A Dirty Little Secret

By GibbsGirl Nancy

AN/Disclaimer: I don't own any characters. All hail DPB!

Gibbs/Tony implied slash; one shot but possibly more; in response to a "60 second porn challenge".

Chapter One

"I'm just your dirty little secret, Jet. Something you don't want anyone else to know about," Tony spat out, disgusted with Gibbs' reaction. "I'm a toy to you, aren't I?"

"No, Tony. You're not a toy," he repeated his lover's accusation. "I just don't want to out us to the team.

"They won't care," Tony countered. "They love us," his voice cracked, trying to reason, "They won't care that we're together."

His lover of just a few months shifted on his feet, "Tony…the thing is…" he hesitated. "This could affect our careers. And yeah, I can retire…It's time for me. Hell, it's probably past time. But I won't let them destroy your career."

"I don't care," Tony whispered. "I don't care anymore. I just want us to be together."

"Tony…" he started. On the surface, his voice was calming but down deep, he was afraid. Afraid he'd never find the love with anyone else that they had together.

"Jet, I love you. I want to be with you. I don't care about anything else," he pleaded. "Don't…don't end this. Don't end us."

"I have to, Tony. Don't you see? I have to for your sake," he answered. "This is…" it was his turn for his voice to crack. "This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do."

"No…please, Jet," Tony sobbed. "Don't."

"I have to," he whispered, his eyes welling up with tears. "I have to, Tony," his voice stronger. He had to be a hard ass now. He had to be the strong one albeit the complete idiot for walking out of Tony's life.

"Tony…there's one thing I have to say and then…I have to go," he said, trying to be strong and knowing that when he walked out of that apartment, he'd fall apart on his own.

Tony swallowed hard, knowing what was coming. He didn't think he could take it. He was being rejected all over again. "Jet," he whispered. "Please…don't."

He put his hand up as if telling him to wait. "This is hard, Tony. This is so hard for me." He'd known two real loves his whole life, Shannon and Tony. The others didn't seem to matter. They didn't have what it took he reasoned. "But, this has to stop. We have to stop."

Tony hit his knees, sobbing. "No," he pleaded. "No, Jet."

"We'll see each other at work. And we'll be good at work but that's it. I can't keep doing this to you." He watched his lover fall apart in front of him. "You're strong, Tony. You're a great agent. You don't need me, Tony. You don't," he tried to reason with him through the tears. "You've never…you've never been my dirty little secret. I love you," he said, running his fingers through Tony's hair. "And I'll never forget how you made me feel. Thank you."

AN: I love feedback but be gentle. This started as a a one-shot but am thinking about writing more. Y'all let me know if you're interested.