry when she said no, it was like they'd never heard the word no before. The truth was she just didn't want to date anyone else, she just wanted Ethan back but she knew that would never happen.

Stasia walked into school and went to her locker. She took her books from her bag and put them in her locker and grabbed the things she needed for her first classes and put them in her bag and closed her locker, she was about to turn and go to class when a voice stopped her.

"Stasia," it was some guy. Stasia turned around and looked up into the face of Embry Call.

Embry, Jacob, Quil and Paul were waiting for Jared by Paul's locker.

"He's probably with Kim," Quil said.

"Ever since he imprinted that's where he always is, who cares that we're waiting." Paul grumbled.

"Paul," Jacob said. "None of us know what imprinting feels like so we can't really blame him for wanting to spend his time with her."

"Whatever," Paul complained. "But I'm fixing to go to class without him." he said and crossed his arms over his chest and leaned against the wall. Two girls walked by and looked over at him letting their eyes travel over his body.

"Hey Paul," they said together and he gave them a sexy smirk and wink and they giggled and walked off.

"Seriously Paul, one girl at a time," Jacob said shaking his head, Paul just shrugged.

"One day you're going to meet the girl of your dreams Paul and then what are you going to do?" Quil asked.

"Not a damn thing," Paul said confidently. "No girl is going to make me change, not now or ever."

"We'll see if you still say that when you imprint," Embry told him and he glanced down the hallway and saw Stasia walk to her locker.

"What are you staring at?" Quil asked.

"Stasia Miller," Embry said and all the guys turned to look at her. Stasia had long blonde hair and her skin was a little paler than everyone elses, it was a nice light brown color which came from her mom not being Quileute and her dad being full blooded Quileute.

"Pretty," Quil said.

"I think beautiful, hot and sexy are better words," Paul said as his eyes traveled her body. "how come I've never noticed her?"

"Because you're an asshole," Embry told him.

"You like her?" Jacob asked.

"I don't really know her but its not fair for us to be serious about any girl because our imprint could come along and change everything." Embry told them.

"Doesn't mean you can't be friends," Jacob said. "Besides Stasia doesn't date anyway."

"What do you mean?" Paul asked but he never took his eyes off Stasia.

"You remember Ethan Lewis?" Jacob said. "Football player, popular guy…"

"Yeah I remember him," Paul said.

"Didn't he die last year?" Quil asked.

"He was shot Quil," Embry told him. "Stasia," he said glancing over at her. "Was his girlfriend, from what I understand him and Stasia were on a date and his car broke down and when he pulled over to check it some guys shot him, took his wallet and watch, my mom was working at the hospital that night, she said they shot Stasia to." he told them. "Ethan died that night and she hasn't dated since and turns every guy down that asks." he sighed. "She's always alone, she needs friends."

"Go talk to her," Jacob told him and Embry nodded and walked over to her. When he reached her she had just shut her locker.

"Stasia," he said and she turned around and looked up at him, Embry looked down at her and smiled, their eyes met but he didn't feel a pull or anything to her so he knew he did not imprint.

"Hi Stasia," he said. "I know we've never talked before, I'm Embry."

"I know who you are," she said softly.

"Oh good," he said and gave her a smile. "So I was wondering if you might want to hangout some time?" he asked hopefully.

"Embry no," she said and turned to walk off.

"Wait please," he said and she turned back around.

"What?"

"I'm not asking you out on a date, I know you don't date," he said.

"Oh."

"I was hoping you might want to have lunch with me and my friends or something."

"Your friends," she said nervously.

"Yes," he said and Stasia looked at him.

"No Embry, sorry," she whispered and walked away. Embry let out a sigh and walked back over to the guys.

"She said no, I figured she would but it was worth a shot." he sighed.

At lunch Stasia sat at her normal table by herself with her tray of food. Embry, Paul, Jared, Jacob, Quil and Kim took their usual seats at a table. Embry looked over and saw Stasia sitting by herself.

"Does she always sit by herself?" Embry asked and they all looked over and saw his gaze was on Stasia.

"I think so, I've never paid attention," Jacob admitted.

"She's way to hot to be sitting alone," Paul said as he looked over.

"Paul, don't," Jared said. "Just don't."

"Leave her alone, she's not going to go out with you," Jacob told him. "So don't try it."

"Whatever," Paul shrugged and glanced over at her again.

After school Paul spotted Stasia by her locker getting her books out to take home. He walked over and leaned against the locker next to hers.

"Hello," he said and Stasia looked at him.

"Paul," she said nervously. "Don't," she said softly and he looked shocked but quickly covered it.

"So what is Stasia a nickname for?"

"Anastasia," she said quietly.

"Anastasia," he repeated and Stasia felt her heartbeat speed up. "That's pretty."

"Thanks," she whispered.

"You're beautiful," he told her and looked over at her.

"Paul…"

"How about you let me take you out," he smirked and waited for her to say yes.

"No Paul," she told him and turned to walk away.

"WHAT!" he exclaimed. " No one turns me down," he said surprised.

"Paul." she said. "I just can't…"

"Its fine Anastasia," he said angrily. "I didn't really want to go out with you anyway, I just thought I'd offer since you're always alone," he spat. "I don't date fat girls anyway," he said and Stasia covered her stomach with her arms and looked up at him and shook her head.

"You don't have to be a jerk just because I turned you down," she said.

"I was actually just tying to be nice," he told her. "But like I said, I don't date fat girls anyway, you're to fat for me," he said and he let his eyes travel her body and Stasia shook her head and her eyes filled with tears. Jacob was walking down the hall trying to find Paul, he saw him talking to Stasia and he noticed Stasia looked upset and he sped up to get over to him hearing the last words Paul said to her.

"I don't date fat girls anyway,"

"PAUL!" Jacob said and Paul turned around to look at him.

"WHAT?" he asked.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Jacob asked and he looked over at Stasia. "Are you ok?" he asked concerned.

"I'm fine," she told him and Paul turned and she looked up at him and he saw a tear run down her cheek, he looked down and his dark brown eyes met her hazel eyes and Paul felt everything else disappear the only thing he could see was Stasia, he suddenly felt like he would do anything and be anything she needed, He would protect her and keep her safe from everyone who wanted to hurt her. Paul let out a gasp and he saw a tear run down her cheek.

"Anastasia," he whispered and he reached over to wipe her tear away but she turned and ran off down the hall. "Damn it," Paul cursed and hit the lockers leaving a dent in them. "I'm such an idiot."

"Well you won't get any argument with me on that," Jacob said. "What the hell just happened."

"I imprinted on Anastasia," he said softly.

"Who is Anastasia?"

"Stasia, Anastasia is her full name," he told him and Jacob nodded.

"Well personally I think that's what you get for acting like an asshole," Jacob told him. "I just feel sorry for Stasia."

"Jake."

"Well you have a lot of work to do if you want her to like you," Jacob said.

"Maybe I don't want her to like me," he said stubbornly. "Why would I want her anyway?" he asked meanly. "She's broken."

"And you are a complete asshole," Jacob said angrily and turned and walked away from Paul.

When Jacob was gone Paul covered his face with his hands. The second he imprinted on Stasia he felt how much she was hurting, how sad she was, he could still feel it coursing through his body and it was only getting stronger. So he turned and walked down the hall the way Stasia had ran off, looking for her.