Title: Voodoo
Author: Cheridel
Rating: PG-13
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E-mail: Website: http/cheridel. Spoilers: Up through Wrecked
Distribution: Ask me first, please.
Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is owned by UPN and Fox. The song "Voodoo" by Godsmack doesn't belong to me either.
Summary: Buffy thinks about the power Spike has over her.
A/N: Buffy's thoughts correlate with the lyrics from the song.
"I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins.
Never did I wanna be here again,
And I don't remember why I came."
I hear the tribal beat of Godsmack's "Voodoo" being played on his radio before I even enter his crypt. Why am I even back here?
"Candles raise my desire,
Why I'm so far away.
No more meaning to my life,
No more reason to stay."
I remember what he said to me about candles… and foreplay. I shudder at the thought, secretly wanting him to show me… to touch me… taste me…
"Freezing, feeling,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again..."
I sang that the fire froze me and oh god, I wanted it back. He gave it to me… he made me feel.
"I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins.
Never did I wanna be here again,
And I don't remember why I came."
He said that if I didn't stop acting like a bitch that he would bite me… it scares me that in my darkest fantasies, I want him to.
"Hazing clouds rain on my head,
Empty thoughts fill my ears.
Find my shade by the moonlight,
Why my thoughts aren't so clear."
I am so confused. If he wasn't within ten miles of me, I would be able to resist him. But an inch closer… then I'm his…
"Demons dreaming,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again..."
I wonder what kind of wicked thoughts fill his head while he sleeps… what naughty things we must do.
"Voodoo, voodoo, voodoo, voodoo.
Voodoo, voodoo, voodoo, voodoo."
I crave him like an addiction. He's like black magic, wrong, but oh, so good once you give in to the temptation. I can't help it. Whatever I do, I feel him. In my heart, in my head, in my dreams. I am completely under his spell.
"I'm not the one who's so far away...
I'm not the one who's so far away..."
I can feel him watching me. Being just obsessed with me as I am with him. It probably drives him insane that I keep building back up the barriers he continually knocks down around my heart.
"Voodoo, voodoo, voodoo, voodoo.
Voodoo, voodoo, voodoo, voodoo."
I can do nothing but grin as I slowly turn around, walking away from his crypt. The smile fades when I realize leaving is hurting me as much as watching me go must be hurting him. It's a no win situation.
"I'm not the one who's so far away..."