"Damn him!"

I phased back as quickly as I could, I didn't want him in my head right now. I threw on my jeans and tank top as quickly as I could in case they tried to come find me, not that they where gonna see anything they hadn't already. And whose fault was that?

Damn blood sucking leeches!

I was still shaking, about to phase back and connect with them whether I liked it or not. I clenched my fists together trying to stop the tremors going up my back. It wasn't working.

"How dare he!" I growled grabbing a rock and throwing it at the nearest tree, splintering it with a satisfying crunch. I didn't feel any better.

"How dare he!" I raved again.

"How dare he be happy!" The words stung as they left my mouth. I knew it was wrong, how could I not? I had good parents, I knew right from wrong, but I just didn't care! I could still hear the happy buzzing of his mind. It was the same as Quil and Paul and, Sam. I punched the ground over and over till my knuckles bled.

Why did he have to go and imprint?! On that…that monster! The one person at least AS miserable as I am, and he gets to be happy?! No!

"It's not fair!" I stared down at my bleeding hands clenched in the dirt.

What had he done to deserve such an easy way out!

'He wasn't a cold hearted bitch' a voice sneered in the back of my mind. I started to yell back before I realized I wasn't in my wolf form. I was so used to hearing other people in my head it took me a minute to realize that it was MY voice.

The vice in my chest tightened with another wave of anger and self-pity. And something else I hadn't expected. Betrayal. It wasn't the same as with Sam, or with Emily. No, they knew what they'd done, they knew and they still trampled over me like dirt. Sure Emily was sorry and Sam couldn't control himself, but they still knew. I still had something to hold against them. Jacob didn't owe me squat. He hadn't promised to love me; he hadn't been like a sister to me. But Him being happy just seemed so wrong.

My hand stopped bleeding and the pain had almost disappeared as the wounds began to heal. I almost wished it wouldn't. The pain gave me something else to focus on besides my reeling head and my convulsing body.

Damn freaky wolf powers! Why can't I just be normal for once!

Normal, like Kim or Rachel or Emily. Then Jacob's words resurfaced.

"Do you want to imprint?"

I said i didn't know, now i was sure, in the words of my leader, hell no! I liked my free will.

"But then why does it hurt that their so happy?"

Tears fell, streaking the dirt and dried blood on my hands; they were anger tears, at least that's what I told myself. The shaking stopped. I opened my fists and wiped my eyes with a growl.

"Screw normal," I muttered. "And screw the rest of them too, they can go ahead and have their happy go lucky lives, see if I care." And I meant it. I meant it enough to stand up on stable legs; I meant it enough to undress with steady hands; and I meant it enough to phase with control.

"I'm sorry Leah, I didn't mean-."

"Of course you didn't mean to, it's imprinting dumb ass. Now go tell Sam so he doesn't try and kill your precious little blood-sucker."

I even meant it enough to let him be happy.