February 3rd, 2014
Dear Diary,
William barely notices me now. I try to talk to him and he'll either blank me completely or say he's busy. I try to hug him and he pushes me away and says he doesn't have time for me.I tried making my point clear to him but he wouldn't listen. I shouted at him and he hit me and said I was being stupid. I tried to hug him and give him a kiss before class started but i got pushed away.I thought you loved me William. Was it a lie from the start? Don't you remember the first time you confessed your love to me? On that day, when we walked hand in hand down an empty street in the snow? When we got home and you held me tight and told me you loved me? Does that mean nothing to you? If so, maybe everything was pointless, from our kisses to our holiday and the incredible dance we went to there to the way you whisper loving things in my ear, you treat me like a child now. I know how to care for myself. I don't need you helping with every little thing and telling me off all the time. It was fine before, when you treated me like your lover and not a nuisance.I miss you. I miss your hugs and the way you kiss me. I miss how you used to let me straddle you and kiss your neck while you did your work at home. I miss your touch, your kind words, the way you always made everything 's ok if you don't understand. And if my thought, one I don't want to believe yet is so obvious is true, that's ok too. I understand if you dont love me anymore.