DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, and places are the sole property of Hidekaz Himaruya. Any resemblance to any actual events, locales, organizations, or person, living or dead is entirely coincidental.

A/N: This is a random story for my friend and sister who were threatening me to post this up. She wrote it but didn't want to type it so I was forced to. I did enjoy writing this but since it's just for one person, I don't care about grammar. If you like it, great for you and me, but on with the story.

Also, the cover child is Hans, the adorably evil child of a German and Italian.

Enjoy~!

CHAPTER 1

They known each other for years before they started dating. He and Feliciano had been together throughout high school, college and work. He never loved anyone as he loved the little Italian. Even though they're the same age, Feliciano was always clinging to him as a lifeline whenever he thought he was in trouble. Truthfully, he didn't mind much since he was used to it but he couldn't stop the warmth of his hugs from spreading throughout his body. His heart would flutter, his breathing would hitch and his face would blushing a fierce red. From the moment he met the boy in his second year of Hetalian High, he, Ludwig, fell irreversibly in love.

It was probably clear to everyone that had eyes and the knowledge of what to look for but for him and Feliciano, they couldn't tell their feelings apart from their normal daily routine. It took for his big brother, Gilbert to literally beat him on the side of the head with a History book to understand that the feelings he get when he was with Feliciano weren't that of a friend but that of a lover and a possessive one at that. He finally understood why he was always irritated or enraged whenever he saw Feliciano with someone other than his brothers or Kiku. He thought it was because he didn't want to share his friend with anyone else but he never had a problem with Kiku so that wasn't the case. The only time he really get mad was when he was openly flirting with girls or if he's surrounded by guys.

Why couldn't he tell that he didn't want other people to be near him?! Was he really oblivious to the fact that he gets upset whenever Feliciano was with another that wasn't him? For Christ sake, he even threaten his own big brother to stay away from what he called, "his angel". Maybe this obsession he had with the younger Italian was wrong but their wasn't a person in the world that wanted them apart. If two pieces fit together, why force them apart?

Everyday with him was like a dream. The kind of dream he thought only existed in the romance novels that he read from Roderich. Brighten days, uplifted spirits and erotic wet dreams everyday. It was the most pleasurable and painful feelings he could endure. Feliciano was definitely giving him high blood pressure but as long as he was his, he'll die a happy man. When they finally confessed their feelings for each other, it was a miracle that he allowed the little boy to walk around freely the next day.

It seems that when Feliciano said that he loved him the most throughout the years they known each other, he wasn't kidding. For years he had been expressing his love for the younger German and yet he never picked up on it. Was he the oblivious one? It would seem so since Feliciano was always opened about his love while purposely hiding his true feelings only to him. He had to give him credit, the boy definitely know what's he doing if he managed to conceal his attraction so well though he had a feeling that everyone else knew what he was doing, even if he himself don't.

Feliciano confessed to him in their last year of college together. How he made it to college, let alone the same college of Ludwig was a phenomenon that no one could explain. He didn't dwell on it for long so he let it slide. College life was the same as it always was and on graduation, his life became complete. On stage as he gave his speech for being the top student of Talia University, he never suspected Feliciano to made a speech of his own. After his speech, Kiku was suppose to be next but he went up, pulled out a paper and started to read. Well tried to. It was pretty much chicken scratch and he had stage freight that Ludwig himself had to read it. Imagine the embarrassment he felt when all that came out of his mouth was the noise of one syllable sounds as he spoke with his shivering body. If he wasn't making those noise, he was mumbling incoherent words that made no sense. It was so sad to watch the boy on stage and quiver in fear that Ludwig went on stage himself to forcible force him off but he resisted. He claimed that he couldn't leave until he finish speaking so Ludwig took the paper and started to read what's written.

The blush that came off of Ludwig's face could have been something to commemorate. The blushing was such a fierce red, one was tempted to call him a "tomato" bastard instead of "potato". Unknown to the audience at the time, Ludwig had dropped the paper that contained nothing but chicken scratch and scribbles after reading a few lines and realized that it was a confessions of sorts. Honestly, from the way Feliciano wrote it, you would think he was writing about the weather. But no. It was a love letter dedicated to someone and Ludwig felt it wasn't him at the time. He had only manage to read bits of "liked you forever", "wan to be together" and "will you accept me". It was truly an embarrassing sense.

