Hi this is my first fan fic eva! I've been reading fan fics 4 ages though. So if there any problems plz go easy on me. I hope you like it!

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The Reason

She felt nervous as she got on the train. Then on top of being nervous she felt stupid for feeling nervous. It wasn't like she'd never been on the school train before. She took a last quick and hopeful glance at the platform and got on the train. There were other people there and she knew them by name too. Her friend Harriet had gone out with at least half the boys in the hallway.

Harriet. The thought of her made her wince. She hadn't seen her all holidays. She'd been hoping to have seen her best friend on the platform but to no avail. Lily walked down the hall and started to look for her. As she looked in each compartment she saw no bright, bubbly and attractive face. She saw familiar faces that she could have very well gone to sit with, but she knew that if she did they would be polite and friendly only out of obligation. "This is what I get for having the Queen Bee as a best friend!" Lilly thought. Lily wasn't the popular one Harriet was. She was the school nerd. No one understood why the most popular girl was best best friends with the biggest nerd. Then again neither did Lily.

She wasn't paying attention to where she had been walking and suddenly she was pulled away from her thoughts as she felt her feet leave the ground. She put out her hands to break her fail but it was too late. She heard a rip and then laughter followed by a SSMMAACCKK! She looked up and at last saw Harriet. Next to her was a boy who was on the verge of tears with a very, very red mark in the shape of a hand on his cheek.

Harriet hurried over to her babbling on about how sorry she was and that she'd forgotten about Lily and how she'd been with her new boyfriend. She'd blushed after saying the latter, and this forced Lily to smile, Harriet never blushed.

In the owls Harriet had sent Lily all she'd talked about was her NEW boyfriend. Lily had not cared at first about listening to this one, she didn't really listen when Harriet told her about all her other Prince Charmings because there was a new on every week but after the first few weeks Lily started to listen. Harriet had never been out with one boy for more than a week. Lily had introduced this Prince Charming to Harriet, so she was interested in the outcome. Lily was surprised they were even still together. It was a record for Harriet.

The downside to this beautiful caring scene (in which Lily sets up her best friends they get married have children and are indebted to Lily for their whole lives, when Lily dies they'd make shrines for her , because if it wasn't for her their family would be non-existent) had one obvious downside, Charming's friends.

"Lily! Lily hello! I asked how your sister was. The last time I asked you that I couldn't shut you up for a week. Are you okay?"

"What? Yeah I'm fine. I'm just thinking."

"What about your stupid shrines my family is going to make for you! For the last time Lily, Remus and I have only been going out for a few months! We are not, I repeat, NOT getting married having children who look up to you as their god! Now come on we are going to sit with Remus!"

This pulled Lily out of her daydream.

"NO! NO! NO! and NO! I refuse to sit with two morons, you Remus whilst you are 'cuddling' and the most gorgeous guy in the whole entire world. You know how I get around him!"

"Lily Evans you have to get over your schoolgirl crush and act like a mature aged 14 year old. We are in forth year now Lily. You are either gunna have to get over him or act your age around him!"

With that she stalked of down the hall. Lily went to follow her as she heard a boy behind her snigger. Her face turned as red as her flaming hair. "WHAT?" she turned to the boy and said. He was only in second year and he stopped smiling and mumbled, "There's a rip in your pants." Before running away.

Lily, outraged mended the hole with her wand and set off yet again to find her now angered best friend. Who she remembered with a stab was sitting with the 'Marauders.'

She remembered the day her only friend other than Harriet had approached her and confessed his love for the latter. It was nighttime and Lily was doing her Potions essay. She'd tried to convince Harriet to come with her but she'd said something about reorganising her makeup or something to equal unimportance.

She'd lugged her entire school bag to the library only to find it had been closed early for some reason. Not wanting to go back to the noisy and crowded Common Room she'd moved to the nearest classroom and started her essay immediately.

Within 10 minuets of her arrival there was another. KNOCK KNOCK! Lily jumped at the sudden noise and spilt her inkbottle all over her essay. She swore so loudly the person waiting patiently outside giggled for a moment.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT?" Lily yelled.

"A moment to speak with you. If that was alright?" said the overly polite voice.

"Remus?" she said opening the door to see the sandy coloured hair boy stuffing a piece of parchment into his pocket. "How did you know I was here?" she asked.

The boy turned red and made sure his worn piece of parchment was out of site.

"Lucky guess I suppose!"

"Is something wrong? Why are you looking for me?"

"May I come in?" he asked with a smirk.

"Don't be silly Remus! This isn't my house it's a classroom. Why'd you even knock?"

"You have obviously never realised where your best friend goes every night. I suggest you follow her one night and walk into the classroom she's in without knocking."

Lily was not following but then realised what he was talking about, she would have to have a little chat to Harriet about her 'tutors' and what they 'learnt' and by the sounds of it how loud they were.

