Do you know what it's like to live in the shadows? Isolated from the rest. A mere whisper in the howl of the wind. A pebble in a landslide. A shadow in the dark. A raindrop in the middle of the storm. To be invisible to those around you. Walk through day to day life and not speak to a soul. Never get noticed in a crowd, even if you get knocked down. Do you know what's it like to hide in the shadows hoping not to get noticed, and sometimes getting forced into the light. Living in the moving shadow of those younger than you. Older than you. Smarter than you. The more skilled. The brave. The courageous. The invincible. The ones who put up a front. The ones who disappear into the light. The living. The dead. The memories. And the ghosts. To be put unnoticed in a corner, hoping to disappear.
To get singled out in a crowd and hoping you really were invisible. To be alone even in a crowded room. To feel alone even when you're with ones closest to you. To fear the spotlight. The attention. The noise. The roar of the crowd. To be the quiet one. The smart one. The shy. The unseen. The unnoticed. The forgotten. To be whom you are. Who you need to be. Who you must be. Who you are scared to be. Who you want to be. Who you don't want to be. Who is it you really are? Who are you meant to be? Who are you in a crowd? Are you what you want to be? Are you a shadow? Or surrounded in light? Are you one to question your existence? To ask if this is what you are meant to be. Where you are meant to be. Who you want to be. Or to be with.
If you question all these things. Your doubts. Your fears. Your hopes. Your dreams. Your expectations. Your life. Your place in the world. To question your very existence. Then you know what it's like to be me. My name is Alexander Lightwood. And I am a shadow. A ghost. A forgot memory. A stranger to those I have known for years. I am all of these things. And none of these things.
I have been in the dark for a while. That is until one day someone came crashing into my life. Bringing with them a bright light. And pulling me out of the shadows into the burning, sparkling, and dazzling light.
Tell me if you want me to continue or if this is any good.