NARUTO POV

How I ended up here, that's a very good question. I ask myself that every morning I wake up in a random place. At this point in life, I've figured out that I'm a sleepwalker. What else I do in my sleep, I don't really know. This is an average morning; the sun is shining bright through the window, blinding my eyes making me even grumpier. I've never been a morning person. The cold ceramics is making me even colder, 'wait what, ceramics?' rubbing my eyes feverently trying to open them, to find out where I am. As I finally managed, I was met with a suprise.

'how the fuck did I end up in the tub?'

My neck is killing me, not expecting less from the position I slept in thoug. Stepping out of the tub, I get satisfying cracks from my back. This bathroom really is steril white; I visibly cringed from the feeling of beeing in a hospital. The room is only half lit since only one bulb on each side of the mirror is on. I don't want to flip on the light in the roof, that would just be to bright, most likely burn my eyes. I shut the door, so no sunlight would creap in.

The two cerulen orbs that stare at me are so lifeless and dull. Raising an arm to rub sleep out of my eyes, I watch as the one in the mirror does the same. "You look like shit" the voice comes out rough and hoarse.

I'm actually really tan, but my skin looks awful from the lack of sleep, I've started to look more and more pale lately. I've gotten a really bad complexion now, and the bags under my eyes are a pain in the ass. I just look sick, that's the thing. Not only am I mentally disturbed, as my pshycologist say, but I look like shit. 'What a way to attract people' the sarcasm is put on thick, as I smile weekly to myself.

One of the first things I do in my morning routine is shower. I hate the thought of being filthy, or the thought of people thinking I smell bad. The hot water hits my back like needles, as I crank up the heat a notch.

One thing that not many know is that my skin smells like a hint of vanilla. Since my mom always insist on buying me these girly products, that says things like"makes you feel beautiful from head to toe!" or other kind of redicilous things. Not that I care, I hold my three feet away from people, it's like a rule. I can't handle people coming closer. It happend once, and that ended in a panickattack and the E.R since I hit my head really bad as I fainted on the asfalt. I guess I've always been a bit weird put togheter, my brain that means. But I guess my parents never wanted to belive that I was not totally 'healthy', I do think parents in general don't want to belive that about their kids.

The shampoo made a pool in my palm, with a weird squicking noise emitting from the bottle.

I guess I've got to ask mom to buy me more shampoo, huh.

The smell of vanilla filled the room and had a relaxing inpact, making my shoulders hang down not being so tensed. And another weird quirk about me, that not many know, without counting the ones that bullied me for it in my old school, is that I shave my pitts. There you have it world! I Naruto Uzumaki Namikaze, here by declare, that I shave my arm pitts. My brain is a weird place to be, I find it kind of entertaing sometimes.

I'm done shaving, and continue with rinsing my whole body from more sented soap.

Since I'm a very unupservent person, I didn't notice that the bathroom floor was soaking wet from my shower. How I manage these things, is another good question. I slipped, hitting my head hard against the showertub thing that I have. Lying on the floor I could see all these weird light patterns dance over my eyes, wow that hurt like a bitch. Tilting my head, I realize that I've got to learn how to pull the showercurtains completly shut. Sighing outloud I try to get to my feet, and with sucsess I lean against the sink for support. Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I frown. I still look like shit after the shower.

Opening the the drawer and fumbling with my hands, I find what I'm looking for, my contacts. I put them on, and blink hard adjusting my eyes. Ah, finally I can see clear.

I walked out of my room dressed in my favourtie skinny jeans. They once were black, but now they're dark grey-ish. It's all worn out and comfy, just how I like it. My hoodie is so big it almost covers my whole ass, and it's almost the same blue as my eyes, only one shade darker. It has a big brand name in the front that I've never heard of. But I like it, it looks cool. My headset hangs securly around my neck, having 'A day to remember' played loud enough for me to hear. I walked down the stairs, succeding in not to fall on my ass the second time this morning. The whole first floor was deserted. I looked down at my phone noticing the time; I guess this is what you get for being awake at 05:47.

The cold liquid filled my stomach and dribbled a little on my chin; I dried the milk of with the back of my hand, and put the carton back in the large fridge.

The sound of a carhorn could probably be heard through the whole block, it was that loud. I took it as my que to leave. I grabbed my bag, my keys and an apple for lunch.