"So Remus what has brought you a looking for me?"

"Well actually its about Harriet."

"What about her? What's she done now?"

"Nothing it's just that – well – I – "

"Spit it out Remus!"

"I – I – I – I think I'm in love with her! There I said it now you know!"

He looked very pleased with himself as if he'd accomplished a great deal. Lily however was aghast.

"WHAT! Is that why we're friends Remus so I can introduce the two of you. Is that why you are so nice to me. Well guess what I'm not a bimbo! You have to have brains to be the biggest nerd in school! I thought you were my friend!"

She'd begun to cry now. She picked up her books and stormed out of the room sobbing very loudly might I add. Remus Lupin had sat in the room for a long time after wondering what he had said or done to make her so angry and sad at the same time.

It wasn't until the next day when he had cautiously approached Lily and explained that it wasn't until after he and Lily had become friends he realised how he had felt about Harriet. Lily had laughed and apologised for the way she had overreacted. She agreed to help him out. Lily kept on telling Harriet what a nice boy Remus was and Remus was uplifted by Harriet comments about how spunky he was in an innocent way. The rest was history.

Lily was awakened from her memoirs by the sound of Harriet's laugh. She looked into the compartment it came out of and saw Harriet with her arms intertwined with Remus'. There were two other boys in the room Petter Pettigrew and Sirius Black. Then there was a god sitting next to the window. James Potter. He was her true love. His hair was annoyingly wind ruffled his glasses AN:(Does he have glasses I wasn't sure? Could anyone tell me in their review? Thanks!) adorably hanging off the tip of his nose.

"Lily! Get in here!"

Lily opened the door stepped inside and closed the door again. Now what was she supposed to do.

Sit beside her true love and embarrass herself by gushing the whole trip. Sit beside Remus and be embarrassed by Harriet's open affection for Remus. Or sit beside Peter the quiet one who would not talk to her the whole train ride.

The answer was so simple. After all of them had greeted her and she had done so back she moved towards Petter stepping over Sirius' feet in order to get there. But before she had she felt hands on her waist pulling her down. Before she knew it she was sitting on Sirius Black's lap.

"How you doin' Sugar Plum? How 'bout a kiss hello?"

He pursed his lips, eyes closed, waiting for the kiss. Lily just stared unsure of what to do. Sirius opened one eye saw that Lily had no intention of kissing him and went in for one himself.

"Get off me you feral pig!" she yelped pushing him off her. She looked around and saw that James and Peter were laughing. Remus and Harriet were looking a little scared, they knew what happened when Lily Evans got angry.

"Why hunny bunny what wrong? Why won't you give Sirius a little kissy?" she heard right next to her ear, "you know you want me." He'd said this so quietly no one else had heard him. So when Lily smacked him in the face, stood up and kicked him in the groin, it looked to everyone else that she had done it for no particular reason.

"What's your problem Evans!" she heard the heavenly voice say. She turned around to find the one true love of her life within inches from her but he was angry. "He was only joking you nerd! Why do you have to take everything so seriously! You know we all thought we'd be nice to you because Moony here is just head over heals for Hettie. But every single person I have heard talk about you is right! You are a freak!"

Lily didn't hear any more, she'd fainted. She'd been so sure he was the one. But he'd quoted the name her sister called her at least twelve times a day. A freak. Maybe she was a freak. Hadn't she been called it everyday since she was 11 years old. Harriet had told her her sister was just scared of magic, but James wasn't scared of magic.

She could hear Harriet now, calling her name, she didn't want to wake up she wanted to stay asleep until she could be home with her mum and dad. They were proud of her. They'd understand if she wanted to drop out of Hogwarts and go to muggle highschool. Wouldn't they?

"Lily? Lily please wake up. You moron James what curse did you use?"

"I didn't curse he I swear Hettie! She just dropped!" said her true loves voice.

"She just fainted guys. She's going to be fine." That was Remus' voice.

Lily opened her eyes, "oh shit Lily don't ever do that to me again! I was so fricking worried!"

"Don't worry I'm fine. What happened?"

"You just fell like a damn quaffle!"

"Thanks Sirius. I'm really sorry about before I overreactred."

"No probs," he added with a grin.

Lily stood up and looked out the window it was almost dark. "Thanks so much for all your help, but I'd better go change into my robes. See you all later."

"Wait I'll come with you make sure your alright!" said Remus.

"No I'll go the two of us have to have a long awaited gossip anyway!" and with that Harriet gave Remus a kiss on the cheek and walked out of the room with Lily close behind.

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if anyone has any ideas i'd be happy to incorporate them into the story. even if u just wanted to say u like the stort or if you hate it i'd be thrilled to hear from you. Just go easy on me! Thanx

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Bianca