Don't let it take over! I flop onto my bed and sob even more then I already am. Don't let it. I feel it happening, I feel myself falling farther into the hole that is my depression. I finally give up. There's no reason to fight against it anymore. The inner monster always wins anyways. I wake up with my head throbbing. The monster took over last night. I can feel it. When it takes over, I don't remember anything from when it was in control. I walk into the bathroom. "Shit.." I whisper. There's a bloody knife in the sink. Looking at my wrist, I see the new cuts. 3 of them. In the mirror I see a girl I don't know. My usual dark brown eyes look black. My hair that is usually blonde, looks like it's streaked with gray. This is not what I look like when I'm happy. I get ready and put on a sweater to hide the multiple scars on wrist. I walk downstairs and get into my car. I drive to work and put on my apron for my job at starbucks. "Hey, Ellie!" I hear from acrosss the store. "What Autumn?" I ask. She bullys me. She's the manager and always here while I'm working. She's part of the reason the montser takes over. "Do you need help with your apron? Or do you just need a new one because your so fat?" I ignore her and I take my spot behind the counter. I take a few orders and Autumn keeps bullying me. Finally I can't handel it. I walk into the bathroom and lock the door. I cry quietly and then clean myself up. I walk back out and thankfully she left. I still have tears in my eyes when I take the next persons order. "May I take your order?" I ask. "Are you okay?" I look up and see a boy about my age. He has brown eyes and brown hair. "Yeah, thanks for asking. Most people just order and keep going with their lives. Would you like to order?" "Well, I'm happy I made you feel at least a little better." He then orders. "Okay, coming right up!" I say with a smile. "I'm Mitch by the way." "I'm Ellie, pleasure to meet you."