Chapter 1: The Scent That Gave Him Strength
EPOV
Another day of school. I didn't know why we kept doing this. Correction. I didn't know why I was still doing this. Everything I did was pointless without my love. I remembered the way that I was before her but, that was nothing compared to this. The way I was before her was bearable because I didn't know that she was there. That I could love someone like her. Knowing I had her, but had to lose her for her safety was a constant heartache that never got better and never went away. I was constantly in pain.
"Hey Edward, are you coming to school? Or are you just going to sit there all day staring into space?" I heard Rosalie say. Not that he doesn't do that all the time anyway I heard her think. I got out of the car and walked to homeroom. Just as in Forks those many years ago, no one approached me. Although now there might be another reason people avoided me. I looked empty, as I had I heard many people think, like I wasn't there. Yeah, I was smart; I had already learned this stuff more times than I could ever want. But it was like I had no soul, to the human eyes anyway. I knew I didn't have a soul. But, now it seemed as everyone knew that, even if they didn't know my secret.
The day passed on just as slow as it always had since I left Bella. I couldn't help but think of her constantly. Thank God for my mind reading or I would never pass my classes. If I could cry I would be a human fountain, wait a vampire fountain. Alice tried to cheer me up on the way home.
"Edward! Do you want to go hunting with me tonight? I saw that a place not too far from here is having a mountain lion problem. We could score big time there. Wouldn't that be fun?"
"Yeah, sure Alice. Just tell me what time to go and I'll go." My voice sounded so dead. I faked enthusiasm for Alice's sake. I hated hunting now. It only reminded me of how I lost Bella. I lost her because of what I am. Every time I was reminded of that it only made the constant heartache throb harder. I knew that Alice had known that I was faking the enthusiasm but she was happy that she got me out of the house. I had only left the house for school. When it came to hunting, I used the forest in the backyard and only when I was so thirsty that it would be hazardous to be around humans. Since Bella, I had barely noticed anyone's scent. My bloodlust for her was like nothing I had ever felt and since I could overcome that, the smell of human blood barely had a pull on me.
Alice said that it would take about an hour of running to get to the place so we left around 8:00. She tried to block out her thoughts while running but failed. Finally I got him out of the house! Although it's like no one's with me. I miss him. I wish he'd go back to being Edward. Even if it's the pre-Bella Edward. It'd be better than the after-Bella-died Edward. I felt so horrible. I was hurting my family. But I didn't know how to act any other way. How do you ignore a heartache like this? I didn't know the answer to this and I doubted that anyone would. When we got to the
place that had the mountain lion problem Alice suddenly stopped. "Do you smell that?" she asked me.
"Yeah, I haven't smelled anything like that in 50 years. It's defiantly one of us, but who in the world could smell that floral?" The smell that came in through my nostrils was amazing. It gave me strength. I hadn't felt like this in nearly 50 years. I had to find out the cause of it.
Okay please, please, please review! This is my first fanfiction and I'm not sure if it sounds good or whatever. I will update soon though