Outside I was met by the sight of the coolest car ever. I think I started drooling, wiping my chin I felt a sticky fluid. Yep, I'm drooling. The car in my driveway was a Chevrolet Impala, the'68 model with a big red bowtie across the black hood; it was the car of my dreams. I ran to the car and was greeted with a smiling girl; Sakura is the only one I know here since her family is friends our family. I'm glad that I atleast know one person in this new town. It looked like her face was going to break in half when I practiclly jumped into the driver seat. She handed me a set of keys, and my heart jumped out of my chest. "Gratulations with a new car dude!" my mouth hang open as I got the keys in my hand. The only thing I managed to stutter was

"h-how? How can this be m-my c-car?" she had a smug smile as she said"your parents got you an early birthday present, so you could have it from your first day of school". Ohgod, I can't belive my dad actually listen when I was blabbering about how much I loved the car, and how much I wanted one. This is unbelivable. "I'm going to say thank you so many times, he's going to get deaf".

As I twisted the key in the ignition I almost creamed my pants. The sound was orgasmic.

The school was huge, not just big. But it was HUGE. How many people go to this school? It must be over a thousand. The building infront of me had three floors a footbal court in the back, or atleast I think it was.

"This is the school?" my voice came out trembeling, not confident as I was aiming for. I looked at Sakura seeing that she gave me a reassuring smile. "You're going to be fine! It's a bit big, but you get used to it. Most of the students here are really nice"

'to pretty girls like you mabye, not outcasts like me' I could feel my confidence sink to the ground. Noticing how nervous I was she clapsed me at the shoulder. "As I said, you're going to be fine! I'm here all the way, and I'm gonna give you a tour since we're early" she made it sound like every thing was easy, she should only had known.

The tour around the school was insane, it was just so big. She didn't even have enough time to show me everything before the bell rang. "This is the bell that signalizes that it's 15 minutes to class, and since we don't have the same class I'll be leaving now" it was like a flood of students, they all came at once. It must be atleast a hundred of them. My head had started getting heavy; I could feel the panic creaping up on me. "S-sakura, where is my class?" oh great, I had already started stuttering. She gave me a kind smile,"Do you remember where I told you the biologyclass is?" I was searching trough my brain as if I was going to die, but I remembered, and thank god for that. "Yes"

She waved a goodbye and said something about seeing me at third period. I started walking fast trough the huge crowd, why weren't the hallways bigger here? Everything else was. It was like the crowd never ended. My ears had started ringing and it felt like my head was filled with helium. In the state I was in I didn't pick up so quick on my surroundings, so before I new it I had bumped into someone and knocked both of us over. I didn't dare to look at the person as I grabbed my bag and hurried along. I put my headset on and put the volume at max, because I was afraid he would yell something after me. The music overtuned all of my thoughts that were spinning in my head, and made me calm down. The crowd was starting to dissapear as I got to the second floor. My breath regained to normal and I begged to god that I didn't look as terrified as I felt.

The problem didn't look too bad, apperently I had used so little time from the first floor so there weren't many students here yet, not that I saw they're faces. I looked straight at the wall as I found a seat in the back at the room.

The bell rang signalizing lunch, oh god how much I had looked forward to lunch. My first two classes had been hell. I had to introuduse myself in all three of them, and I had all the fucking attention at me. I didn't stutter and I'm so thankfull for that, I'm also thankfull I have third period with Sakura after lunch. I rushed through the people trying to avoid attention. Finding my locker Sakura had shown me earlier, I pushed the whole bag inside and closed it before it could fall out.

Now I only have to find a place without people, that shouldn't be to hard?

The outside of the school was pretty nice, for a highschool to be. And it was pretty empty to, apperently all the students eat inside in the cafeteria and thank you god for that. I must say I thank god alot for someone that isn't very Christian.

I sat down under a tree in the outside of the school, so no one would see me, or atleast I could hope.

It was actually kinda peacefull here, when all the other kids was inside. The sky was blue, but the sun was behind a cloud making some shade. I could feel it on my body that it was soon autum. There was a cool breeze that was making me shiver. I fumbled out the pack of cigaretts from my pocket and took two out, putting one behind the ear. I flicked the lucky stirke lit with my neon orange lighter; it was pretty cool if you ask me.

I inhaled deep, and felt the smoke go deep into my lungs. I exhaled, already feeling more relaxed.

When I started to think about it, I'm acctually really short. Compared to every other guy in the school I'm really small. I'm at the girls' height for god's sake. I was always told that the growing sprout hadn't hit me yet, but at an age of seventeen, I figured this is how it's going to be. Atleast people don't notice me that much, and I appreciate that.

I've learned to live with my 5'4, or I'm trying to atleast.

"Hey, dude!" I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up with the cigarette in the corner of my mouth. At first I thougt he was talking to someone else, but I started to dubt that now. Since I was the only one around and he was coming my way. Fuck, why does he have to be so god damn gorgeous? The guy that were coming my way had dark chocolate brown eyes, olivetoned skin, and his smile was bright and made him look quite hot. He seemed like a skater, with the dark blue worn out skinny jeans that were ript at the right knee. He wore a grey zip up hoodie, he had it open so I could se the the blood red vans t-shirt, also wearing a vans caps that was the same color as the shirt. He was completly smokin'.

