If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with. Behind every good man there is a woman who made him that way. Love is blind. Love makes time pass; Time makes love pass. Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn.

If someone had mentioned these to me, I would have laughed at such sayings through most of my Hogwarts life. But in my seventh year, I began to realize that these quotes weren't simply silly things someone made up one day to make people wonder. It was real life struggles. And I happened to find that out the hard way.

Please come with me as I show you how those five quotes affected my life. I must warn you, you may be displeased by how things end and I can only regret the things I have done. I wish I could change it, I wish so bad sometimes that it hurts, but God punishes those who do wrong. And right now; I'm being punished.

Chapter 1 – The Beginning of it All

"Alyse, look at what Sirius taught me over the summer!" James flicked is wand in a complicated pattern. The window beside them started off with a large black dot in the very center. But then the circle began to form into a man. The man then started dancing, jumping of the walls, and created chaos in its glass boundaries.

She laughed alongside the Marauders when Sirius raised his hand to give James a perfect high-five. Even Remus, who had recently been having several pity parties alone with himself, was bent over holding his stomach.

Alyse peeked at James through her curtain of blonde hair. His white teeth were opened from his giant laughter; his eyes squeezed tightly shut beneath his large, round glasses. The twinkle of his laughter made Alyse's stomach do somersaults; the closeness of his body made her blush.

Soon, the laughter died down and the amusing picture vanished into the glass. Though it certainly wasn't the last fit of giggles they shared. They knew that it was all of their last rides to Hogwarts so they filled it with memories that would last them a life time.

Alyse thought that nothing could ruin this day; until James whispered loudly to Sirius, "Now all I need is Lily Evans."

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Breakfast was no different the next day as it had been their following six years. The group of friends would sit near the center of the table and they would plot which unlucky student they would play a trick on next. Severus Snape always ended up being the victim for he had an uncanny sense of timing. And it always happened the same way.

During the group's break they would sit near a large tree by the lake where Lily and her friends liked to sit and talk in-between classes. James would try to catch her eye any way he could and the only opportunity he could find was to Leviocorpus Snape. But this had the opposite effect he pleased.

He thought that Lily would to him with her arms wide open yelling things such as, "You're so amazing, James! Snape is such a fun person to pick on! How did you learn that? Can you teach me?" He'd imagine her batting her eyes and rubbing her porcelain hands on his firm chest. She would do neither of these though. Lily had a very low patience for bullies and she very well couldn't stand James Potter.

His hopes would be crushed for the day and Alyse would try everything she could think of to cheer him up and she was then the one who would dream of running her tiny hands on his firm chest when he finally realized that all he needed was right in front of him. But she never said a word about her admiration. No one knew, but Remus.

Remus had a way of knowing every thing of any thing. Even more, he had a very good accurate idea of what ran through his friends' heads at all times. And even though she knew that he knew, she never brought it up. The idea of talking of the person she loved who had no inclination to even gaze into her eyes for longer than two seconds seemed like something that would hurt and continue hurting until something else caught her attention.

And Remus didn't push. He never did. So instead of spilling her feelings to someone else, she would react in fury on the nights when Remus and the Marauders had to leave every full moon. Wrecking anything she could in the common room before she would collapse onto the couch in loud sobs. As she slept the house-elves would repair all the damages so that all the evidence of her wounded heart was no longer visible.

The next morning however was awkward whenever they found her red-eyed and passed out on the couch. Sirius bent over her, shaking her shoulders roughly to wake her from her deep sleep. "Alyse? Hey darling, wake up. Are you alright?"

Her eyes widened with a fear of being caught in the middle of the act, "I- Yeah, I'm fine. Long night, I had so much homework. Slughorn really out to lay off the essays he's giving us." With that she would rush up the stairs to get ready for the day.

Sirius turned to stare questioningly at James, Peter, and Remus, "Slughorn never gave us an essay this week."

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"Stir the potion clockwise and then mix in the rat's tail. Yes and then after that you need to pour in a little water," Alyse instructed James as Slughorn walked by, observing the potion they were mixing and making approving noises before moving onto Peter and Sirius's concoction where he yelled and hurried over to Remus's.

"So this morning you said you were passed out and red faced because of Slughorn's essay right? But we haven't had an essay from Slughorn." James stopped stirring to stare at Alyse. She blushed as she took over the job of mixing the ingredients, avoiding James's question. "What are you hiding from us?"

Alyse heaved a long sigh, "I'm not hiding anything."

"Yes you are, and you know it. You can't fool us, we know something's wrong." He leaned over the potion where steam was rising, causing his glasses to fog up. He hurriedly whipped them off and wiped them with the sleeve of his black robe.

"Alright, bloody hell you're persistent. Last night I ran into Lily Evans," she lied, "and I figured since you fancied her so much I'd try and get you guys together. Well she said a few things and basically said she would never fancy you because you were such a bully and added a few other words I'd rather not repeat. Well this made me very angry, because no one can talk of my mate that way! So I kind of took it out on inanimate objects and fell asleep in the common room."

He groaned, sitting into his chair, "She's right. I am a jerk and I'll never stand a chance with a girl like her. I'm stupid, stupid, stupid!" James repeatedly hit his head on the table until finally Alyse made him stop. He looked up with a hint of anger on his face, "What? I am!"

"No you are not! Now listen to me. All you have to do is show Lily that you aren't a bully and can have a nice side of you too. I've already seen it; it's just that she's failed to actually see past the floating Snapes." He laughed at this. "Show her that you are what she wants and all the pieces will fall into place after that."

"Will you help me, Alyse?" He looked up at her, his eyes unintentionally smoldering.

"What?" She hadn't expected this, hadn't expected it at all.

"Will you help me get Lily Evans to fall in love with me? You're an expert on girls because you are one and I need you to guide me. I turn into a fool when I'm around her and I can't help it. I just need someone there who will set me straight. Will you be that person? Please?" He grabbed both of my hands into his own warm ones.

She melted on the spot, unable to ignore her love's needs. Even if it be helping him find someone other than her. If they were truly meant to be he would find her somehow, he would go through any obstacle. Because she knew James; he would go through any obstacle to get what he wanted, even the most dangerous of things. He was brave and had a heart of gold; which is why he was in Gryffindor. But he was also a teenager which led him to do idiotic things to other people: Things that I had, until now, encouraged so that Lily would grow to hate him.

Alyse managed a smile and a nod.

She couldn't speak. She felt as if she opened her mouth her inner feelings would escape and she would not be able to exist with James as she had most of her life. So she went with the plan, and with the pain that came with it. They planned to meet that night in the common room to discuss how they would get Lily, now the luckiest girl alive, to notice James.

She continued to smile and nod; both very fake.

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Another story, I know, but I couldn't resist. I had seen the quote 'Behind every good man is a woman who made her that way' and I was reading a bit of a James fanfic and this story just came rushing into my brain.

I hope it hasn't been done before because then I'll just be awfully crushed because I really enjoyed writing it. Even if it has been, I'll probably continue writing it anyways. I just love the idea.

Anyways, as always, tell me what you think. I'll probably be needing a lot of extra characters so if you could take the time and tell me if you'd like to make an appearance in this story then please do so in a message. Thank you and have a great day!