Ryo,
Can you see me as I write this? Can you hear what I speak to you?
I've thought about it millions of times before, Oh god I have. I think that
maybe if you hadn't left that morning that you'd be here all
right. That if you'd stayed here with me instead of going to that damned
country where life was brutally worse, that you'd be here by my side this
morning as you were countless times before.
Do you remember how bad it felt when we stood at the airport where
we'd have to let each other go? Do you remember how I held you tightly in
my arms and how I placed kisses on you face? Did you think we'd cry that
much when they asked all the soldiers to board the plane? Do you remember
how that kiss, our final kiss, was like a desperate attempt to get you to
stay here with me where nothing could hurt you. Did you know that my heart
broke twenty times over when you just forced yourself from my arms and
turned your back after a small kiss on my forehead and left?
Do you feel the way I feel each time I go to visit you where you lay
dormant? Do you feel the sorrow and the horrible nerve wracking sensation
as I talk to you and hope that you are close by listening? Do you cry like
I do each moment as I pass by the tree where we had our first kiss? Or the
bridge where for the first time you said you loved me?
Do you remember that morning when the two soldiers came to our home
and told me that you had been killed by enemy fire? Do you remember how
much I cried right as the tall one handed me your dog tags, which I wear
around my neck? Could you hear my sobbing and childish screams as I finally
did realize that you were not going to just walk through the door and
negate any proof that you were actually gone? Do you know how bad it felt
every night I slept and when I woke up from a bad dream, how you weren't
there to take my fears away?
Do you remember how I had tried many times to kill myself? Do you see the
scars that are laced up and down my arms? Do you remember how although I
had those blood gushing out like there wasn't going to be a tomorrow, how I
seemed to be saved every time? Did you have that power to stop my bleeding
each and every time?
But...
Do you remember the first time we met? How I got you to kiss me? How I
could tell I left your knees weak after I had gotten mad cause you told me
to go to sleep? Do you remember how you got mad at JJ for kissing me? Do
you remember how I had blown up at Berkley for kissing you? How that night
when we first made love and how afterwards I felt so bad for doing it to
you? Do you remember how our second time was like heaven on Earth and how
we laughed at how you couldn't walk? Do you remember how much happiness I
found when you said you wanted to be with me forever? Do you remember how
time stopped at the moment I placed that ring on your hand? Do you remember
Ryo? Because I sure do.......
And deep in my heart, I know your answer to all the questions.
"Yes Dee I do remember..."
I love you forever,
Dee
Can you see me as I write this? Can you hear what I speak to you?
I've thought about it millions of times before, Oh god I have. I think that
maybe if you hadn't left that morning that you'd be here all
right. That if you'd stayed here with me instead of going to that damned
country where life was brutally worse, that you'd be here by my side this
morning as you were countless times before.
Do you remember how bad it felt when we stood at the airport where
we'd have to let each other go? Do you remember how I held you tightly in
my arms and how I placed kisses on you face? Did you think we'd cry that
much when they asked all the soldiers to board the plane? Do you remember
how that kiss, our final kiss, was like a desperate attempt to get you to
stay here with me where nothing could hurt you. Did you know that my heart
broke twenty times over when you just forced yourself from my arms and
turned your back after a small kiss on my forehead and left?
Do you feel the way I feel each time I go to visit you where you lay
dormant? Do you feel the sorrow and the horrible nerve wracking sensation
as I talk to you and hope that you are close by listening? Do you cry like
I do each moment as I pass by the tree where we had our first kiss? Or the
bridge where for the first time you said you loved me?
Do you remember that morning when the two soldiers came to our home
and told me that you had been killed by enemy fire? Do you remember how
much I cried right as the tall one handed me your dog tags, which I wear
around my neck? Could you hear my sobbing and childish screams as I finally
did realize that you were not going to just walk through the door and
negate any proof that you were actually gone? Do you know how bad it felt
every night I slept and when I woke up from a bad dream, how you weren't
there to take my fears away?
Do you remember how I had tried many times to kill myself? Do you see the
scars that are laced up and down my arms? Do you remember how although I
had those blood gushing out like there wasn't going to be a tomorrow, how I
seemed to be saved every time? Did you have that power to stop my bleeding
each and every time?
But...
Do you remember the first time we met? How I got you to kiss me? How I
could tell I left your knees weak after I had gotten mad cause you told me
to go to sleep? Do you remember how you got mad at JJ for kissing me? Do
you remember how I had blown up at Berkley for kissing you? How that night
when we first made love and how afterwards I felt so bad for doing it to
you? Do you remember how our second time was like heaven on Earth and how
we laughed at how you couldn't walk? Do you remember how much happiness I
found when you said you wanted to be with me forever? Do you remember how
time stopped at the moment I placed that ring on your hand? Do you remember
Ryo? Because I sure do.......
And deep in my heart, I know your answer to all the questions.
"Yes Dee I do remember..."
I love you forever,
Dee