He was now standing infront of me and hovering over me. He grinned and started to talk to me,"Yo, could you be sweet and borrow me your lighter?" he smiled innocently, flashing of his perfect pearls. My words got cought in my troat and nothing came out, I didn't understand shit at the moment. Why was this good looking guy here talking to me, asking for a lighter? I guess he was desperate for a light thoug. I pulled my bright orange lighter out of my pocket and gave it to him. The next thing he did was so unexpected. He sat down beside me under the big oak. He flicked the cigarette on and inhaled deep. He turned his head and looked at me with that breathtaking smile "Thanks dude" I took the lighter he reached out, and with an axident my fingers touched his palm.I suddenly felt really warm inside, and my cheeks were burning. Shit, I hope he doesn't see that I am blushing.

I glanced at him and it didn't look like he noticed it, since he was focused puffing smokerings. He looked so dreamy, I doubt that he is singel and definetly not gay. I bet the girls were swarming at his feet.

"So, I haven't seen you around before. Are you new or something?" I turned my head to look at him, not sure if he was seriously trying to make conversation. He was looking me dead in the eye grinning. My blush grew back, shifting my sight to the ground I managed to respond,"Yeah, I'm new here and all." it came out weak and almost a whisper.

When I managed to man up and look him in the eyes, I was met with an unsure look. It soon dissapeared and was replaced with a smile. "I guess that's cool" he inhaled deep of the cigarette and looked at the trees across the field. Wow, if this wasn't awkward then I didn't know. I fumbled with the cigarette behind my ear and put it to my lips. My hands were shaking and I coulnd't gett he fucking lighter lit. Fuck. I'm going to freak the guy out if I get a panickattack here, right beside him. And I think he tought I was wierd already.

I didn't notice the worried glance my way. What I did notice was a zippo ligthing my smoke, I took a deep breath and managed to stop the trembling hands.

It hit me. Why was he even still sitting here? He had finished the smoke and didn't know me. So why was he sitting here. Is he going to go soon and I'm just keeping him here by accident?

Before I managed to voice an apology outloud, he spoke. "Hey, why are you so shaky? Your hands were shaking pretty bad. Are you alright?" I looked at him in shock, not understanding this caring act. I plasterd on the best smile I had,"yeah, I'm f-fine. Just nervous, since it's the first day of school and all." he were looking at me with an expression that Sakura sometimes gave me, unsure what it meant I tried to smile brightly trying to convise him. "I guess that makes sense, it is a bit stressfull on this school. There are like 3000 students on the school" it felt like someone shot me in the head, my ears started ringing and I was starting to get really dizzy. "Are you okay?" when I opened my eyes I didn't notice was closed; I noticed he was really close. He was sitting infront of me on his knees, each arm on my shoulders. When he saw I was looking at him he had started stroking my shoulders in a soothing maner. It was easy to breathe, and my shoulders slumped down again. It was starting to scare me, this calming effect he had on me.

He sat back down beside me breathing hevy out. Shit, the one thing I wasn't going to do happend. I wasn't gonna freak people out today. For the love of God, get your shit together Naruto.

I was used to this by now, using myself as a puchingbag. It made me remember, I needed to act normal and to stopp scaring people. He snapped me out of my train of thougths again,"Ey, blondie. I didn't catch your name?" why does he want to know my name? Does he need to know so he can avoid me easier? You're overreacting, calm down. "Dude, are you thinking about answering me or do I have to guess?" his smile was so bright and kind, if I were standing I would had gotten weak to the knees. I tried to look at him and not blush, but failed terribly. "Oh, sorry. I'm Naruto, Naruto Uzumaki Namikaze, third year"

He had started smiling like a mad man"sweet! We're in the same grade and shit. I hope we have classes together" now I was starting to lose it. He was either crazy, or trying to get on my good side so he could kill me. Or he was a geniuly sweet guy. Would you look at that, this school may actually not be that bad.

The loud sound of the bell signalizing the end of lunch rang. I was actually alittle sad that 'this' had to end, he seemed nice and reeeally good looking. "Ah, fuck. Well see you later Naruto, it was really nice to meet you" I blushed, I may have gotten my first friend here. "It was nice to meet you too" my voice wasn't as shaky as I feared. "I hope to see you around then" and with that he left.

What a weird guy, he seemed nice but quite weird.

The classes were finally over, and I could atlast go home and do nothing, to then wake up to this hell hole of a school. The last three classes were awful; the seets in all the classrooms were divided into two. So I always had to sit right beside someone, someone I didn't even get the name of.

