Disclaimer: Paramount owns Enterprise. The song 'My Immortal' belongs to Evanescence.

AN: Warning, this is a deathfic, and it's R/S. If you don't like that, turn back now. All other, please r & r.

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here,

Suppressed by all of my childish fears,

And if you have to leave,

I wish that you would just leave,

Because your presence still lingers here,

And it won't leave me alone

The darkness was impenetrable. It didn't make any difference if she had her eyelids closed or not. A long time ago, she had feared the dark. Then he had taught her to trust herself, had told her in his silent way without words or gestures that if she didn't believe in herself, no one could.

These wounds won't seem to heal,

This pain is just too real,

There's just too much that time cannot erase

She lay still, counting the days in her head. Seventy. She found it hard to believe it were seventy days already. One thousand six hundred and eighty hours. To her, every day it still felt like yesterday.

You'd cry, I'd wipe away all of your tears,

You'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,

I've held your hands through all of these years,

But you still have all of me

They had not taken him home. He had asked her not to. Instead, there had been a space burial, in an ancient nameless system with a small, red glowing star. She had held the speech at the memorial service.

You used to captivate me,

By your resonating light,

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind,

Your face, it haunts my once pleasent dreams,

Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me

She reached out, her hand seeking what she knew wasn't there. What she knew wouldn't be there tomorrow. She closed her hand around the covers, feeling the smoothness and the nothing inside her.

These wounds won't seem to heal,

This pain is just too real,

There's just too much that time cannot erase

One hundred thousand eight hundred minutes, reduced to one. One life, reduced to half.

You'd cry, I'd wipe away all of your tears,

You'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,

I've held your hands through all of these years,

But you still have all of me

She tried to blink back the tears. He had told her not to cry, and even though she knew it had only been a saying, she tried to hold onto what lay behind it.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,

But though you're still with me,

I've been alone all along

But it was hard. It was oh so hard.

You'd cry, I'd wipe away all of your tears,

You'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,

I've held your hands through all of these years,

But you still have all of me

Hoshi Sato lay in the dark, crying, griefing at the loss of all she had believed in once.