Ludwig confronted Feliciano, audience and graduated forgotten as he demands to know who the person of his interest was. The jealously that sparked the anger was something to be frighten of. With his entire face red, Feliciano had a matching face with tears running down his cheeks as he cried his eyes out. It was essentially a lover's quarrel, only without the lover's actual knowledge. Ludwig's rage a not being the chosen one and Feliciano's misunderstanding of being rejected. Sometimes it was a god thing that there were others around them that would help. They didn't notice but Kiku got up and took the paper. Though he couldn't read it, he knew what his friend wanted to say so he finished "reading" the letter.

Silence reign over the entire area as they listened intently on what was being said. Having come to the end of the letter, Kiku dramatically paused, waiting to see if someone would object. Hearing none, he turned to the stunned German and younger Italian, waiting for a reply. "Well Ludwig-san? Will you answer Felicano-san's letter? It is a confession to you after all."

Ludwig's older brother, Gilbert who was sitting in the audience was the first one to react.

"Brother, if you don't take him, I will! My angel deserves someone who thinks with love, not muscles!"

"Si si. Big brother would like to be the one to have him. Wouldn't you agree Antonio?" asked Francis.

Antonio would have answered but he was busy having a nosebleed from all the excitement. In his world, all he saw was his two little Italian's graduating and that Lovino would be ready to...experience the joys of climbing up the steps to adulthood as he himself climbs up and plunged in Lovino's body. What a crude man.

Ludwig, stunned for a bit, turned to look at the frighten boy in front of him. "Is...is that letter for...me?"

"...V-ve..."

Nothing in that moment could have disturbed them or ruined it. Nothing could have stopped the thundering feelings that were running rampant in Ludwig's head and heart as it soared through the air into cloud 9. He wanted him! Little Feliciano wanted HIM! The joy he was feeling couldn't be interrupted, even as Romulus was threatening bodily harm to him as his own grandfather, Gerhart held him down by pulling on one of his many sensitive swirls in his hair. Most were probably not surprise to see them there since they themselves are alumni but they were probably never going to get use to the "That's my cute grandsons! How cute~! Feli~! Lovi~! Over here! Look at grandpa!"

Gerhart was most reassuringly the only one that could understand the old fool, being best friends and the worst of enemies at the same time. He himself was here to see his grandson graduate as well. Why he chose to come with the sex obsessed elder Italian, he'll never know but he did the only thing he could do in a situation when one was threatening his family. He attacked right back where it counts. Having worked with Romulus before, he was well aware of his weaknesses so pulling the sensitive swirl, he halted the elder in his threats. Pleased that it did as it should, he gave a satisfied grunt and looked on stage.

"You hear that Ludwig. You both are feeling the same. Now kiss and move on. We came to see you graduate with a degree, not a boyfriend."

If you thought Italians were embarrassing, direct Germans were worse. Cunning was not part of their genes so feeling fluster was not something they knew about.

Both Ludwig and Feliciano turn scarlet at that comment. Why are grandparents so embarrassing?! Blushing madly, they glanced at each other before laughing a bit. The tall blonde rose to his feet first, extending his hand to the brunette, pulling him up so haul him against his side as he gave a quick a peck on the forehead before leading them back to their seats with the rest of the graduates.

After the initial shock wore off, the ceremony continued without a hitch and by the end of the day, everyone was celebrating for their degrees and the happy couple. Everything was set for the two that it was almost inconceivable that the two would later separate. During their high school and college years, they were always together. You would rarely see one apart from the other. No matter where the other was, they could always find each other. But school and work were two separate things. With Ludwig working in a law firm and Feliciano as a teacher in training as an art teacher, they barely saw each other. Ludwig was so busy that he rarely had time for Feliciano and he was beginning to feel the effects. He could understand that the large German was busy but a simple "Hi" in the morning wouldn't kill him.

With Ludwig away all the time, Feliciano has so much free time that he practically redecorated the entire apartment that their were sharing. Rearranging the place, he was hoping to get some sort of reaction from him but all he got was "Hn, how nice." before stumbling his way into the bedroom to sleep. He missed the time he had with the blonde. He understood that importance of a day, he really did, but he wants to be loved more than he wants to make money!

With that resolve, he set out to seduce his man. Getting Francis help, along with Kiku and Elizabeth (He couldn't ask Lovino because it's to embarrassing) and they decided on buying a pair of sexy lingerie and getting Ludwig to bed the soft brunette. Getting the house ready for the evening, Feliciano prepared everything and prepared a second time just to make sure everything was okay.

That evening when Ludwig came home, he surprised his lover with a romantic dinner. After that, they took a bubble bath where Feliciano took Ludwig to bed where they made love throughout the night. By the end, the little Italian's hole was filled to the brim with the blonde's love juices and the two slept the rest of the night away, unaware of the effects of the activities of their actions.

