I should be doing hmwk now, but I'm not…clearly. KK, this is my first ACTUAL songfic. Wishing Only Wounds The Heart told me that One Short Day in Ba Sing Se isn't, but I still love it so stupidly catchy…First Eragon ff! luv eragon takes place somepoint during Brisingr….the day of his surprise party. Constructive criticism welcome!
Arya was wandering around the tents silently. She was thinking, as elves usually do. She wanted to reprimand herself for thinking about that moment…that time when Eragon had told her he loved her in the gardens of Ellesmera.
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.
He wanted to be hers, but yet she'd clung to shreds of something that couldn't be ever again, and denied it, pushing back her true feelings. She did that often now.
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
She dreamt some nights of that day. Her action replayed in her head over and over. Some days Arya just wanted to cry. But she didn't. She had to be strong, and forget about it.
Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
Arya disliked how she always was thinking about him. She needed to get her grip back on reality. But when she allowed her mind to wander, it always landed on Eragon, and the love she'd denied, for Eragon, and herself.
Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with gentle curl
that's the girl he chose
And heaven knows
I'm not that girl...
Well, he'd never take her back anyway. Nasuada was his focus. She'd seen the adoring look she'd been on the receiving end of once. But now she'd never get it back. Because she loved him more than he knew. Nasuada looked at him in a way she'd heard Roran say he'd looked at her once. Like every word he said was a diamond, as if he was a feast an inch away. Well, she'd heard it from Saphira, who'd been not paying attention while Arya was in the vicinity.
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl
Arya was still wandering aimlessly. She felt a sense of regret and loss. Arya stopped walking. She screwed up her eyes and hugged herself. Then she told herself,
"Arya, get yourself together." She relaxed her eyes and started to run. She sensed the minds of two people, stopped running, and opened her eyes. She saw Nasuada pulling Eragon into a tent that was brightly lit. Eragon looked a bit confused, but generally happy. Nasuada looked absolutely overjoyed. Arya could sense her tingling at the contact.
I'm not that girl…