Broken
Hey, minna-san! I've been
feeling really depressed for the past, oh, couple of weeks, so I'm expressing
my feelings w/ a E+T fic. (well, it's sorta an E+T) My apologies if it's too
sad of depressing, but it's how I'm feeling. I hope you like it, anyway.
R&R, onegai! (oh, and BTW, E&T are about 17-18 in this fic)
Dedicated to
the one I can never have…
DISCLAIMER: I don't own the
characters, the song, or CCS.
~Never had a dream come true, 'til the
day that I found you,
Even though I pretend that I've moved
on,
You'll always be my baby…~ S Club7
Tomoyo stared out the window. She sighed as the rain fell
in sheets outside her house. A smile crept on her face as she realized that the
weather fit her mood. How ironic. But the smile quickly faded as she remembered
what she must do. She turned away from the window, silently crying. Tomoyo
picked up the phone, and began to dial the number that was imprinted in her
brain.
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Eriol smiled happily. Tomoyo had just called, and they were
going to the park later on in the evening. (AN-it's stopped raining) They had
been going out steadily for the past few months, and their relationship had
been progressing nicely. One thing bothered him, though. He looked puzzled as
he turned on the water for his shower. She had sounded very vague and distant
when she had called. As he got in the shower, he thought about their
conversation.
^^^^^Flashback^^^^^
"Moshi moshi, Eriol
speaking."
"Konnichiwa, Eriol-kun,
it's Tomoyo."
Eriol's face lit up w/ pleasure.
"Hey, Tomoyo-chan! O genki
desu ka? (Trans: How are you?)"
"Daijoubu, (Trans: I'm
alright)" she replied, but her tone sounded far from being all right.
Eriol looked worried.
"Koshii? (beloved) Are you
sure you're okay? You sound sad or depressed about something."
"Naw, I'll be fine,
Eriol-kun," she forced a happier voice. I must not let him know what's
wrong. She thought. Not yet, not now… "I just called to ask you if
you wanted to go to the park later on tonight. Say…8 'o clock?"
"Sure! I'd love to!"
"Great! Meet me at the 3rd
bench down from the entrance, okay?"
"No prob! See you there,
k?" Eriol was practically jumping up and down w/ excitement.
"Ja Eriol-kun," Tomoyo
giggled slightly at his reaction before hanging up.
"Ja, Tomoyo-chan," Eriol
hung up, and went to go get ready, a smile on his face.
^^^^^End Flashback^^^^^
Why
did she sound like that? He
thought, as he got out of the shower. Is there something bothering here?
Something she's not telling me?
He
dried himself off, and began to get ready for his date w/ Tomoyo. When he
looked at his reflection in the mirror, he smiled, Man, I got it bad, to be
dressing up like this, just for her… Eriol grabbed his keys and locked his
apartment door. As he headed to his car, he thought, Oh well, maybe she'll
tell me tonight. He smiled again to himself as he pulled out of the parking
lot. Even if she doesn't, I still get to see her.
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Tomoyo waited silently, alone, on the bench where they were
supposed to meet. She was early, torn from her home by the anxiousness that was
plaguing her. She heard his car pull into the parking lot, heard his footsteps
walk over to where she was sitting, felt the warmth of his body as he sat next
to her, his arm as he put it around her shoulder, and yet she was still silent,
staring at the ground, not once looking up.
Eriol
was very worried by now. This wasn't like her at all.
"Tomoyo, dear, what's
wrong?" he asked, compassionately (AN-the '-chans' and '-kuns' take away the
seriousness of the moment.)
She
just shook her head, fighting back the tears that threatened to course down her
cheeks, as they had all day.
"Tomoyo, why won't you tell
me?" he looked into her eyes for some sign of what it was, but could find
nothing but sadness.
Because
I don't want to hurt you, she
thought to herself. But she knew that she must do it, or else it would just be
worse for them both later on.
She
turned to gaze into his eyes.
"I…I can't see you anymore,
Eriol," she started crying uncontrollably.
Eriol
sat there, receiving full impact of the blow. Couldn't see him anymore? He
tried to take a deep breath, but it came in as a gasp.
"Demo…why? Why?!" he
just couldn't grasp the fact that she was leaving him.
"Because…Because…" she
struggled to find the words, "I don't want to hurt you, Eriol."
"Hurt me? You could never
hurt me, as long as I have you. But, without you…" his voiced trailed off,
choked up w/ the tears that wouldn't come.
"I know you don't
understand now, Eriol, but I know that one day you will," she smiled through
her tears, in attempts to make him feel better. It failed. "Please, don't look
like that. I don't want to leave you like this. This is so…hard…"
She
couldn't go anymore, the pain in her heart was too intense. Her heart had
broken in two.
Tomoyo
rose to go.
"Sayonara, Eriol-kun. I
know we'll meet again, someday," she took a step towards the exit, but her
heart took control, and she turned to kneel before him. She wrapped her arms
around his neck, and kissed him. Kissed him with all the passion left from
their dying love. And Eriol returned the kiss, but w/ sadness in his heart,
knowing that this was the last time that he'd ever hold her like this. The last
time they'd ever be together.
Finally
they both had to break for air. Tomoyo gazed into his eyes with love and
sadness, a heart-breaking combination.
"Ashiteru…" she whispered.
Then, with one last peck on the cheek, she left.
Eriol
sat on the bench, and stared after her longingly, memorizing every feature,
every curve on her body. The way the full moon illuminated the highlights of
her hair. The way she walked, step by step, further and further away from him.
When she was gone from his view, he put his head in his hands and wept.
Broken.
~…and I know no matter where life
takes me to,
A part of me will always be with you…~