Just an idea which has been floating round in my head for quite some time now, so I thought I would write it up and share it with you guys.
So yeah... hope you like it and I alway like to hear your comments. I do proof read but im generally not to good at checking my own work so excuse any mistakes.
'We all want to find a person or have a child, we love so much we'd die for. Swap places with.'
But what if this wasn't so easy? What if you couldn't find that person? Or have that Child? What if you where incapable of loving someone enough to swap places with them. Die for them? Someone once told me 'Love just a chemical reaction. A combination of adrenaline, dopamine and serotonin. Its completely illogical.' Where they right? Was love just chemicals? Was it completely illogical?
These were the thoughts running through the head of the Hot-headed Cardiothorasic Consultant Surgeon Jac Naylor. What was the point in love when it was almost always certain to end in tears. Well that's how its always ended for Jac and that is when her thoughts briefly wandered back to Joesph.
"Oh Joesph! This is all your fault!" Jac muttered under her breath. Jac was suddenly pulled out of her thoughts by a sharp, quick knock on the office door, followed by the door swinging open and Jonny came running in. "Nurse Maconie don't you knock?" Jac snapped clearly annoyed he had to cheek to completely blank her and then just come swanning into her office.
"Sorry. Force of habit. Anyway there's any emergency in theatre Ollie has had to go home and Elliot is short staffed." Jac sighed, Assisting in theatre wasn't something she would usually pass the chance of but with her mental state as fragile as it was now she wasn't sure if she could face it.
"Fine I will be there in a minute." Jac replied reluctantly...
"Jac. Jac. What the hell was all that about?" Elliot shouted after her as she stormed out of theatre chasing after Jac as she headed toward the office. "Jac. What's wrong? This isn't like you?"
"I'm fine Elliot just leave it." Jac told him sinking into her chair and burying herself into the piles of paper work scattered on her unusually untidy desk.
"Jac your not fine. You have been distance these last few weeks, I know Tara's death was a shock to all of us but this started even before that. Come on Jac tell me whats wrong. I might be able to help" Elliot spoke placing a hand on Jac's shoulder.
"I have endrometrosis that's whats wrong. You cant help there is nothing anyone can do to help!" Jac shouted as another wave of pain hit her. She took a deep breath before continuing... I was diagnosed 5 weeks ago that's why I was off work those two days, not food poisoning." Jac told him. The tears welling up in her eyes as she spoke this was the first time since she had received her diagnosis she had actually said the words.
"Jac. I'm so sorry. Erm does... does erm?"
"Spit it out Elliot. You where going to ask if Jonny knows." Elliot nodded before Jac continued. "No. No I haven't told him. Not like it was even any of his business any."
"Jac. Doesn't he have a right to know. I mean this will affect him too." Elliot said going to sit next to Jac who had now exited her chair and sat in the large comfortable sofa on the other side of the room.
"It has nothing to do with him Elliot. Not anymore anyway." Jac replied her gaze focused on the floor in front of her almost as if she was hanging her head in shame. "We not together anymore Elliot. We have an argument. We both said things we shouldn't have. But he hit a nerve." Jac paused remembering those dreadful events.
What was that?
What was what?
Don't ever question me in theatre again?
Are you serious?
To bloody right I am!
Get over yourself.
Oh my god. You think that just because i said i might move in with you that now we're equal.
Oh no no no no because that would in insane wouldn't it
That's right. I save lives while you hold my coat. I earn 5x's your salary that is how equal we are
Brutally honest as ever
This is why you big plan is such a bad idea. Wallpaper samples and pushing buggies through the park
Who in there right mind would want to have a baby with you any way. If any product of your womb has a evens chance of being the Anti-Christ...
"Jac..." Elliot started but before he had chance to continue there was a knock on the door... Jonny opened the office door and stood awkwardly in the door way.
"I'll leave you to talk." Elliot said getting up and walking towards the door.
"Erm Professor Hope it was actually you I wanted to speak to" Jonny said sounding a little confused.
"I think you need to talk first Jonny. Can it wait?" Elliot asked
"Erm Okay yeah sure. See you in a bit then." Jonny replied as Elliott exited the room closing the door behind him.
Next Chapter should be up within next few days depending on how fast I right and what my work load is. So until next time...