Title: Stages
Chapter 1: Once More, with Feeling - Desire
Author: Cheridel
Rating: R
This Part: PG-13
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E-mail: Website: http/cheridel. Spoilers: Once More, with Feeling
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Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is owned by WB, UPN, and Fox. Or one of the three.
Summary: The stages of Buffy and Spike's relationship from Once More, with Feeling to Smashed.
A/N: All chapters are from Buffy's POV and the quote at the beginning of each chapter has to do with the theme of the chapter.
"Desire, like the atom, is explosive with creative force."
-Paul Vernon Buser
"I touch the fire and it freezes me."
"I died…"
"I look into it and it's black"
"So many years ago."
"This isn't real"
"But you can make me"
"But I just want to feel"
"Feel"
Spike's lips meet mine in a passionate kiss that is anything but gentle. We both battle for dominance, not willing to let the other get the upper hand. Hot, wet, and wild is the only way I can describe this carnal lip lock we are sharing. He smells of whiskey, cigarettes, and leather, a totally masculine musk and I want to devour him until they is nothing left.
Oh my god, what the hell am I saying? This is Spike, remember? He's an evil, bloodsucking fiend.
That's all it takes to break the spell and I pull back from the kiss. There is a surprised expression on his face, almost cute in a way, but his eyes are dark with a desire and longing that is older than mankind itself. God help me because I want to screw him right here, in this alley, behind the Bronze.
Spike, remember? Evil!
"Don't touch me like that ever again," I say coldly before turning around and walking away.
With each step I take, I get a sinking feeling in my stomach because I know I have bruised his already battered heart.
I curse my calling as a Slayer because to deny the desire I have for this vampire, especially a desire that so threatened to consume me is heartbreak in and of itself.