Dearest Ron,

Everyday I think of the events from last year. I think of all we lost and all we gained. I think off all of the hidden past and the obvious future. I think of the moment we kissed and how we both knew that feeling that had been contained for 4 years were mutual. I think about the ring that you gave me last night. I think about the promises we are going to make in 6 month.

I think of 10 month ago when I eventually gave myself to you and you to me. I think of waking up in your arms every night since. I think of the night 2 month ago when it split. I think of the secret wonder hiding in me that not even you or Harry or Ginny know about. It's apparently a girl but you wouldn't know.

I think of my so called job that I have spent 8 year working for. You think I'm the one bringing in the money for our first home but I'm not. I think of 4 month ago when we got a new boss. He wasn't impressed that his best employee was a 'mudblood'. I wasn't impressed when it cost me my job.

I think of when you will hear the news. I think about who will be to blame, the girl in the river, the baby in her belly, the boy sat at home waiting for her with dinner or her fiancée. You will blame her fiancée. You will blame yourself.

I think about the day I met Simon. I think of how I instantly fell for him and his rough hands. I think of how he mistook me for someone and kissed me differently than you ever did. I think of the night I spent with him, purely him. I let my guard down that night but I never regret it. I think about that day 2 month ago and how I agreed to marry him that night.

I think of our recently bought car waiting in front of our recently bough home. I think of the sweet, cool, deep river just a two minute drive from our home. I think of all I leave behind but that is not much. I think of my parents in Australia not knowing of their daughter. I think of nothing.

Just know I didn't mean to hurt you.

Just know I did feel something for you.

Just know I will think of you always.

Just know I checked who he father was.

Just know I will love you.

Love

Miss.