Abyss: I got permission from Dior Crystal to write a one-shot on her fanfic, Lessons in Love. This is my interpretation of the scene when Ulquiorra chose whether to stay or leave. Just a short one-shot!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! Not even the idea!
Title: Stand in the Rain
Rating: T
Genre: Romance/Drama/Angst
She never slows down
She doesn't know why
But she knows
That when she's
All alone
Feels like it's all
Coming down
Ulquiorra never considered himself to be weak but after the last activity with Grimmjow Jeagerjaques, he wasn't sure.
Maybe I should leave.
Ulquiorra felt the pain return, the pain he could not take. He felt the same way as a child whose father abandoned his own child (he should know)—alone. Schiffer could not another abandonment, not after his own father left him alone.
His pale hands clenched and unclenched, as if trying to grip something that was not there.
I will not be able to take anything if I stay!
But what about Szayel…and Grimmjow? Another voice seemed to say.
Szayel will understand and what about Grimmjow?! Someone else answered.
She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight
With herself
And the fears
Whispering
If she stands
She'll fall down
As much as possible, Ulquiorra wanted to disappear, to be stress-free!
But life isn't fair, is it?
Grimmjow may come back.
Ulquiorra was giving himself a migraine with the annoying argument he was having with himself.
And tell me he's going to Kurosaki. If you want to be optimistic"—which I call stupid—go ahead!
Ulquiorra wanted to side with his "optimistic" side, but his "pessimistic" side had a great point; it was like they were two different people arguing, and he was an observer.
Grimmjow may love me.
But I can't guarantee it!
See what he meant by annoying?
Grimmjow will come back! I know it!
But he will probably reject me!
Ulquiorra tried to stop his inner voices, but they persisted.
I can't leave! I must stay if not for Grimmjow, for Szayel!
Why do I need to stay for him?
Ulquiorra was confused by that thought.
Szayel is important! He is my best friend, in case you have forgotten! I have to stay!
Szayel would understand my situation. I will leave.
Schiffer's "optimistic" side had no argument, so he called, hoping to leave here to stay with them.
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day
What's lost can be found
You stand in the rain
Abyss: This is a song fic! Please review!