Ok, here is my first Digimon fic. It's a Taito. OMG! I started this fic so differently!

"Yamato, Yamato, Yamato..." I murmur into my pillow. Maybe, if I just keep hoping, if I just keep dreaming, it'll come true.

"Taichi," a ghostly voice whispers, I want it to be real so badly. I want to hear his voice, just one last time. Please... just let me hear his voice... one last time... forever...

"Taichi, you can't keep being so bummed. I'm asking mom and dad to make you seek counseling."

"Listen Hikari, I'm not depressed, I'm just..."

"Depressed. Taichi, he's gone. He's not coming back..." I sigh. Yeah. He left me, I don't know why, he left... he was so young! Just... 14... my Yama, my beautiful talented Yama... I miss him. It hurts so much... that day... The note…

Dear Loved Ones,

I can no longer bear to live in a world like this

I'm sorry to all of those who will miss me.

Enclosed is my will, please follow all specific examples

Just try forgetting I was here.

Because I realize

That love has left me

And my reason for living

Has vanished

Fare well

Love Yamato

/flashback/

Something about today didn't feel right, I just, don't know... I headed into my shower... When I got out, only a pair of boxers on. My hair wet and hanging onto my head, my towel around my neck, something was different. Something had changed. The world had gone off its hinges, I could tell. Fear struck me. Something was wrong! I don't know what it is, but I'm shivering. I run into the kitchen to get out a bag of chips to calm my nerves. I tried phoning Yama... but I kept getting a busy message. I need to rest. I need to sleep...

When I wake up, its dark outside. My room is dark and shadows are playing on the wall. I rush out of the room. My parents and Kari are there. My parent's faces are pale. Kari has been crying. She looks at me and cries again. I can tell.

"Yamato..." No. I run out the house, not even bothering about being basically naked. I rush down the stairs to their apartment. I take the spare key out from under the mat and open the door. The lights are all off except for a candle on the table. Mr. Ishida is there and... Mrs. Ishida with TK... they're grieving. Mr. Ishida looks at me and starts crying. No, please no. On the table is a picture of him. Of my Yama. Mrs. Ishida comes over to me.

"Taichi... Yamato..." tears streak down her face. She handed me the note, sealed with blood. That's the last thing I remember seeing before the world disappears.

/end flashback/

Kari gives me a hug and I hug her back. Two months without him... its hell. I don't want it anymore. Do you want to know what the worst part is? They never even found Yamato's body. I don't know why he committed suicide. Who rejected him? I don't know. I will never know. But, I wish, he could've come to me, with all of his problems. I wish he could've come to me, for me to comfort, for me to love. He apparently jumped off the ravine wall into the rushing rapids of the town. They couldn't find his body. At his funeral just a picture of him was buried. A picture they say is worth a thousand words. Yamato was worth a million. I don't even care what tomorrow brings anymore, I don't want to care. I can't care. Not anymore. I just can't. Nights crying, days moping. My grades dropped (and they weren't exactly perfect before.) I can't tell you how many soccer games I fouled up (coach made me leave the team for a month to get my head back into the game) He was gone, and so was my will. Being is love is never easy i think is how the song goes. You can't be more right, especially when the one you love can never love you back. He won't even get the chance.

2 Years Later

Playing soccer at the park. Yeah, I've gotten it back again. My life has more or less returned back to me. After two years... my heart is still broken. I think, it always will be. But, I think, that the splinters, the stones, the sticks that had split when it cracked, are cleaned up though. I would love to see him again though. Love to just feel his presence. I wish I could hear him sing again. He had such a beautiful voice. I remember, whenever I aws scared, he would sing. He knew how to get me up... I feel a smack hit my head.

"OUCH! What the hell Sora?"

"Sorry Taichi, but we're in the middle of a game. You can get off the field, or you can go back into deep thoughts about Yamato again." She can read my mind and sometimes it freaks me out.

"Right, sorry, I'll start paying attention."

"Better, Atsushi is up 2 points! We can't afford to lose Taichi!"

"What happened to a friendly match between equals?" Sora give me her sweet half smile that means something deadly is lurking within.

"Has that type of match ever happened before?" she asks and she starts jogging up field to the kick off. I shrug and focus on the game. The ball is tapped to Daisuke who starts running with it, I too now and running up field, closer to the goal. He spots me. Suddenly the ball is gone. What the hell?

"Heads up Taichi!" I look towards the sky to see a black and white ball dropping out of the sky, I catch it with my knee and raise it to my chest, then down to my foot. Focus on the goal... wind, kick... put your power into the ball. Watch it soar. Hear the swish of hitting the open net. Goal. I smile... the facade that's been playing on my face for the past two years. Its the best I could do. Sora comes over to me and gives me a high five. I smile. The goalie, our friend Akira, picks up the ball and throws it, but it goes past the other goal and down the street from the vacant little lot we're playing in.

"My bad!" I shew a hand at him.

"No sweat, I'll get it!" I jog down after the ball, I can't find it. Someone taps me on the shoulder.

"Umm excuse me, is this your ball?" a voice asks.

"Why yes thanks I-" I say as turning around but I stop. Those eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes. I dream those eyes every night. Perfect smooth creamy skin runs down his face, golden hair lingering. I know that face. It- it can't... no...

"Yamato?"

Well? How was that? I know its not the best, and I couldn't figure out an exact reason why Yamato should commit suicide but I think I have one now. Yup yup yup! Well… I hope you like it!