Lena laid naked under her sheets, smiling from ear to ear. She couldn't believe that someone like her could ever be wanted by someone like Kara Danvers. She watched as the woman slept, after a long night of heated sex and multiple orgasms.
It had started once Mon-El left. Kara had been devastated that she couldn't find another solution, and Lena had decided that she would do whatever she could to ease Kara's pain. It had started out as innocent cuddles, then tender forehead kisses, that slowly trailed down to cheeks, then jawlines, and then lips.
One kiss turned into two, two kisses turned into a make-out session, and then that make-out session turned into Kara fucking Lena's brains out… It was something that Lena had been craving for from the very beginning of their friendship, but it was still not everything she'd been dreaming of.
Don't get her wrong, the sex was the absolute best she'd ever had, but the issue was that Kara wasn't her girlfriend; no… Kara was still pining after the man-child in space, and Lena was still just her best friend… Best friend with benefits.
It saddened Lena, to know that Kara wasn't hers. To know that for some unknown reason, that piece of shit Daxamite had Kara's affections. That even after six months of 'friendly' sex, Kara still didn't see Lena as a romantic option; just a friend that she loved dearly, and occasionally (almost four times a week) had sex with. But, Lena had been the one to offer the idea to Kara, so she had no one to blame but herself.
Kara had vehemently tried to turn the CEO down at first. By telling her that she didn't want to risk ruining the friendship. At the time, Lena had thought eventually they'd turn into more, so she had dissuaded Kara's fears by telling her that she knew what this was when they started, but now she wasn't so sure that her hopes would come true.
Six months of melding their bodies together. Six months of spending nights together after going at each other like they were never going to do this again. Six months of waking up, getting around together, and then acting as if the prior night had never transpired.
Six months of being 'BFFWEB' or, as Kara called them occasionally – 'Best Friends Forever With Extra Benefits.'
It was both blissful, and painful all in one. She loved Kara more than anything else on the planet, would blow the entire world up if it meant that Kara would live just one day longer, and yet, the only parts of Kara that she got were the ones the public couldn't see. It was a bittersweet pain that would never evaporate, and yet she couldn't hold it against the Kryptonian; Kara had made sure that Lena knew she didn't want to mess up their friendship, and Lena had agreed.
She continued to watch her lover, and friend for a while longer before the blonde's eyes opened and a smile crept upon her face.
"Morning Sunshine." Lena singsonged.
Kara laughed as she began to sit up. "Morning, Lee." She said as she stretched her muscles awake. "What time is it?"
"Eleven thirty-nine."
Kara's eyes bulged. "You let me sleep that long!?" She asked incredulously.
Lena chuckled at Kara's adorable shocked expression. "It's Saturday, Darling. No work for either of us."
Kara visibly relaxed, sinking all the way back down into her pillows. "Tonight is sister's night, and I'm not looking forward to it. Alex has been so nosy lately."
Lena quirked an eyebrow at that; Kara always looked forward to spending time with Alex. "Oh? What is she doing?"
Kara sighed. "She keeps wanting to know when I'm going to get over it. Or where I'm sleeping over all the time. She says I'm a terrible liar, but if that were true, then she would already know."
"That is true, but you do realize she's going to find out sooner or later, right?" Lena asked, trying to gauge Kara's reaction, but when Kara's face contorted into one of mortification, her heart broke a little.
"I hope not!" Kara said, destroying every little piece of hope Lena had left for a future between them. "That would be a nightmare, do you realize how badly she'd make fun of us?"
Lena feigned nonchalance, all the while her heart was aching for Kara to realize that Alex had no right to judge when she was doing the same thing with Lucy, but she wasn't going to let Kara in on that little secret. "Well, if she can't support her sister having a healthy sex life, then she really should mature." She stated.
Kara playfully rolled her eyes. "Alex is my sister; I don't think she even wants to know about my sex life. She's just worried and wants me to be happy, and if she found out about this, she would tease me as payback for keeping it from her."
Lena nodded, pretending to understand the healthy version of a sibling relationship. She watched as Kara stood up from the bed, using the sheet to cover her supple breasts like she always did the morning after they had sex... as if Lena hadn't just had the opportunity to lick, suck, and squeeze them for hours the night before.
She pretended that the pain wasn't there and looked away respectfully as Kara dressed herself. "I'm going to stop at Noonan's for some breakfast. You wanna come with?" Kara asked chirpily.
Lena smiled sadly at her best friend; her heart was falling when she realized that once again, Kara wasn't going to stay any longer than she had to. She shook her head; she needed a few hours apart from Kara so that she could fall back into the role of 'Best Friend' in the public eye. "No, I think I'm going to do some work from home for a little bit. Now that Jess is on maternity leave it tends to get a little hectic."
