REMEMBER ME
When the dark wood fell before me
And all the paths were
overgrown
The fear clouded my mind, making rational thought impossible. The
only
thing that was clear in the turbulent haze was one image:
Padme.
I had to save her. I needed to save her. I could save her.
All it would take was surrender. A sweet, silent sinking into
the
darkness that already had its tenuous hold on me. It whispered
to me
like a lover. There was no other path.
When
the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the
sorrows of stone
The man I had for so long thought of as a father goaded me,
tempted me.
Found my weakness and used it for his own malicious
intent. The Jedi
betrayed you, this man said, It's them or Padme.
That was it, then.
There could be no other way. Something roiled
in my heart….it could
have been a moment of sorrow, or regret.
But I cast it to the wind, my
heart turned to stone.
Then
the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
Now only one thing in my mind. Something I'd said to her,
once. I
will even learn to stop people from dying. This is my one
desire. A
desire so deep that everything else I'd believed in or
held sacred
has fallen into the abyss created by it. I will not
fail her.
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the
ice and the fire
And now here she is, pleading with me….begging me to go
away with
her. She knows what I've done, but she's forgiven me.
Come away
with me, help me raise our child…But it is too late.
Out of the
cold, darkness of space onto this fiery hell of a
planet, I have come to
finish what I've started…to make a new
galaxy, a united galaxy.
She and I will rule. I am amused by the
poetic irony of this
place….I feel as if I am being baptized by
fire.
I did not believe because I could not see
Though you
came to me in the night
And now, here you are. All these years later. I'd thought
I'd
lost you, that night on Mustafar. I did not believe you would
come, my
son, but I felt your presence moving toward me like the
bursting of a
new star. Coming to me in this soft night, on a
planet as full of green
as Tatooine is of sand. It must be as
wondrous a place to you as it
would have been to me….all this
green. Yes, here you are, coming to
me in the night.
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your
love in the light of the stars
And I had thought it would have ended so differently. I no
longer
believed I had anything left inside of my soul…..I'd
scourged it
out so many years ago with hate and anger and filled
it with my own
black thoughts. But your light shone through again,
Luke. Named for
light. What a wise choice your mother made, when
she gifted you with
that moniker. She had believed, until the very
end, that I could be
saved. She did not forsake the dawn….and
neither have you, son. Your
love for me burned more fiercely than
the light of the stars, humbling
me with the intensity of it. How
could I deny you the Father you called
out for?
Though we share this humble path alone
How fragile is
the heart
So here we are now, together, at the end. The only two Jedi
Knights left
in the universe. Holding on to each other, afraid to
let the other go,
lest they fade away, as in a dream. But you are
not a dream, you are my
reality. My tired, sad heart feels, feels,
for the first time in years,
and I am afraid it will burst for all
the emotion in it now. I cannot
speak, I am overwhelmed.
O give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the
face of the stars
Help me back to the light, Luke. Help me fulfill my destiny. I
can see
the hope in your pale blue eyes….so like my own. I
cannot look at
you, son….you are so eager to bring me home, to
save me. You
don't realize that you have saved me. I may be earth
bound and
dying, but my soul is already soaring toward the light
of the stars.
Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal
veil of fear
You have breathed new life into me, even for only this
short time. My
hate, hidden so long under a veil of thinly
controlled anger, is lifting
from me, fading away like the ghosts
of my past. I am no longer afraid.
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll
rise above these earthly cares
I have such hope for you, my son. I know the Force will
always guide
you, keeping you in the light. I may have been the
Chosen One, but you
have brought balance to my life. My spirit
will rise above these earthy
cares, and I will watch you become a
greater Jedi than I could have ever
hoped to have been.
Cast you eyes on the ocean, cast your soul on the
sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Remember, my son….I will always be a part of you. I will
always
watch over you with pride, and I will always love you. And
when your
troubles and misgivings threaten to drag you down into a
black
despair….remember me. Remember me.
