Mamoru Chiba's eyes where the colour of a stormy day. His face, a simular shade, pale and over worked.
It was another day , another week and month, he was bored. He'd done everything and now, he started to think. It has been a while since he had some thoughts to himself, well not since two things happend,loosing...her and becoming one of the best doctors harvard university had to offer. He used to boast about it a little,that is he always felt complete when someone talked about him and everytime someone started a conversation with „ oh your talent.." or „ indeed , a marvel of a person.." or „ young man you have the most unnatural of gifts" he would puff up like a peacock and smile his smile, that would make any woman sigh. That is, he used that ...smile was the cause of all his problems, he leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes. Of all days, and of all the thoughts that went through his mind, it just had to be...her. Oh how he longed to already forget his torment,or, maybe he didn't want to, how could he? maybe that's why he always tried to over work himself, just to run away from those horrid thoughts, her tears, the break down and the eyes, God please let him forget those eyes already. They tortured him day and night, the nights were the hardest, coming back to that apartment of his , the cold walls closing in and the empty bed he would just slide into, no heat, no love , just a horrid emptiness which ate at his guts. His eyes shot open when he heard the door of his office open.
„Doctor, i'm ever so sorry to disturb you but someone's here to see you" a plump woman in her 50's poked her head through the small crack the open door offered her. Mamoru always smiled a little inside, because he always noticed how red her hair was, it's funny what people concentrate on.
„Who is it Mara, did they say?"
„yes sir a ma.."
„Mara please, call me Mamoru, i told you a hundred times, it makes me feel like i'm better or something..." he stopped and a thought ran through his head like a lightning bolt, if only he acted the way he is now , maybe just maybe she would still be here...he smiled sadly at Mara.
„Si...ehem...Mamoru is everything alright? You need something"
„no, no it's ok i just got lost in my own thoughts for a second, now who is waiting for me?"
„Ah yes, i'm sorry i forgot, a mr. Kuzite is here si...Mamoru, and he said you know what it's about"
Mamoru's eyes opened wider
„yes, sure send him in" she dissapred and in no longer then a minute a silver haired handsome man opened the office door.
„Chiba, you devil you" Kuzite chuckled and opened his arms to welcome in Mamoru's man hug.
„good to see you too old friend, i thought everyone has forgotten about me"
„you do realize your words are idiotic"
„yeah, yeah...we know the truth..." he sighed and offered his friend a seat.
Mamoru went over to his mini fridge.
„ sorry, we're in a hospital, no alcohol, but i can give you this" he smiled and threw a cold bottle of water to Kuzite. He caught it in mid air and opened the top.
„Well, fine, maybe i'll turn into a fish" Kunzite chuckled and took a huge gulp of the cold liquid.
Mamoru smiled,and remembered how wonderful it was to have someone you knew so well back in his life, he missed him, but guys never show those kind of emotions,Kunzite noticed Mamoru was thinking.
„hey, earth to the alien in front of me, what's up? You doing ok?"
Mamoru sat in his chair and once again sighed.
„Oh come on, i see your in no shape, spit it out, come on it's me , Kun, tell me"
„Kunzite, I just had enough, it's just that what's the point of my life any more"
„now come on we both know you screwed up but people do make mistakes, your not perfect, no human is perfect and yo.."
„well, she was" he suddenly interrupted , so silently that it almost came to a whisper. Kuzite looked at his friend, sadly he had to admit, he screwed up big time when it came to her, how blind was he?
„Old friend, how do I put this," Kunzite put his hands together, and leaned closer to Mamoru's desk „ you just lost yourself for a while"
„At what cost Kun, at what cost, i have to be the stupidest guy to ever walk this earth, i'm soppoased to be a good man, and i hate myself, everytime i stop working my mind races and thinks back to how uncontrollably dumb,and stupid i was."
„well...true, but sometimes things happen for a reason"
„if this is reason then it sucks..." he put his hands into his face and ruffeled his black hair. He looked up at Kunzite.
„i'm sorry, i haven't seen you in over a month and i start by greeting you like a winey little child, how's life treating you two?"
„well, Minako is getting along well, she's healthy thanks to you, can she come over sometime soon?"
„what about Ami, doesn't she preffer to go to her instead of me?i thought the girls hated my person to the bone"
„well some time's passed and i think they just thought of going forward, well at least Minako"
„well i bet you told her to"
Kunzite smiled a little
„well she is my wife after all, and we try to make the best out of a bad situation, we care for both of you regardless the situation..."
Mamoru felt guilty, her friends learned that kindness from the warmth she gave all of them, just like said before, she was perfection, how could he not have seen it?
„of course send her to me, how far along again is she?"
„4 months and doing well" Kunzite answered proudly
„eeeeccchhh, i envy you dear friend, if not for my stupidity maybe it would be me sending Usa to Ami, or to one of my couleages. „
Kunzite wiggled nervously in his chair.
„yeah and that's the other thing..." he said quietly „she got engaged"
Mamoru's head shot up, and he suddenly felt a lump in his throught
„wh...what?" he stuttered
„well, yeah she's getting married in 6 months"
Mamoru's emptiness fell to the bottom of his stomach, if a person could feel worse then him, it just happened.
Was he really hearing the dreaded thing his close friend told him , was he going to loose her? He frowned and hit his fist on the desk, which made Kunzite jump a little
„over my dead body will someone take her from me..." he hissed in a disgusted manner.