Some time past and Feliciano wasn't feeling so well, not that Ludwig could tell. When he got promoted, he was even busier than normal. He would stay at the office for hours on end and when he came home, he either went straight to sleep or plainly ignored him. Sometime, Feliciano feels that Ludwig actually forgot he even existed. He wasn't feeling so well when Romulus came to visit his grandson and saw him throwing up. He immediately took him to the hospital while calling the German blonde who of course didn't pick up the phone.

For that one day, it was an experience that neither grandsons and grandfather would never forget. Romulus called Lovino when they arrived at the hospital. The older Italian showed up with Antonio and Kiku. How did Kiku showed up when he and Ludwig work at the same place?! Apparently, that showed how much the blonde cared. They only waited for about two hours when the doctor informed them of Feliciano's condition. Turns out that he was pregnant (I don't feel like coming up with a reason to explain this so he's just pregnant. The same with any other characters I make pregnant). They of course were all happy for him. They wanted to celebrate the wonderful news but Feliciano didn't want to do anything without Ludwig so he went home, waiting for his lover to come home to tell him the good news.

Ludwig didn't take the news as well as he expected. In fact, Ludwig didn't seem to believe him at all. He was so tired that he didn't feel like dealing with his so called 'idiocy'. He yelled at the pregnant brunette and demanded that if he don't stop with his lies, he'll break up with him. He even went so far as to kick Feliciano out of their apartment to get some time to sleep in piece. Shocked and in tears, Feliciano ran to his brother. Arriving at Lovino and Antonio's place, he sobbed out his story and was hell bent on trying to stop his brothers from murdering Ludwig. He couldn't handle the pain and seeing the angered expressions on their faces reminded him of Ludwig's, which brought out more tears.

It took hours of comforting and calming an angry grandfather before peace was reached. To appease the crying Italian and sooth his broken heart, the elder Italian took the younger of his grandsons went traveling. They all agreed that it would be better for him to get away. Without one last look, Romulus and Feliciano left, boarding the first plane to somewhere far away. Somewhere where he could heal.

That was years ago. Years since Ludwig made that mistake. Years of sleeping alone in a bed that was meant for two. Flopping on the bed, Ludwig rested his eyes as he let the silence take him. After he woke up the day after, he realized that he had wrongly yelled at the boy and wanted to apologize but everywhere he went, he as getting the cold shoulders. When he arrived at Lovino's, he was stopped short of two centimeters of being stabbed by an enraged Italian who just tried to kill him with a plastic fork. Antonio stopped him from going to jail but did take pity on him and said that Feliciano was never going to come back. That Ludwig will never get the chance to be will him anymore.

No matter how many times he dreamed of that meeting, it was always the same. He would go home to their-his- apartment and find emptiness. Occasionally, he would imagine the hyperactive brunette only for him to fade back into the silence. It was so strange that he would find a lone tear running down his face sometimes. But it was all a dream. When he awoke, he would see him right there, sleeping peacefully. He too would be woken up from the tossing and turning he made but it never stopped to take his breathe away. He would stretch and reveal his body as it shines in the morning light. At times like that, he would drag the semi asleep boy to him and have his way but that's was where it always end. To him, the cold reality of his dreams were just that, his reality. Feliciano wasn't there anymore. He wouldn't wake up to the sinful body or make love to it anymore. All he could do was remember what he would never have anymore and cry. He was tired of this lifestyle. He wanted the brunette back in his life but didn't know how. Oh he knew that Feliciano had a child. One time when he went to the older Italian's bakery, he overheard him speaking to Antonio about his nephew. Feliciano wasn't lying and that only made him feel even guiltier for not believing him. Knowing that he went through the entire experience alone, thinking that he didn't care when all he wanted to do was love him for all he was worth.

Not only did he lose the love of his life, but his son. A son who he have never met before. A child that would never know that he was his father. A father that loved him and his 'mother' dearly. But that was the price he had to pay for his actions. A lonely life as the ones he loved moved on. Such a lonely life but one he made for himself. So he slept. He worked, eat and sleep. That was all he did in the years that went by. Nothing will change because neither wanted to change. They were to scared to do anything. They were cowards but if they won't someone else will. Someone who wanted them happy and was willing to create a change. Someone who was willing to send him a box of potatoes that was ironically heavier than it should be.

It was probably someone's sick idea of a joke but change was inevitable because everything changes, even if they're to scared to change themselves. Some for the better, some for the worse, but today, change will decide the lives that are to close yet to far to reach. Reaching for the box, Ludwig decided that this time, he'll stop running. He'll face his change because that was the only way to get his family back.