People often say that trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt, and being real gets you hated. i find it amazing how these small words are the very reason why i am the way i am. I am one of those people who put barriers between themselves and others. The ones who hide what they truly feel about things behind fake smiles and laughter. The only thing with me is that i don't smile or laugh. I don't really feel anything anymore. All that is left of me is a blank expression and unspoken words sealed behind binded lips. I use my phone to communicate with people. Another thing is that i don't hide. I do it to protect those who are close to me, for if they are to close they will get hurt. I know this from experience. So many were hurt because of my presence. Let's just say I have serious trust issues.

"Uhhhh! Luce! Are you listening to me at all?"

I brake away from my thoughts and look up from the table that i have been staring at and look at the strawberry blonde in front of me who has a worried expression on her face. Everyone's conversations in the small cafe filling my ears like a symphony.

"Luce you have been dozing off a lot. Are you okay?" I nod my head in response.

She stares at me with the same concerned face and I stare back with unblinking eyes. Her eyes start to water and she shakes her head to hind her blinking.

"I hate it when you do that to me." She stops shaking her head and continues to blink her now irritated eyes.

This here is Chiyuki Haruno . My guardian. She has been taking care of me since i was 17. I am now 19 years old. (Continue reading and you will find out why she needs a guardian)

"Luce." She pauses to sigh. Her gaze is locked on my arm. I look down and see the cut that i had gotten from earlier. She reaches out and grabs my arm and pulls back my sleeve from my navy blue jacket . I let her inspect my freshly ripped skin on my arm.

"What happened this time?" She looks at me with a saddened expression.

I take out my phone and type in ' On the way here i had been walking along side a wire fence and i had let my arm glide along the wire. Well one of the wires was loose and it had cut my arm.'

She believes me when I tell her this because she knows I wont lie to her. And I don't.

"I don't like it when you do that Luce." She says with a sigh.

'Do what?'

"Never mind." It is silent for a few moments and she opens her mouth to say something only to be interrupted by her phone ringing.

She sighs and answers it.

"Chiyuki Haruno speaking." She pauses to listen. I watch as her expression turns grim.

"Okay I'll be right there." She closes her phone and looks at me.

"I'm sorry Luce I have to go to the office to fix things over there, we will have to arrange our little outing with each other for another time." She looks at me sadly.

To avoid her gaze I look down at my untouched tea.

"Today's the anniversary of what happened isn't it?" I don't back at her to respond.

"I'm sorry to leave you at a time like this Luce but i have to go." She stands up and gathers her things and walks over to my side of where I'm sitting.

"Please don't do anything to harm yourself." I nod and she pats my head and then pays for the tea and heads out of the cafe.

And I am left alone.

As i walk home it starts to rain. I hardly ever get to see rain being that I never go outside unless I have to meet Chiyuki at the cafe we always meet at, which would explain my pale complexion. On the contrary I wouldn't want to go outside to the city of Ikebukuro. It has a very uneasy feeling to it and it sets me on edge. Plus, the farther away I stay from people the better.

My feet make sloshing noises with every step I take. All around me there are people scurrying to get home or to find shelter from the the rain comes pouring harder I stay in the rain. The cold droplets feel good on my skin. I close my eyes and walk in the rain. My black hair covers my face like wet curtains.

The anniversary is today. The day of when i shattered into nothing.

I stop from my thoughts when i notice there is less rain droplets from pounding on my skin. I open my eyes and look up to see a Sakura tree sheltering me from the rain.

It's early spring so they have just started to blossom. What a pretty color. I reach up to pluck off a small branch from the tree.

"Oi! Girl with the blue jacket. What are you doing in the rain like this?" I freeze from where I'm standing. I don't turn my head to look at the stranger who from his voice sounded like a man had called out to me.

I hear footsteps getting closer to me.

"Hey, I'm talking to you." he taps my shoulder.

I turn my head to face the stranger only to be met with hazel eyes. He was closer than I thought, but i don't move an inch from where I'm standing. I stare at him through my hair with my blank expression on my face.

We stare at each other for a while but he brakes our gaze when he starts to burst out laughing and backs away.

I watch him without moving from the spot. He stops laughing and grins at me.

"It's kind of hard to have a stare down when you can't even stare your opponent in the eyes." I cast my gaze to the ground then look back up at him to see that he he has gotten even closer to me than before. I stand still as I feel his fingers as they sweep my fringe from my face.

"My my, my little human, what pretty blue eyes you have. their almost like sapphires." His smile brightens.

"Yes very pretty human indeed. You might be even prettier if you'd smile." My expression doesn't falter.

"Pretty yet stubborn. I might even consider dating you if I had a little more information about you." I notice his eyes had a shine to them when he had said information.

"For starters what is your name?" My lips are sealed shut. I don't know weather I should tell him my name or not.

He steps back and turns away from me and twirls around face me again."My name is Izaya Orihara, pleased to meet you my little human." What's up with him and calling me his 'little human'?

I have this weird feeling that I can trust him enough to tell him my name. my hand reaches for my phone. I stop when a hear a loud crunching sound coming from behind Izaya. It sounded like metal being ripped apart.

I look over my shoulder to see a man inn a bartenders suit running towards us with a stop sign in his hands.

"IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAA!"

"You pissy flea! This time I wont let you get away this time!"

"That's not a nice thing to say Shizu-Chan." He says confidently.

With a growl the man throws the sign towards Izaya.

He's about to get hit and he wont even move. Well it's the anniversary today, it's seems that i deserve what I'm about to do. I'm sorry for breaking my promise Chiyuki.

I push Izaya out of the way just in time for it to hit me.

I feel myself fall to the cold wet ground with a thud. Everything's out of focus and blurry. I feel a sticky substance trickle down my cheek.

"Ah shit."

"Look what the monster did to my poor human."

"Shut up you pissy flea! I'll call Shinra."

"Well I'm done here. See ya Shizu-Chan!"

"Come back here you."

Izaya's laughter rings out and that't the last thing I hear before everything goes black.