Cold light above us

Hope fills the heart

And fades away

Skin white as winter

As the sky returns to grey

Days go on forever

But I have not left your side

We can chase the dark together

If you go then so will I

A sob rises in my throat as I think about him. Tavros had called me, sounding terrified, and told me I had to come to Karkat's place immediately. I ran over and burst through the door, finding Tavros sitting on the stairs, blood drained from his face, his bloodshot eyes staring up at me. I ran to Karkat's room and opened the door. That's when the world fell from beneath my feet. There he lay, in the middle of his floor, his eyes glassy and unseeing, his face looking almost peaceful. I stifled a scream as I gazed upon his body, drenched in his own blood that flowed from the gash across his neck. And in his left hand, glinting and dripping with his blood, lay my knife, the knife that I had lent him months ago.

There is nothing left of you

I can see it in your eyes

Sing the anthem of the angels

And say the last goodbye

I remember going down the stairs, walking over to Tavros and crying into his shoulder as he cried into mine.

I keep holding onto you

But I can't bring you back to life

Sing the anthem of the angels

Then say the last goodbye

He had always been there for me, to celebrate or to grieve, to comfort me or to calm me and now, now she has been gone for exactly a year. What did I miss? Where did I go wrong? How could I not have seen that he was dying inside? I've lived with the pain and guilt for a year. Tears roll down my face as I remember the days we spent together.

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'

And was there anything I could have said or done?

Oh, I had no clue you were masking

A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong

And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

To this day I have nightmares about seeing his body, mangled and soaked in blood lying on his floor. A year has past and I can't let him go. I need to join him.

He was my best friend, my moirail, the only one who understood me, who stood by me, who stopped me from killing myself before. Now he's not here to stop me from meeting him on the other side. We always said we would be together even after the apparent end. I need to see him.

I think I'll use my knife, the knife he took his life with, it's only fitting. I raise the blade and begin to open the wounds that had only just started to knit together. As blood pearls and spills out I feel a familiar, dull pain begin to wash over me. I cut deeper, being more careless about where I cut, only wanting to escape into blissful nothingness.

I raise the knife to my neck and think back to how he must have felt as he did the exact same. Was he nervous? Or was he calm?

I press the tip of the blade into my skin and drag it across my neck, letting the knife sink in deeper until blood is running down the front of my shirt. I fall to the floor as darkness begins to cloud my vision and with my final breath I utter his name. "Karkat"

The first song was "One Last Chance"-Daughtry. The second one was "Anthem Of The Angels" –Three Days Grace. The last song was "Why" –Rascal Flatts.

This fic was written to remember my dear friend Zoe, who killed herself on march 2nd, 2011.