Okay so I heard this song earlier, and it was the first time I had heard it in a REALLY long time, but I just got the idea for this story.
But then I thought of these other songs and well … now we got a (mini) chapter story :) Each chapter is a songfic. Hope it turns out good!
Pairing: Mainly Benny/Ethan … you'll see why I say mainly. (established B/E)
Bold italics are lyrics, as usual. Regular italics are memories/thoughts (hope you can tell the difference)
Song(s):
1) Sorry – Buckcherry
2) What Hurts The Most – Rascal Flatts
3)Gotta Be Somebody – Nickelback
Yes, this is a sad story. The chapters may not go very well with the songs, but the songs are more the inspiration, not the story … if that makes sense at all lol.
I do not own any characters from MBAV or any of these songs.
Begin…
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Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die
"What?" Ethan asked, heart breaking and face furrowing in confusion.
"Ethan … its better this way," Benny said, not looking Ethan in the eyes.
"But … I thought you loved me?"
"Ethan. Please don't make this harder for me than it already is," Benny whispered.
"If it's so hard, then why are you doing it?"
"Please. Just trust me. It's easier this way."
"But, I-I love you," Ethan said quietly, causing Benny to look up and see the tears that threatened to spill forward from his dark brown eyes.
"I know…"
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back.
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round,
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry.
Benny watched at Ethan walked with Sarah down the hallway, hands clasped together. He knew he had done the right thing, leaving Ethan. But he hated how much it hurt. His thoughts turned into memories, remembering that day he realized Ethan was never really his.
"Hi beautiful," Benny had whispered in the shorter boy's ear, pulling him to him, causing him to squeak out in surprise before kissing him gently. "What's on your mind?" he had asked as he pulled away, noticing how Ethan's eyes kept watching something.
"W-what? Nothing's on my mind," he squeaked out, smiling at the taller boy. Benny frowned but shrugged it off, until Sarah walked up to them.
"Hi Ethan," she said, smiling at him.
"H-hi Sarah," he had stuttered out, practically drooling while Benny's arms were around him still. Benny had just let go and walked away, leaving them together, his heart breaking.
He hated how even though they were together, it was obvious that Ethan was still crazy about Sarah. So Benny did what would make Ethan happy.
He let him go.
This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die.
Ethan knew Benny was watching him with Sarah. He didn't want her, he wanted the tall brunette. But Benny wouldn't talk to him. And not even a full 24 hours after they broke up, Sarah had asked him out. He had said yes, desperate for someone to give his love to, the love the rightfully belonged to Benny. He thought about what Benny had told him.
"Why? Why are you doing this? I love you!" Ethan had cried out, reaching for the taller boy, who had moved away. "I love you."
"No you don't. You can do so much better than me. And in honesty, I'm not who you want. Ethan, I'm doing this for you!" he had said, leaving Ethan's house. "I'm sorry."
Ethan sniffled and realized he was crying.
"Baby, what's wrong?" Sarah asked, wiping his tears away. He looked over her shoulder and saw Benny biting his lip, eyes filled with worry.
"I'm sorry," he mouthed to Ethan, frowning again.
"I know," he mouthed back.
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back.
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round,
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry.
Benny sat with Rory in the cafeteria, eyes watching Ethan and Sarah together. I did the right thing, he kept telling himself mentally as he watched the two. He did his best not to get his hopes up whenever Ethan looked his way.
"Dude, I don't understand why you broke up with him if you still like him," Rory said, pulling Benny out of his Ethan stupor.
"Because he liked Sarah," Benny said simply, beginning to build a castle out of his French fries. "Do you know how it feels to know the person you like likes someone else?"
"Yep," Rory said, shooting a grin to Benny. "The person I like doesn't even know I'm around half the time, they're so busy moping over an old relationship."
"Rory…" Benny said, a confused expression finding its way onto his face. "Do you mean..?"
"Don't sweat it dude. You'll find someone that likes you more than someone else," Rory said seriously, a gentle smile on his face. "You just gotta be ready to let them in," he said, standing up to throw his tray away.
"Yeah…" Benny said, watching the happy blonde walk away. What just happened?
Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah
Benny was in bed, thinking about Ethan as usual. I broke up with him. I shouldn't be thinking about him so much, or so hung up on him, he thought, a frown seeming to be permanetly etched on his face.
"Um … Benny? Can I ask something?" Ethan had asked, walking towards the tall boy shyly.
"Sure dude. What's up?"
"Well … Um Sarah's babysitting Friday night. I was wondering if you wanted to go see a movie instead of hanging at my house all night."
"Like … just us?"
"Y-yeah, just us," he had said, a bright blush on his face.
"Did you just ask me out?"
"If you're going to turn me down, do it now."
"I'd love to go."
A simple question sent our relationship from "friendship" to "romantic", Benny thought, turning over and glancing at his clock. 3:30 AM. Another sleepless night, thinking about a boy who's already moved on.
Maybe it's time I move on too, he thought, closing his eyes and hoping that sleep would claim him.
Sorry
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry
Benny walked into school the next day to see Sarah and Ethan kissing. His already shattered heart broke even more. He just shook his head and turned and walked in the other direction, bumping into Rory.
"What happened?" he asked, concern in his blue eyes. Benny stared at him for a minute before shaking his head.
"I saw them kissing," he whispered, sitting on the floor by some lockers.
"Ooh, not good. You okay?" Rory said, sitting next to him and putting a comforting arm around him.
"I don't know."
"Well … maybe it's time to move on. I mean … if you want to … you could possibly find a new boyfriend … someone who does like you…" he said, voice obviously uncomfortable.
"Are you asking me out?" Benny asked, looking at Rory, who just nodded.
"Please say yes. Give me a chance to help you get over Ethan." Benny thought for a moment before standing up and reaching for Rory.
"Come on boyfriend. We've got class to get to," he said as Rory smiled happily and interlaced his fingers with the taller boy's. They walked in the direction that Ethan and Sarah were in. When green eyes met brown, they both mouthed at the same time.
"I'm sorry."
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See, I just couldn't leave this as a one-shot. Well, I could've, but it would've been soooo sad (and people would've been pissed I bet!) Anyways, this chapter was mainly about how Benny felt. The next will be mainly how Ethan felt.
Please don't be mad at me for this chapter, because remember, this IS a Bethan fic! I promise :)
Hope it turned out good.
If you (the reader) can, please leave a review for each chapter, that way I can know if they turned out good or not. Or just a giant one at the end works too (although I prefer separate personally lol)
Please and thank you!
-JustMe133