Disclaimer: The characters belong to E. L. James, but the story you're about to read is mine. This story is only for entertaiment purposes.

Take my breath

By: Wendy Grandchester

Chapter 1

—Are you going to spend your whole life waiting for this miracle to happen?—said Kate while we were both sitting on the sidewalk watching the boys playing basketball in the neighborhood.

—I'm not even looking at him, K.—my voice tone was a little bitter.

I'm eighteen years old and I've been in love with José since eighth grade and the only thing I could ever get from him is a long and pure friendship. I think he must know that I love him, I loose my self into his brown eyes and hardly can follow his words when he talks. He has a straight dark hair long to the shoulders, that three days ago beard that makes him look like a spanish barbarian, and an adorable dimple on his left cheek and he's tall, I've always fall for tall men.

—You can't lie to me, Anna—she looks into my eyes and caress my hair.

—I know. Is just that... I can't help it...—at the very time I'm saying that, José lost the ball and it hit my sneakers.

—Do you know what I think?—she asks kicking the ball back to José.

—Actually I don't, but I guess you're going to tell me.

—It's been many years, so I think you're just used to him...

—No. I really love him. I do!

—And what's the difference? He has made pretty clear that he'll never want you the way you do.—My eyes turn watery.

I've always know that, but the way she yelled it was like been stabbed right to the heart, that truth always makes me bleed to death.

—You must turn the page, sweetheart, you're wasting your time, your passion for a feeling which doesn't worth it.

—You're right. It's time to let my passion out.

I got up, leaving her a little lost by my abrupt reaction and got back to my house.

...

—Dinner is almost done.—said Ray, the only man who has loved me back.

I'm not hungry, but we only have each other since my mom past away, breast cancer. I miss my mom so bad, but Ray has been the most affected by her lost.

—What do we have?—I smiled for him.

—Stew.— He opens the pot and the smell filled my senses.

—Then I'm hungry.

We ate in silence, Ray is not an expressive man, you could think he's a cold fish, but I know him well, he has a big heart and his warm arms have held me when I'm falling a part. He's my stepfather, the real one doesn't even know that I exist.

After we finished the dinner, I washed the dishes and then went upstairs to take a shower.

It's time to do something for me, so I decided to start doing the things I love, I'll let my music to be heard. Wrapped in a towel I'm looking into my closet trying to pick something appropiated for tonight. It's Fridady, but my wardrobe seems to have just bored mondays outfits.

I chose a tight blue jean, a blouse Kate gave for my birthday, is black, short, showing my belly buttom, I don't feel comfortable showing that much, but tonight I want something different, so I have to start doing something different.

I'm 5'3, so I climbed onto my new hilled sandals and they not only gave me a few more inches up, but also my butt is upright. Then came the hardest part, I had to deal with my long, straigth and lifeless brown hair. After a struggle with the mousse I finally could wave it.

Make-up is not my thing, but I can't show up with this clean face. I used a little facial powder, some light eyeshadow, eyeliner to give my blue eyes some mistery darkness and blushed my cheeks to give my pale skin some life. For the first time I dared to wear a shining red lipstick.

The girl who's looking back at the mirror is not me, I don't know her, but I like her.

I took my keys and my purse, ready to go, Ray felt asleep on the couch, so I didn't have to say goodbye. Got in my 2000 Toyota Corolla to Martini's.

I arrived to Martini's at ten o'clok, found a tight spot in the parking lot and got in to the place. My first reaction was to get the hell out of there, all eyes were on me, I'm not used to all that atention, the cigarretes smoke made me feel sick, the place is crowded.

—Anna!

Kate's voice came to me like a blessing in the middle of all this chaos of laugh, euphoria and drunk asses. I have to skip a lot of idiots who seem to be lost in their own world to get to Kate.

—I can't belive you're here.— Kate is more excited than me.

—Don't get so far, I'm about to regret...

—No fucking way!—she said and made me sit.

I can't belive Kate and I are best friends, we're so different. She's beautiful, charismatic, the party's soul, has a dream body, perfect blonde hair, sparkling green eyes... and can wear that mini skirt without any problem, showing her long and attractives legs, she's the kind of girl who can get anything with a smile and sometimes she doesn't even have to ask.

—Here's your drink, babe.— a man, a pretty handsome man approached to us with a martini and gave it to Kate.