I cracked my neck as I walked down to the car, it gave me a couple of satisfying cracks and I breathed hevy out. I was just about to put my headset on and blast my brain out when something stopped me, at the parking lot stood that guy. The guy I had met earlier was standing talking to another guy, a weird guy that was to. His hair was pulled up in a short ponytail that spiked. He wore a plain white tee, had kakhi pants and quite the amount of bracelets and concerts wristbands decorating his wrists.

I didn't dare to stare at them anymore so I pulled the headset on and blasted 'sticks & bricks' by A day to remember at full volume. It tuned out all of my thoughts and made a bit of the anxiety go away.

As I reached the car, I almost started to drool again of the sight. I unlocked it and got in.

I traced the wooden details with my fingertips before turning the raido on and putt the bag and headset in the front seat. I started the engine and was granted with a sound from the heavens. Man I can learn to love this car.

The car trip home was long, I realized now when I was driving alone how far from the school I actually lived. It had already started pouring and it was litterally rainging kittens' ouside. The front route of the car was getting blurry, I sat the windshield wiper on so I wouldn't crash and kill innocent people.

It was still weird getting used live in a new house. Standing under the front door I fumbled in my pockets after the key. Started to belive I had lost it, but in the last glimt of hope I found it. Opening the door I was hit in the face with warmth. "My babyboy is home!" I was attacked with a strong hug before I could manage to escape. "Mom. Air. Please." She released me and patted me on the sholder. "How was your first day at school?" she was so entustiastic that it was almost dripping of her. "It was fine" I plastered the best smile I could on, and prayed to not raise suspision. "That's good, made any new friends?" when I thought about it, I actually did. Or I do think so. "Yeah actually"

A thought popped up into my head and I gave my mom a hug, I murmured into her shoulder "thank you so much, it was everything I could ask for"

I got off her and she smiled "You're welcome. So I take it as you liked the car?" my smile was sinciere as I gave her a kiss at the cheek "it's perfect" at this point she was giggling and patting my head. "Oh right, where is dad?" she tilted her head. "I almost forgot, he's in the kitchen. But don't bother him too much, he is working" the words stung, but I carried on to the kitchen with a smile.

The kitchen was as peacefull as ever, with my dad seated in the middle of the room at the kitchen table. I hugged him from behind and whispered"thank you so much, I love the car. I love you for remembering. Good luck with your work" before he could even turn around I was out of the kitchen and heading up to the second floor. When I got to my room the clothes were already flying, I threw the boxer in the hamper and headed for the shower.

I only took a quick shower to get the warmth in me, and it worked quite well too. Stepping out of the shower I was extra carefull not to trip on my ass again. Rubbing the mirror from the dew, I was met with the same old dull blue eyes. It was even starting to get hard to see those dull orbs; my bangs had started growing wild again. Thinking about it, it would explain why I had problems seeing from times to times. I guess that tomorrow I have to drop by a hairdresser.

When I got out of the bathroom that was connected with my room, I realized it was already dark outside. Shifting my glance towards the clock beside my bed, I saw that the green numbers said 09:06 AM. My cheeks puffed out, what am I supposed to do when it isn't time for bed yet? Walking across the room towards my closet, I opened the doors and took a pair of boxers and a really big black hoodie out. I pulled on the boxers and the hoodie, and then headed to bed. The twin-sized bed was a bit big for one person in my opinion, but I guess my parents were hoping for me to get a girlfriend to have on sleepovers or something. To bad they didn't know I was gay. And it didn't seem like they had picked it up either. I reached for the dark old orange book that was wedged in between the bed and the wall, opening it and finding a blank page. I took the pen that was attached to the side and began writing. Watching as the light orange ink flowed on the page capturing my thougths.

Wedensday 23/August/20XX

Today I started the new school, in the new town,

It was intimidating, and it scared me pretty bad.

My parents got me a new car, they actually got

Me a chevy Impala '68. If I died right now,

I would die as a happy man.

But the weirdest thing that happend today,

I still haven't realized or understand it.

I have met someone, maybye he's a friend?

I don't know. It was really odd. He was so kind,

and didn't get freaked out by me. The worst thing

was that he is seriously good looking, and smoking hot,

and I'm never going to dare speak to him again.

The only thing is, I didn't get his name. But I really

Want to know his name. I'm sure it's a really pretty name..

A/N: This is my first published story on here. And I'm an awkward turtle, so don't hate on me. I hope you review and tell me what you think, constructive critisism is welcome. I hope you guys like it, so tell me if you like of the story so far.

Thank you for reading!

~ kebab-chan