Fanfic Usagi x Seiya / Sailor Moon x Sailor Fighter

Moonlight Sinners

"Am I not good enough?

I've never been able to forget a thing about you..."

Part I: Serenity's Conflict

Chapter 1: An Inner Pain

Neo Queen Serenity woke up in a sweat. She gasped for breath as if she had had a nightmare. But for her, it was not a bad dream, but a nostalgic feeling. She turned her head and looked at Endymion who was peacefully sleeping beside her. When she looked upon him, she always felt a gentle warmth inside her. But for reasons she didn't understand, this time it was different. Something inside her hurt as though something were wrong. She got up and walked to the balcony. The light of the moon reflected against her nightgown. There was a chill in the air, but it didn't bother her. Crystal Tokyo was shining more than usual. A shooting star passed through the sky. Serenity looked at it and felt that this night was special, that it was the beginning of something else. She knew her dream had not been a mere coincidence. Nothing happened by chance and Serenity knew that anyone else that everything is destined in this world. What she did not know was that her own fatality would start tonight.

Several passed after that night and yet the pain in Serenity's chest continued. She continued to act as she normally did so no one would think that anything had changed. But Serenity knew that it wasn't true. She decided to not pay attention to it since today she accompanied her daughter, Small Lady, to her first day of training as a soldier. Serenity used to be the strongest soldier on Earth, Sailor Moon. Her daughter wanted to follow her footsteps and become a great guardian soldier as well. Her mother had taught her that women were born to be strong and choose their own destiny. Sailor Pluto came along to supplement her education.

"Puu, how can I become as strong as Mama?" she asked.

"Small Lady, you need to be patient and learn how overcome the obstacles. Being strong is not an easy thing. You are not born with strength, but become strong. Life is the same for anyone on Earth. Sometimes, You will lose yourself, but you will be reborn anew. When you fall far down, there is only thing to do: get up and never give up. At all costs. This is how you can become strong and choose your destiny," Sailor Pluto answered.

"Mama, is it true? You never gave up, did you? That's how you and Papa overcome the obstacles and chose your destiny, right?"

Serenity did not reply right away to her daughter. Becoming strong... Was she really like that? Sometimes Serenity thought about her reincarnation Usagi in the 20th century. Did she really choose her path? She was told she was soldier and a princess, that she was born to bring peace and hope to Tokyo. She was born to love that man, Mamoru, the reincarnation of Endymion. Him and no one else. She often acted like a cry baby because the only thing she wanted was to live as a normal girl. Was this pain in her chest linked to Usagi? Had Usagi really been happy to do what she did? Serenity could not be sure about that. She finally replied to her daughter.

"To not give up is an important thing, my sweet girl. But that doesn't mean you have to forget about yourself, about what you desire in life. Choosing our destiny is different from our duties..."

Sailor Pluto looked at Serenity, worried, but Serenity ignored her. Small Lady seemed a little bit confused between the two women.

"What your mother is trying to tell you is that you will always have duties but that doesn't mean you cannot have dreams and hopes about your own life."

"I understand. Thank you, Puu, Mama."

Serenity felt the pain in her chest getting sharper. Her daughter was looking at her, full of admiration, and Serenity glanced away for a moment. She excused herself from the room and got out for a while.

"Why? Why did I tell her that?" Serenity wondered to herself, putting a hand on her forehead. The pain in her chest calmed down a little and left her tired. She shut her eyes one moment.

"Where are you, now? I want to see you..."

She remembered her long black hair...

Serenity suddenly opened her eyes. What was that? Who talked to her just now? She could not clearly see the face. She could only feel a strong sensation which filled her with a gentle warmth. "Who are you...?"

"Neo Queen Serenity."

The sweet voice of Sailor Pluto pulled her out of her thoughts.

Sailor Pluto bowed. When she raised her head, she was still looking at Serenity, worried. "My Queen, I hope you are fine. You look a bit pale. Perhaps you should rest. Leave your daughter to me for the day."

"I am sorry, Sailor Pluto. I didn't want to worry you. I am fine. Really."

Sailor Pluto kept her worried look but finally smiled at her and made another bow before leaving.

Serenity looked out at Crystal Tokyo. The city was glowing and looked peaceful. This was the result of all her work, all her battles over the years. Then, why did she seem so unsatisfied?

"The Kingdom... Why do I have to do those things? I just want to be a normal girl..."

Serenity grasped her chest and broke down. She took several deep breath before getting up. That was not her voice. It was Usagi.

"Usagi, what do you want from me? Why are you so hurt?"

She finally understood that this situation was not normal. Usagi, the reincarnation of Serenity in the 20th Century, was trying to communicate with her. This pain was a kind of message. Serenity could feel it now. But she could not tell Endymion or the other Sailors Soldiers. Why did she feel that way? Since when could she not trust her own husband and friends? Usagi was not like that. She just knew that she could not say anything and she had to find the answer herself: Usagi's secret, her secret.