Kara rolled her eyes. "Leeeeenaaa" She drawled. "You just said that you didn't have work today!"
That was when I thought you might stay with me for the day. "Yes, but I just remembered I had to do a few things. Jess is an enormously vital member of my faculty. She was the glue that held us together."
It wasn't all a lie; Jess was an essential member of her team, but she had been successfully managing with the help of her entire corporation.
Kara sighed and gave a curt conceding nod. "Alright, but if you change your mind, you'll have until about two."
"Alright, Kara. Thank you." She offered the Kryptonian an appreciative smile, and Kara nodded.
"Anytime, Lee. It's what friends are for!" She exclaimed before heading for the window that led towards the balcony. "See you tomorrow night?" She asked.
Every bone in Lena's body told her that this wasn't a good idea. That there was no way on Earth she could survive continuing this arrangement and not getting to have all of Kara, but her heart told her to keep going along with it; that as long as she was the one Kara was in bed with, it kept the competition away… That as long as she had some of Kara, she would be able to in some way pretend that she could be happy. "Of course, I'll be the one naked beneath you." She said with a wink.
Kara blushed. "I guess that means I'm the one naked above you?" She squeaked out.
Lena couldn't contain her mirthful laugh at Kara's adorable awkwardness. "You have been for the past six months… I don't think it will change."
Kara's blush still resided on her face, but her Supergirl confidence kicked up. "It never will." She said with a smirk before she leaped into the air.
Lena smiled, and couldn't help but hope to any all-powerful being that might exist that Kara's words meant more than what she said…
XXX
Two hours later, Lena was sitting on her couch, trying desperately to find a decent show on TV. She settled for some bland documentary about how play dough was made when her phone rang. She looked down to see that it was her favorite person in the world and smiled widely.
"Kara!" She answered.
"Lena! Hey, I'm glad you answered!"
Lena let out a bemused laugh. "When have you known me to ignore your calls, Kara?"
She heard Kara let out a strange noise. "Never." She admitted over the phone.
The CEO was starting to become a bit more aware that this wasn't a social call by the tone of Kara's voice. "Kara, Darling… Is everything okay? Is something wrong?"
"Oh, um… N-not really. See, I um… Winn came over to borrow my Settlers of Catan game, and he showed me one of his doohickeys, and I accidentally broke it and now he's mad because it was apparently really expensive, and I feel like garbage. I don't know what it was or what it did, and even though I was the youngest member of the science guild, I still don't know what a Millennium Falcon is… or what it's supposed to look like, and I know that you enjoy the star movies... So, um… would you mind helping him fix it?"
Lena didn't even try to hold back her mirth at Kara's rant. It was just too endearing to pretend she found it anything but. "Was it a collectible?"
"I don't know; he always gets super intense over his Star Trek toys."
"Star Wars, dear." Lena corrected.
"Right… Same difference." Kara retorted petulantly. "I don't know anything about those movies. No one else besides you that I know does, really... So, since you're the only one that I know of, do you think that you can help him put it back together?"
Lena shook her head in amusement, knowing that Kara felt abhorrently guilty for something so simple. The CEO had decided then and there that she would do anything to help the Hero out, so she agreed to do just that.
"Oh, thank you so much, Lee! You're a god send. This is why I love you!" Kara said before disconnecting the call.
Lena froze.
Did…
Did Kara just say that she loved her?
XXX
Lena had made a few calls and had managed to get a replica of the Millennium Falcon signed by none other than Harrison Ford himself. It was worth over $16,000 so the brunette hoped it would make up for whatever Kara had broken. She knew Kara wouldn't be thrilled to hear that Lena spent so much money on an item that to Kara had no meaning, but she couldn't help herself…. Money really wasn't much of an issue for her.
When she knocked on Kara's door, Alex opened it with a questioning expression. "If you're here to comfort Winn in his time of mourning he just left." She said with a roll of her eyes. "He's going to the bar."
It was hard to restrain her laughter, but she gave Alex a soft smile and turned to leave. "I will try to catch him." She said, fighting with her lips to keep from laughing.
It seemed as if Alex had the same struggle, and within moments the two were both laughing relentlessly.
"I really don't understand men." Alex chortled. "Probably why I don't like them."
Lena let out a loud guffaw. "You and I both… Although women aren't much easier."
Alex gave her a knowing smile. "I'm sure it gets easier… Especially once you tell them how you feel."
Lena let that last comment roll off her back and she gave her a slight nod before leaving.
XXX
When Lena walked into the dive bar that Kara's friends unfortunately frequented, she immediately noticed a pensive looking Winn sitting in a corner booth focused on trying to glue a (very rare) collectible Millennium Falcon model replica back together. She chuckled and gripped her box just a little bit harder; hopeful that her gift would mend the (ridiculous) 'rift' between he and Kara and ease the Kryptonians (irrational) guilt. She could tell that the collectible was quite costly, and Winn was reasonably upset that it was broken... but irrationally upset at Kara over it.
