Prologue

"Come on!" He said un-patiently, "That's it I'm not waiting in line anymore," he said grabbing my hand and then pushing his way to the front of the line. Protests followed us but he ignored them.

"Why are we doing this right now? I have better things I have to do, I have to find a way to," I was saying when he cut me off (it was quiet rude of him too).

"Oh shut up and come one. I'm sick of you complaining," He muttered pulling me through the door and into the large room. I started to sulk because I need to start planning things, I needed to go home but Des wouldn't let me. I followed him through a set of door s that was mark employee's only.

"Des, where are we going?" I asked hoping he would not get us arrested, again.

"Hold on and I'll show you," He said and I sighed. (Why did he have to be so difficult, couldn't he just tell me where we were going?)

"I figured out what we have to do," He said as I rolled my eyes.

"You keep saying that but never once have I seen any evidence that you have," I said sounding annoyed.

"Just get on," He said and led me over to the machine that was in front of me. He led me over and sat me down on the seat.

The machine looked like your normal photo booth, you know the one's you find at the mall where you sit in and smile at the little camera. Yes, well this was nothing like that. You could see wires hanging out of spots where they weren't suppose to be.

"Are you sure this thing is safe?" I asked him and he nodded. He sat down next to me and pressed some of the buttons on the wall. The machine started to click and a buzzing sound was emitting from it.

"I would hold on…" He said to me and I looked at him.

"Des," I started, "What are you doing. DES!" I yelled as we started to spin. I could hear him laughing at me as we started spinning. Sure it was fun for him, he knew what was going on.

Chapter One

And that is how everything ended, or began I guess it depends on the way you look at it. I guess I should start from the beginning…I guess.

It started on my fourteenth birthday, the day I lost my innocence. Yeah I know what your thinking, 'OMG she lost her virginity'. Well that is exactly what DIDN'T happen. It's actually quite the opposite, I lost my world.

I was at school, a normal day…or so I though. (I absolutely hate it when authors write that, I think I'm a bit of a hypocrite) I was in science, I hate science. Not that you care or anything. The teacher was rambling off about chemical bonds and what not. The bell rang and I rushed out of the class room before the teacher could pull me aside and lecture me on how I was failing. To tell you the truth I didn't give a shit. On my way to my locker my best friend (used to be best friend now) ran up to me. I could tell that there was something wrong. She looked panicked so I asked her what was wrong and she burst out talking wicked (yes that's right I'm from Boston…you will eventually get over it) fast and I couldn't follow. I told her to calm down and she fell quiet. Then she told me what happened, she was crying and then…then I started to cry. I don't remember what I did next, it's still a blur, but I do know that I dropped my books and sprinted to my house.

When I got closer to my house there was a large group of people standing behind the yellow police tape. There was police men everywhere, looking as if they had seen a ghost. I was crying and screaming at them asking them what happened. No one would answer me, no one would even look at me. I tried to run into my house but one of the officers grabbed me and held me from going in. He kept trying to convince me that I did not want to go in there, that it wasn't a pretty sight. I said some pretty bad things to him, things he probably didn't deserve but not once did his grip on my arms loosen, (you have to give the guy Kudos for not letting go). I broke down onto the ground crying and screaming at everyone around me. I wanted to know what happened I wanted to know why everyone wouldn't look at me.

Chapter Two

I waited and I watched them carry out my family, my parents, my two year old sister and my 10 month old baby brother, on stretchers covered with white sheets. I wouldn't even be able to get one last look at them. My tears were coming silently now. It seemed like a dream to me, everything moving in slow motion as I watched my future change right before my eyes. I didn't want a new family, I didn't want to go to head quarters and answer questions. I wanted to run I wanted to stop feeling all of this pain. So I did run, I ran all the way to the dirt road that led to Cort Lake. I stared at the road for a minute and then decided to change my future once more, to finally be able to have a say in what I wanted my future to be.

I had come to the conclusion that I didn't want to live with out them. I couldn't take the pain and I sure as hell didn't want people to try and comfort me, I didn't want to be weak. I walked to the edge of the lake and started to walk in slowly. The water was up to my waist when I dove in and started to swim. I force my self to stay under the water even when my lungs burned for air.