Chapter 1- The Heart wants what the heart wants

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Author's Note- First Degrassi fanfiction. Please no flames. This is Twincest so if you don't like it- don't read it. I hate long authors notes so here we go. Please R&R! 3

Chapter 1-The heart wants what the heart wants

Declan POV.

I knew these feelings were wrong. The fantasy's that played out in my head felt so right but after made me sick. I hate the way she makes me feel. The way her eyes mirror mine, the way her creamy skin and chocolate hair mesh so well. Her ample breasts and long legs. I could stare at her for hours… she is the forbidden fruit. The one I want-no need-to taste. My train of thought interrupted by my current girlfriend Holly J as she busted in the room.

"Dec...I'm so tired. The dot was slammed packed and Spinner wasn't there." She wined as she plopped down on the couch and propped her feet in my lap. I began to massage her feet and tell her about the plans tonight.

"Well, if your that tired then it looks like a quiet night in with just you me and the couch is in order." I smiled as she leaned over for a quick kiss.

"Babe, I'm sorry but I have plans with Jane tonight – you know band stuff. Thought I would tag along" she gave me a another kiss as she slipped on her shoes and headed out the door.

"Well… there goes my night." I mumbled. I turned on the tv and scrolled through channels. My sister Fiona walked out of her bed room and sat herself next to me. She intoxicated me, her floral perfume and low cut v-neck.

"Thank God she left!" Fiona said her eyes locking with mine. On instinct I turned away.

"Dec, what's wrong?" she asked innocently her eyes wide.

"I just can't anymore Fe." I let that slip out and it was out .

"Can't what?" she asked placing her hand on my face turning it towards her. I jerked away.

"Nothing!" I watched out of the corner of my eye as she mumbled whatever and began to flip through a magazine. She began normal chit chat about the newest gala coming up and how I could take Holly effing J and that she would need a date. Even though the conversation was boring I found myself hanging on every word. I watched her mouth move and the way her nimble hands moved about. It wasn't hard to admit I was in love. With my sister. I knew deep down she felt the same. But she was something I could never have. In the world we only had each other. Through the many girlfriends Fe had always been there for me. With sisterly bear hugs and words of encouragement . But it was sisterly and that was all. Sisterly. And I hated myself for thinking otherwise.

"Declan? Hello you there?" she laughed while waving her hands in my face. I laughed

"I'm here Fe, calm down." I gave a her a smile and turned to what she was watching, a video bio about the famous Drake. The wrapper.

"Isn't that the wheel chair guy, the one that was shot?" I asked Fe.

"I think he is. Jimmy is his name?" she shrugged and picked up another magazine. I looked at the clock. It was 9 pm. To early to make the bed excuse.

"Did you hear how Anya is pregnant!" Fe exclaimed. Still staring at the screen of her droid.

"Old news Fe. That was news around prom." I continued to stare at the tv and we didn't speak till much later.

"Do you wanna order pizza?" Fe asked, boredom written plainly on her face.

"Whatever is fine." I said dryly looking at the clock and how it 11:45. She ordered a large pizza and chocolate dunkers. She hung up and looked over at me.

"Ok. So now do you want get wasted?" she asked laughing bounding from her chair to the liquor cabinet. She reached in and pulled out a bottle of vodka.

"Pace yourself." I told her. She clearly wasn't paying attention. I sighed and figured it would be easier to just join her. I walked over and fetched a bottle of crown royal drinking straight out of the bottle.

2 hours and a bottle of crown royal and vodka later…

"I just love you so much!" I exclaimed kissing her harder. Her hands wrapped around my neck and my hands took place around her waist.

"I know how you feel!" she said her speech slurred, breathing heavily. Every kiss caused a sensation so mind blowing . We flopped down on the couch and make out session went on longer. My dreams coming a reality. We were both going to hell. Fuck it. This was amazing. My phone vibrated in my pocket I held up 3 fingers for 3 minutes. It was Holly J.

"Hello?"

"Hey dec! What's up?" she asked her voice cheery.

"Hanging out with Fee." I said my speech slightly slurring.

"Oh my God Declan! Your drunk!" she said yelled!

"Whoever said that!" As I hung up and made my way back to Fiona. Our makeout session was stopped by Holly J busting through the door. Her eyes wide. She walked over and slapped me hard in the face.

"Your Sick! We are VERY over!" She yelled she stormed out of the apartment, slamming the door behind her.

"Shit! Shit Shit!" I threw my head in my hands.

"Oh c'mon Dec, she was a bitch anyway…" she passed out and lolled over on the other side of the couch. I looked at the passed out figured of my beautiful sister. I took advantage of her drunkenness. I was a horrible person… I covered her with a blanket and stormed into my room. I punched the wall. Only hurting myself. A tear trickled down my face. This was wrong. So wrong.

AN: So? Please leave a comment letting me know if I should continue! R&R!