She made her way to the booth and scooted in across from her 'Science Bro'.
"Kara, I told you I'm not speaking to you right now." He said without looking up.
"Well, that's unfortunate because anyone would be lucky to stand within ten miles of our lovely Kryptonian, let alone speak with her." Lena asserted.
Winn's eyes lifted to meet Lena's and he sat back and shook his head. "Why don't you just tell her that you love her already?" He asked in a curious manner, no accusation in his tone; but to Lena, it still felt as if the world was swirling. She thought she'd hidden her love for Kara well.
"I-," She paused. "She's my best friend; she knows that I love her. You can't be best friends if there is no love between you."
Win sighed. "I was in your shoes once, and it sucks, trust me. I know how it feels."
Lena frowned… "Y-you do?" She asked.
Winn nodded. "Yes. I even kissed her when I admitted that I was in love with her too! It, um… Well, it didn't go very well for me, but that was mainly because I couldn't handle rejection and I forced a kiss on her without. But I'm sure that you have thicker skin than I do and wouldn't force yourself on her like I did."
Lena pinned the man with an unimpressed expression; she was almost considering returning the gift. "What do you mean by that?" She asked.
The Tech-savvy man gulped. "N-not that your skin isn't perfect, or-or that she will definitely turn you down... I-… I-…I um... I have to go. I think I left my oven on at home." He rambled as he tried to stand, but Lena was quicker than him and managed to pull him back into the booth.
She laughed at his awkwardness "Winn, I'm not angry… but I don't think you realize what you're telling me to do. For starters you were a man; Kara is straight. It was a lot easier for her to accept that you were in love with her. To top it all off, you weren't a Luthor… I am."
Winn rolled his eyes. "First of all, she only told me that she wasn't gay… she never said anything about not liking women though. So, you can't be so sure about that. Secondly, I'm not a Luthor, but I still am the son of the Toyman, so that wasn't so good either. It doesn't matter though, Lena, because Kara loves you… If not romantically, then at least as her best friend, and she deserves to know. If she can get passed my confession and horrible awkward kiss, then she will be able to accept your feelings and get passed them whether she reciprocates them or not… You will never know if you never try. Frankly, I think you two would be an adorable couple."
Lena contemplated everything Winn had just unfolded. It was true that Winn was the one that saw them together the most. It was also true that Winna had fucked up far worse than Lena ever would, and it was also true that Kara had a heart of gold and would try her hardest to put Lena's feelings behind them if she didn't feel the same way… Perhaps she could take the plunge… Even if it meant having her heart destroyed… Kara was worth the risk.
She looked at Winn and gave him an appreciative smile before scooting the box that held his $16,000 gift inside. "This is to replace the one that Kara broke… Forgive her, okay? She feels terrible enough without you acting like a toddler who just dropped his ice cream cone."
At least he didn't seem repulsed by the idea of a Luthor and a Super being together. She thought as she walked away, feeling a ping of confidence overflow her.
XXX
Forty-five minutes later she got a triple text from Kara.
Kara: OMG You made Winn's day!
Kara: Idk Who Harold Ford is but THANK YOU, Lena.
Kara: SIXTEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS!?
The CEO just smiled fondly.
God did she love that woman.
XXX
Kara was on top of her, their naked bodies melded together, and lips crashing together heatedly like every time after they had a night filled with sex.
Eventually, Kara rolled off of her, both of them breathing heavily. "You never stop being amazing at that," Kara confessed.
Lena smiled, loving that she could make the Woman of Steel breathless with her touch. "I'm happy to be of service."
Kara laughed, but then her face turned serious. "You're going to make someone really happy someday." She said.
I'll never be able to love someone like I love you, Kara. "I don't think I will." She said honestly. "Because…" She stopped and sighed irritated at herself for chickening out once more, all of her confidence that Winn had bestowed upon her the previous day completely depleted. "Because I'm much too focused on my career than finding a relationship."
Kara looked away and nodded. "I get that. With my Supergirl schedule, it'd be hard to maintain a relationship as well."
Lena smiled through the pain. "Yes, but at least we have our BFFWEB pact, right?" She asked with a strained voice.
Kara smiled. "Right!"
Lena did her best (that still wasn't enough) to ignore her heart ache and scooted over to Kara, resting her head on the firm Kryptonian chest... Maybe this could be enough... Until Kara found someone worth her heart and this entire arrangement would come crashing down.
She forced back her fears and tried as hard as she could to focus on the present...
Kara was there, in her bed, holding her... That was all that mattered right then.
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