If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.- Courtney Kuchta –
I'm not supposed to be in love with a 23 year old. That was just plain wrong. I've seen girls fall in love with older guys and get in trouble. I'm 17 years old though. I'll be 18 in one year, does it matter? I shouldn't worry about it, unless my annoying brother Justin finds out. I turned my nose up at the name "brother." Justin wasn't my brother. He was adopted. I couldn't believe it.
Justin somehow found a letter from his real parents. Justin was really upset and hurt. He couldn't believe that Mom and Dad weren't actually his parents. I couldn't believe that Justin wasn't my big brother. Justin still cared a lot about us though. He learned to deal with being adopted. He would tell Mom and Dad right away if he found out about Dean and me.
Dean Winchester was a really great guy. He says he likes me because I'm mature for my age. Justin would totally laugh if he heard that one. I just like to use magic and that's why I get called immature. Dean doesn't know that I'm a wizard though. He doesn't need to know. I can feel that there is something that he's keeping secret from me too. I think he feels guilty sometimes for being with a 17 year old. I tell him that I'll be 18 in 2 months. He says it's still wrong and that we should end it.
I don't want to end it. Dean's kisses are amazing. No guy has made me feel this way. Not once. He's never taken advantage of me either. I guess I keep trying to convince myself that he's a good guy. There's just something dark about him. I haven't even told my best friend Harper about him. I've told no one.
Justin walks into the wizard lair and he looks at me suspiciously. I look at him.
"What? "I asked. Justin smirks.
"Someone looks like they are guilty. Guilty with a capital G. "Justin laughs at his own stupid joke. I roll my eyes.
"Shut up Justin. " I said. Justin looks at me seriously.
"I can sense that you're up to something Alex, I'm not stupid. Be warned. "Justin says holding up his finger and walks out of the lair. Justin always thought I was up to something. I was playing a lot of jokes on him though. That's what made my teen years fun. I felt my phone vibrate and I looked down and saw a message from Dean.
From Dean:
Hey Alex. Can you sneak out tonight? We need to talk A.S.A.P. Get back to me. –D
I heard someone clear their throat behind me. I jumped up and saw Justin standing there grinning.
"Alex, who is that? Sneaking out? Should I tell Mom and Dad?" Justin laughed. I roll my eyes and laugh at him.
"If you tell, I will put Nair in your shampoo." I threatened him. That looked like it scared him.
"You wouldn't dare." Justin said touching his hair and walking away. Oh, I would.
Later that night I got dressed and when everybody was asleep I went downstairs in the Sub Station and snuck out to see Dean. He drove a really nice 67' Chevy Impala. It was black and he kept it washed and clean. If Justin would see it, he would be so jealous. I got into the Impala and greeted Dean with a kiss. Dean kissed me back and pulled away and drove down to a nearby park. It was beautiful at night. He parked and turned the engine off. He just sat there not saying anything. I was worried.
I closed the space between us and put my hand on his face. He looked at me and I could see the guilt in his eyes. Geez, I would be 18 in 2 months. He was making such a big deal out of it.
"Dean, what's wrong?" I asked. He pushed me away.
"Like you don't know Alex, you're 17 for Christ sakes. This is wrong. You're just a child…" Dean said. I got mad, I was not a child.
"I am not a child! You take that back!" I told him. He grinned.
"See, you're acting like a child. Alex, we need to call it quits before someone catches us. I think your brother is onto us anyway." Dean said. I rolled my eyes. Justin wasn't even my brother. He wasn't going to catch me do anything.
"Justin isn't onto us. He isn't even my brother anyway." I mumbled. It sucks to find out all these years Justin wasn't my real brother. It felt weird. Dean looked sad for me. He put his arm around me and I put my head on his chest.
"I know how you feel. I feel guilty too. I'll be 18 in 2 months though. Then we can tell Mom and Dad. It won't be that bad when I'm 18. "I said trying to convince him, and partly myself too.
"You'll still be a whole lot younger than me." Dean grumbled. I kissed his luxious lips. He had the cutest lips ever. He kissed me back.
"Stop grumbling." I told him. He laughed and we began to make out. He had his hands all in my hair and I ended up in his lap. He ran his hands down my back gently. I realized I had to stop myself or I would make a big mistake with an older guy. He could get in trouble. I sat back down in my side of the Impala. Dean looked satisfied. He was probably thinking the same thing I was.
"Drive me home. It's getting late." I told him. He nodded and started the Impala and drove me back home. He let me out of the Impala.
"Hey Alex…I'll text you. I know, I don't like texting. "Dean laughed and scratched his head.
"I know. See ya." I told him. Dean waved and drove off. I opened up the door trying to be quiet. I got halfway across the room to the stairs when a figure scared the living hell out of me. I yelped. Then I saw Justin and I felt relieved.
"Justin! What are you doing up this late?" I asked. He smirked.
"I thought the same thing about you." He said crossing his arms.
"I had to feed the dog…" I lied. Justin snorted.
"We don't even have a dog." Justin said.
"I do. Don't tell. Shh!" I said trying to sound convincing. Justin shook his head.
"I saw you get out of that car. I saw that guy you were with. He looked a whole lot older than you Alex. You have some explaining to do." Justin said. I put my hand on his shoulder and looked him in the eye.
"Hey listen, you're not my Dad so don't tell me what to do. You're not even my brother. You have no business sneaking around about my personal life." I snapped at him and regretted the "you're not my brother" part as soon as it slipped out of mouth. Justin recoiled away from me.
"I thought we got passed that whole thing. Obviously not." Justin said and walked upstairs. I didn't mean to hurt him; I just got mad that he was hounding me about Dean. I loved Dean and I wasn't going to break up with him because he was a little bit older than me. I sure wasn't going to let Justin mess it up either.