This is my first fic ever... the idea just came to me while listening the song The End by Pearl Jam. I suck at summaries but well, read on please!

Disclaimer: Even though I wish I did, I do not own any of the characters

What were all those dreams we shared
Those many years ago?
What were all those plans we made now
Left beside the road?
Behind us in the road…

They were sitting in silence in the living room at the loft. Their loft. Their home. None of them was talking; they were just sitting there, looking at each other, contemplating one another as if it was the last time. And it might as well be…

"I won't let you do this, Kate."

"Do what?"

"Look at me like that. Like it is the last time you ever see me again…"

"Well, isn't it?"

She instantly felt the tears rising to the surface; she didn't mean to be that harsh... He was the man she loved after all, her partner, her best friend, her one and done, her husband. He was the one who had stood by her all this time, the one who had had her back when her life was in danger. He was the one who had saved her life countless times before and now she wished she could save his.

"No Kate, no it isn't. We still have many beautiful months to spend together."

The kids were out with the Ryans for the day so their parents could have a day off. Well the main reason was that Rick was feeling off these past few weeks and his medical test results were to be back on this day. The couple needed this day off. It had been a particularly busy week at the precinct: the team had had to deal with a serial killer case, therefore Kate was exhausted' and Rick being sick didn't make it easy. Thank God Alexis had come home to help with the three young children.

"Kate?"

She had been lost in her thoughts for a few minutes, she turned to her husband.

"Yeah?"

"Come here…" He said pulling her close to him.

She curled up next to the love of her life, feeling so tiny and helpless and scared. He wrapped his arms around her thin body and she rested her head on his shoulder, leaning into his embrace. Finally, she let the tears she had been holding back stream down her face. She let go of everything and cried. She hadn't cried that much since that day. The day she and her father got home to the news of her mother's murder…

"Hey, it's okay baby… It's gonna be okay"

What was she doing? He was the one who was sick; if anyone had a right to be that hopeless it was him. She had to be the strong one; she had to help him overcome this. And yet there she was, sobbing into his neck like a crybaby…

"I'm sorry Rick… It's just… I just…"

"I know babe, don't worry about it."

"What do we do now?"

"Nothing…"
They sat there for a while longer, not talking, not uttering a word, just enjoying one another; just being together was enough for them right now.

Soon he would be gone. Not on a book tour, not on a work trip, gone. Really, irrevocably gone. Forever. And that was so hard to imagine, let alone admit…

So I really hope you like my first chapter... It's my first fic so I'd be super thankful if you guys could review.

I'll try to update once a week, thanks for reading! :)