I have to find him.

All I know after seeing Katniss on t.v is that I've got to find Gale.
I must find him.

I storm out of my house and ran to his house at the Seam. There are
barely any people on the streets, aside from it's already late, the
games is also airing live from the arena and everyone's watching. I
know I'm not suppose to be outside but I have to find him.

Eventually, I made it to his house with being spotted by the
peacekeepers, but his mother said he just left minutes before I showed
up.
I missed him.

Now where could he be? Where could I find him? I don't know Gale as
much as Katniss do. I don't know where he goes when he's sad or upset.

I throw my hands in the air in frustration. What was I thinking? Going
out late at night, running around like a puppy dog looking for Gale
who may or may not want to be found. I don't know where he is.

No. Wait, I know exactly where he is.

I whip around and look at the vast woods. He's out there, in the woods.

Without even thinking, I ran to the fence and threw rocks and leaves
to make sure it's not wired. It's not. I cross the fence and now I'm
out here, outside the safety of my District. If my father learns about
this he would kill me with his bare hands.

All I could hear is the hooting of some nocturnal birds up in the
trees and twig snapping made by tiny animals. I couldn't see much
because the moon is my only source of light.

"Gale?" I murmur.
God! Now I'm doubting if he's really here!

"Gale? Are you out her?" my heart is raising. I'm scared to death but
I can't just go back. "Gale?"

"Madge?"

I literally jump of my feet when he appeared behind a big oak tree.

"Madge? What are you doing here?" he ask.

There it is, there may be a little light but I could still see it.
Gale's grey eyes that I've always longed for.

But tonight it's different.

I swear on the day of the reaping, that morning they brought my father
strawberries, I could see fire in his eyes, but now it's gone.

"What are you doing out here, Madge?" he repeat.

I swallow the jump in my throat, unsure if I should ask him. "Did you see-?"

He look away. Of course he did, idiot. I scold myself for even asking.

Other thing, I don't know if I should tell him the rumors from the
Capitol. Gale's going through tough times and I can't bed some stupid
rumors to that. He's been working twice as hard to keep his and
Katniss' family from starving.

And then Peeta Mellark happen.

"I just-" I bite my lower lip. I don't want him to think In nosey. "I
just want to know if you're okay."

"I'm fine."

"But you did saw them, in the arena. In that cave-"

"I did, Madge! Everybody did!" he yell at me, his voice echoing in the
woods. "What do you want me to do?!"

I can tell that Gale is in pain but I am too.

Katniss is in the games, she's good as dead, but why can't he see me?
I'm right here, in front of him. Why am being so invisible to him?

"I'm sorry," he say after a minute of silence. "I'm just-"

I turn away. I can't face him anymore. "No. I'm sorry. It's really my
fault. I shouldn't be here." Then when I'm starting to walk away, he
grab my wrist.

"Madge, wait." His cold hand warms my heart and the butterflies in my
stomach starts to flutter. "Let me walk you home." he offer.

I smile to myself. I know that he only wants to walk me home because
he could trust me to walk by myself. He thinks that I might get lost
or hurt myself.

My heart feels like caving in and raise at the same time while we're
walking hand in hand back to District Twelve.

I've done everything for Gale to love me, but it wasn't enough. And it
will never be enough. Because I will never be Katniss.

a/n: I don't know about this but I ship Gadge 3