There Will Always Be An Us

Summary: Set after Natalia runs from the wedding and they are in the gazebo as Frank walks away.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I do not make any profit from this.

A/N: I hated the way they ended this scene and Natalia just letting Olivia walk away. So, I fixed it. Some quotes are canon.

As they watched Frank walk away Natalia didn't know whether to hug Olivia or hit her. She turned to her, "Why did you say that about Gus? That's not going to help anything. I just needed a minute to figure out what I wanted to say."

Olivia sighed, "What I said about Gus I said because I knew that you would rather die than let people know your true feelings, between us is one thing, to own up to our feelings, but in the real world…"

Natalia steps forward, "You don't get to tell me how I feel."

"Whatever it is that you're feeling, I know that you're ashamed of it, it's the reason that we've been doing this dance for so long, and it's the reason we can't do anything about it."

Natalia took her hands. "I'm not ashamed of what I feel for you. I'm ashamed of what I have done running from you because I was scared. So what happens now, what happens with us."

Olivia looked up with tears in her eyes. "There is no us. You love me but you're going to hate me for it, and I can't live with that, I can't."

She turns to leave but Natalia calls out. "Wait, what do you mean there is no us?"

Olivia turned back. "There can't be Natalia, you can't handle this, and I can't expect you to."

She turned to leave again but Natalia grabbed her arm. "Damit Just stop for a minute and let me talk. You're not even giving me a choice here."

Olivia shook her head. "There is no choice here. You can't do this. What about the church and Rafe. You can't say something like this in a vacuum. You can't handle what would come next."

Natalia stepped forward. "You think you know me that you know better than me."

Olivia stepped forward as well. "I do know you."

Natalia looked at her with determination in her eyes. "Then why are you always selling me short?"

Olivia sighed, "I'm not but I saw you. I saw you with Frank and how upset you were about all of this. How am I supposed to let you love me if it makes you feel like an awful person?"

Natalia stepped into her personal space and cupped her face. "This is my fault. I told you I loved you then all I could talk about is how awful I feel about Frank, but that has nothing to do with you."

Olivia scoffed and moved away. "How can you say that? Of course it has to do with me."

Natalia shook her head. "No, it doesn't. I hurt Frank, all by myself. Yes, you told me to marry him but it was my choice to tell him yes. So I did this. I'm the one that kept running to him."

She walked back to Olivia and took her face again. "I feel bad that I hurt Frank, but I am devastated that I hurt you. I feel guilty because of the choices I made led to the person I love the most in the world besides Rafe and Emma and a person that has been nothing but a good friend to me are hurt. I did that."

Olivia had tears flowing now. "I didn't help the issue. I pushed you together, gave him pointers. I did this too."

Natalia just shook her head. "I knew the whole time that I did not have romantic feelings for Frank. I was scared. I was scared of everything. I was scared of my church, then I realized that god is love and he wouldn't have given me this all-consuming love for you if it was wrong. I was scared for Emma, then she survived when those kids wouldn't play with her and now she makes sure to play with all the kids that are different."

She took a breath to center herself. "I was scared of what people would think and say about us, then I realized that I don't care what people say about us as long as I have you with me. I was scared of telling Rafe, then he tells me today that all he wants is for me to be happy, and if he really loves me and means it, he will accept anyone that makes me happy. But more than anything else Olivia, I was scared of you."

Olivia gasped, "Me, why would you be scared of me. I would never hurt you."

Natalia just sighed turning away for a moment then turned back and looked her in the eyes. "I was scared of you because I didn't feel like I was worthy of you. I didn't think you could love me the same way I did you. I didn't think it was possible for you to want and spend the rest of your life with me. Then, you told me you loved me, that you were in love with me and I knew that I could have you if I was just brave enough to say it, out loud, to you."

She wiped her tears and took her face once more. "You say you wouldn't hurt me, but you're the one person that can hurt me the most."

She paused and Olivia shook her head holding on to her arms. "I would never intentionally hurt you Natalia."

Natalia sobbed. "You're hurting me now. You're hurting me by telling me you love me then not allowing me to love you back. You're hurting me by giving up before we ever really got started." Tears were streaming from her eyes as she looked deeply into Olivia's pleading with her to listen and accept what she was saying. "You're hurting me by saying there is no us."

Olivia sobbed. "I don't want to hurt you."

"Then stop!" she said shaking her slightly. "Stop hurting me and stop hurting yourself."

Natalia leaned in and pressed their foreheads together then asked her softly, "Do you love me Olivia?"

Olivia just sobbed again. "Yes!"

Natalia looked her deep in the eyes. "Forget about everything else and tell me. Do you want to be with me?"

"Yes." She said gripping her arms tighter.

Natalia smiled, "Then let me love you." She leaned in and lay her lips gently to Olivia's caressing her face while caressing the lips beneath her with her own.

Olivia sighed into the kiss and moved in a little closer deepening the kiss. Natalia ran her tongue along her lower lip and Olivia opened and granted access letting go of her arms and pulling her in by her waist to hold her close.

She sucked Natalia's tongue into her mouth when it entered causing Natalia to moan into the kiss, which just spurred her on.

Natalia shoved her hands into Olivia's hair knocking her hat off her head and devoured her mouth. Olivia reciprocated completely and they kissed until the need for air was no longer possible to deny.

They rested their foreheads together again, trying to catch their breath. Natalia leaned in and kissed her nose lightly. "There will always be an us."