Summary: an alternate ending to revolutions. What if Trinity survived but she was sure Neo didn't...

A/N okay this is my first fanfic so be gentle with the reviews. No flames please! I'd like to thank Zoe and Heva for checking and changing this.

Chapter one – a million thoughts and memories

I remember when I was first unplugged. I remember how sad I was, sad that I would never see my family again. They were the only people that I loved and trusted; I virtually closed myself off from everyone after I lost them -everyone except Morpheus and Switch. I remember pouring out memories of my losses to Switch one night. All she said was.

"At least you had a family."

Poor Switch, she was an orphan, she never knew family or love until she found Apoc. I thought of everyone I had loved and lost. My own family, Switch, Apoc, Tank, Dozer and, now, Neo. When I woke up in the infirmary I remember the first word I said to Morpheus:

"Neo?"

His reply would haunt me forever:

"We can't find him."

I remember screaming and crying out in anguish when I heard the words...

"He didn't make it."

I've only just stopped crying. I don't want to believe it. I refuse to believe it. I remember that night in the club when I first met him. I remember bringing him his dinner one night and how innocent he looked. I remember telling him how much I loved him. I remember every time we fought a
fight together. I remember asking him what he wanted in life:

"I want the war to end and us to always be together" he had replied.

I remember how happy that simple statement made me feel. I remember his dreams and the look in his eyes as he told me that he wanted to tell me about them but couldn't. I remember the night in Zion. I remember telling him that I had to go with him. I remember being scared whist he fought Bane.
Everything had faded into nothing but memory.

Then, I remembered a movie that I once saw in the matrix: 'The Mask of Zoro' and I thought of a line from the film:

" We lose the ones we love, we cannot change it."

That just about summed up my life... but maybe I could change it; I brought him back once, what was stopping me from doing it again? I couldn't face life without him. I remember every moment spent with him down to the smallest detail- a million thoughts and memories, all connected to him.

 

A/N short chapter I know but the next ones will be longer. Reviews would be appreciated!!!