She was reeling, what had happened? One moment she was leaving him a voice mail saying that she loved him, and the next moment he said they were done. Had she missed her moment? Was he right, did they just have bad timing? 'Should I have just told him I loved him the other night in the van?' Where did things change?
She stared at her laptop, unsure of what to write. Her blog had always been an anonymous outlet for her to say what she was really thinking, but right now she didn't know what she was thinking. The cursor kept flashing waiting for something, anything, to come to mind. The problem was, the only thing coming to mind was the look on Jakes face as he drove away. He was angry, pissed, disgusted, but she didn't know why. So she sat there, staring at the picture on her phone of the two of them when they first got to the wedding, she is her giant red poof of a dress, and Jake, looking so handsome in his suit, the two of them, smiling, like there wasn't a care in the world.
It was a little after 11 when she heard a quiet knock on her bedroom window, she wasn't sure when, but at some point she had fallen asleep at her desk. Glancing at the screen, she still had nothin, but she hopped out of her chair hoping it was Jake at her door. When she pulled back the drapes she couldn't help but feel dissapointed, the tall, muscular brunette at her door was not who she was wanting to talk to right now.
"Hey can I come in?" She stood there, feeling tears welling up and stepped aside letting him in. "Whats going on Jenna? Jake called me and said he broke up with you?"
They both sat on her bed, Jenna could feel the tears coming on, "I have no idea Matty, he walked up to me, in the middle of the reception and said we were done."
"He'll come around Jenna, he would be an idiot not to." Who would have thought a month ago that the two of them would be sitting on her bed talking, let alone about her relationship with Jake. She couldn't say anything, she just sat there across from him, trying not to break down crying. She was a little taken back when she looked up and caught Matty staring at her, very attentively, like a man on a mission. She was even more surprised when he leaned forward and captured her lips in a soft kiss and pulled her close to him.
He wasn't sure where he had driven to, but he was in the middle of nowhere. Seat reclined, he just stared at all the stars in the sky tonight. Sadie, that bitch. He wasn't the kind of guy to speak badly of someone, but she deserved it. The things she said, about Jenna and Matty, it shook him to the core. How could she!? How could she not tell him? And Matty, he was supposed to be his best friend! Jake told him everything, gave him every chance to tell him about Jenna, but he never did. He looked at his phone and finally decided to listen to the voice mail from Jenna, to be honest with himself, he didn't really want to hear anything she had to say, they were done.
'And one more thing, I love you Jake Rosati.' His heart stopped and he sat up in his chair, he couldn't breath, or move. He felt paralyzed, that last sentence replaying over and over in his mind. All he could see was the look on her face when he drove off and left her in the parking lot. 'She loves me?' He rested his head on the steering wheel, 'God! What have I done?'
So he drove, still not knowing exactly where he was, he couldn't help but speed once he figured out how to get back to the reception. He had been a grade-a asshole to Jenna tonight, He told her that he didn't want to know who the guy was and that he loved her and she told him she didn't love the guy anymore and that she was totally invested in him. She loved him, not Matty. 'Damn it!' he shouted.
Once he got to the reception he looked everywhere for the girl he loved, he couldn't find her. "Tamara! Have you seen Jenna?!"
"She went home, you kind of broke her heart tonight." With that, the feeling of not being able to breathe had returned to him. So he got in his car and sped to her house, she had to be there, right?
When he pulled up to her house, his heart sank into his stomach, 'what the hell is Matty doing here?!' He sat in his car, debating weather or not to go to her door. If what Sadie had said was true, what did that make him? Taking a deep breath he walked along the path to Jennas bedroom door. He wanted to knock, he tried to, instead he just watched, and his heart dropped to the pit of his stomach, again.