—Thanks. Anna, this is Elliot, the guy I told you about... and Elliot, this is Anna.

—Nice to meet you, Anna...

—Oh! The pleassure is all mine...

We shaked hands, he's blonde, tall, had a beautiful smile and he made eye contact with me, I can tell he's very polite.

—Do you want me to get you something, Anna? A beer...?

—Oh, no I'm okay...

—Of course she wants a drink! Go and get another martini.— Elliots ran to please us.

—You know I don't like alcohol.

—But tonight you will, sweetheart.

Elliott arrived with my drink, I must admit that it had a good taste and I feel relax, can even enjoy the music that a local band is playing.

—Anna, you don't mind if we leave you alone for a while, do you?

—Go ahead, guys.

Elliott took Kate to the floor and from my sit I look them dance and they seem so happy, they seem to fit. I've never have that, someone I could fit with, someone who wants my atention, who seems to be worried if I'm okay... doing whatever it takes to please me.

—Do you wanna dance, baby?—a guy approached me interrupting my thoughts.

—No, I'm okay, thanks.—I rejected him as polite as I could be, he's good looking, but he's drunk and has a lascive smile that make me feel disgust.

—Come on, girl!—he insists and take me by the arm.

—I said no!—I pushed him.

—Then go to hell!—he says while taking a napkin to clean his shirt after a beer poured on it.

I took a deep breath and went back to my sit. I decided to finish my martini, the band left, so there's not more live music. A DJ put some disco music and everybody kept dancing, I think they don't even noticed the transition.

—Are you all right, Ann?—Kate came back breathing hard by Elliot's hand.

—I'm fine.—I smiled, after a second martini I'm feeling so damn relax.

The music is good, but I prefer the band, they're a good. I'm not sure yet about what carreer I want to take, inside me I've always wanted to sing, but that's not a carreer in which I could leave my future, I have my feet on earth. Besides, I love music, but it's not my passion, that's something I haven't found yet.

—Ladies and gentlemen, the karaoke is just started, who wants to break the ice?—said the host.

—Go, Anna, show them what you have.—Kate cheers me up.

—No...—I answered so lowly.

—She wants to be the first!— Yelled Kate pointing at me.

All the eyes were on me again and I repeat to myself "I should not kill my best friend" over and over.

—Come here, lady.

The host invited me to the little scaffold, I got up, it seems like I don't have choice. The host gave me a microphone and I took the chair which was placed in the center after telling him the song I wanted to sing.

I'm trying to be relax, but every muscle of my body is shaking. Everybody is so quiet, they're waiting for me to start, but my voice is trapped inside my mouth, I'm very nervous.

—Just do it.— I could read Kate's lips.

I closed my eyes and began to sing, I didn't even have to follow the lyrics on the screen, I know this song very well.

Nice hair, your blue eyes

some piercings and cool tattoos

I'm wondering if they mean

something more than ink

Your three days beard makes you sexy

I'm still dealing with my acne

your one million dollars smile

could never fit with my braces

Would I ever leave this caterpillar?

I would like to be those colors in your skin

If only I could lift my wings

and let my hiden beauty fly

Through your window I would come in as a butterfly

It is a slow song, full of feeling, I can't heard any word but mines and somehow, this song is a picture of me.

I see you walk like you own the world

and I am too shy to show

Baby, you're heavy rain

and I am a single drop sliding on the glass

I saw you playing basket

and you smiled to me when I passed by

but you did'nt look at me

you were only being polite

it's painful not being that girl that makes you look twice

I opened my eyes for a while and saw Kate looking at me with adoration, she can see trough me.

If only I could lift my wings

and let my hiden beauty fly

Through your window I would come in as a butterfly

When I finish and opened my eyes again, after the short applause the crowd give to everyone who dares to stand here, I felt a chill.

Something I couldn't explain, like someone were looking at me deeply. Then I saw him. A man with gray eyes looking at me directly, with a soft and twisted smile, dark hair, he was wearing jeans and a white long sleeves shirt, a casual one, but... he's wearing it with this fancy I can't describe.

He keeps looking at me and I'm paralized, I can't even breath.

To be continued...

Hi!

This is my first story for 50 shades, if you liked it, please let me know to keep updating. My first language is Spanish, so if you see any mistake in my grammar let me know and I'll be grateful.

*The song "Caterpillar" is mine.

Have a nice day!

Wendy