Author's Note: Just a drabble. Not my best but I hope at least someone out there likes it. R&R.
Disclaimer: Does it seem like I own anything?
I really should just learn to bottle all my emotions up. Bottle them up and send them away for good. They are overrated and unneeded. They are useless and make everything a lot more difficult.
But they won't go away. They linger and swell and stretch and I just want to kiss him. I want to have Derek be mine and I want us to be a couple. But it's ridiculous because it's Derek and me.
It's a recipe for disaster.
Still, that doesn't make me want him any less. Possibly more, maybe.
The feelings are driving me insane and completely distracting. My school work has been lacking and scattering. I feel like such a dork. I want to put everything into correctly labeled boxes; my new crush, the distance from my friends, the distractions at school. But it's Derek and he's every-fucking-where. The new crush, my – our (seems like it's always our) – friends and school. I can't get rid of the feelings if he's everywhere.
And he's absolutely everywhere to me.
Life would so much easier if certain things could just bottled up and forgotten about. Like silly crushes on handsome, charming, oh so perfect stepsiblings that we supposedly loathe. It's all so confusing and stressful. I just wish I could figure out a way to fix these feelings.
End them, mend them, embrace them or completely erase them.