There is only one happiness in lifeāto love and be loved. - George Sands
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WIthout warning, Vincent was gone, and another hole sliced through her heart. The heart is a muscle and nothing less. It can't feel, it can't break - it's an organ! All it can do is keep blood flowing throughout your body. It may be crushed, but it can't break. Nothing can make it stop working, but a bullet might as well do just about that.
Holes can be filled, but never by confront alone.
Love is generated by chemicals going to the brain, causing it to react through attraction; love doesn't exist only attraction. Love can create a bond between two people and make them become one at a given moment. But is seeing it that way going to do one any good?
The clock struck four forty am, as she made her way toward his room. She knew that her new found strength would make her feel complete. She needed him, more than ever and now was her chance to reclaim a part of her that was dead to her for years. For so long the nagging feeling of loneliness lay restless against her heart, and now, she would never feel that way again.
A woman with a world of walls surrounding her had been set free the moment she stepped foot into his room. She was determined to live in daylight, rather than living in the dusks of eternity. With her heart pounding loudly, her mouth becoming dry and her head beginning to spin, she reached for the doorknob slowly - like a dream.
She knows what she is doing, and her rationality isn't going to stop her. All her life science consumed every part of her soul, and now, at this given moment, she is going to take control of her life with her heart. She closes her eyes and shakes her head, knowing that she doesn't need him like that. But then, she looks down and bows her head allowing a river of tears falling onto the floor. She sobs softly to herself as her fingers slowly curl around the doorknob. At this time, her determination bites at her, almost making her flee from the door knob. But it's the voice of a young scientist that stops her.
'I love being here, don't make me leave.' He says, staring up at her with his eyes becoming milky and teary. The way his voice haunts her dreams and cracks her walls terrifies her. Her legs start getting wobbly and her mind swirls in nauseating movements that cause her stomach to knot.
She fights her sobs with all her being, but something inside of her snaps, her fingers begin to turn the knob and opens it quickly.
Booth's soft words, and his calm voice echoed in the deepest part of her mind, making it easier to breathe. Her heart slows, when he rubs her back slowly. That night, she lets him into her soul and they've never spent one day apart since then.
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All his life he wanted what was the best for those he loved; never really for himself. Time and time again, he'd do something selfless just for the sake of one's feelings. He was a good man, a strong man who honored those who he trusted and loved with all of his heart.
He was in love the woman beside him, lying close to him in the bed they shared together. It took them seven and a half years to get where they are today. And they cherished every single moment with their growing family.
It had been almost a year since Vincent died and ten months since they've been together. They still were partners in every way, but Booth did not want Brennan to go in the felid with him anymore. He made her stay in the lab for every case, only allow her to come to the hover building to interrogate suspects and nothing else. He didn't trust the world, and he didn't want his new profound happiness to be crushed under the wraths of the devils kiss.
He knew she loved being there with him on a case, but they had their child to think about now.
'Temperance, I know you love being in the field with me.' Here they were, arguing about staying partners since they were having a baby together after all.
Brennan's back was turned to him, her eyes were closed while a few tears glided down her face. She was five weeks pregnant and she could still go into the field; he just didn't want her to get hurt.
She said nothing and just tapped her foot angrily on the floor. 'I'll never hurt our child Booth. You know I'll be careful.' She said stubbornly.
'Bones,' he said softly, he made his way towards her and wrapped his arms around her waist 'look at me.'
She took a deep breath and to his surprise, she looked at him, but with tears in her eyes. His eyes scanned hers and his heart hurt because he hated seeing those beautiful blue eyes filled with tears. 'I just want you to be safe.'
Temperance rolled her eyes and huffed at his attempt to make her feel better. She twisted in his arms as a attempt to be set free, but his grasp only got stronger.
'Just listen to me, okay?' he asked, while cupping the side of her cheek. She closed her eyes as tears fell freely down them, his fingers quickly wiped them away and when she opened them, his eyes were intense with love.
'Okay.' she said smiling a little.
Her change of heart made his soar. He smiled too and kissed her forehead. 'I don't want anyone to hurt you or our baby. If anything happens to you two I don't know what I'll do," His eyes were intense and bold, his strong grasp that held her waist got softer. He continued, 'I love you Bones. I love our baby. If anything happens to you - I'll' He began to cry.
His eyes teared up as he fought to control this undeniable emotion that took over him. He looked down and said nothing more, his chest heaved as his head buried into her shoulder.
In this moment in their relationship, she hadn't told him she loved him yet. He knew she did and didn't want to force her to say it yet. She did love him and proved it to him day and night. She closed her eyes and embraced him.
'Booth,' she spoke low and quiet. 'I- um.' The tears filled her eyes as she fought them. She wanted to keep being his partner. She wanted to keep him safe and to be near him all of the time. Maybe he was right, but his emotion about it made her heart swell with undying love. 'If you want to keep me out of the field, then I will.' She bit her lip and took in a sharp breath. 'I love you too.'
He looked up with a small smile that emerged from his lips. 'Thanks Bones,' He kissed her softly and hadn't forgot what she added with that. In between their kisses, he said. 'I knew you loved me.'
'Do you want me to prove it to you?' she asked rather shyly.
'What do you think Temperance?' He said, raising his eye brows and tilted his head, gesturing it towards the bedroom.
She laughed as she took his hand and led him to their bedroom.
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Love is about sacrificing things you love doing to keep your family safe, and he wanted her to ease into that for now. They've had their rocky road every now and then, yes, but they still were the same Seeley and Temperance they've always been.
Seeley Booth knew the moment he laid eyes on Temperance Brennan she'd be the only one for him. A year and a half ago he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting her go.
He never fought for her that night, and just threw her away like she meant nothing to him. Just that thought made his blood boil with anger, his fists clutched until they hurt, and his heart ached with remorse.
The night they made love, did he love her?
Yes, defiantly.
The night she came into his room, did he take advantage of her?
He'd never do that!
With his thoughts throwing themselves into the pit of his stomach. They gave him a sense of uneasiness, only because he never thought their relationship would be as twisted and backwards as this. He needed her to know that he loved her, for every mistake, every fear and every time they made love.
He shivered, and snuggled his head deeper into her back. It didn't matter how they got to where they were now, all that mattered was that their love was there and was real. He knew he wanted to marry her, but he wanted to wait until she would bring it up. He vowed on the day that Vincent died he never rush her again and he meant it. He was just content with being with the woman he loved.
He opened his eyes a little bit and whispered, "I love you." softly into her ear, causing her to stir a little.
She smiled, while inviting the harsh sunlight into her eyes for a fraction of a second. She leaned back deeper into his embrace before whispering back to him. "I know." She exhaled slowly, before closing her eyes again.
"Today is your first day back to work." He said, taking a deep breath. He remembered Cam saying something about wishing Brennan would come back soon because the interns were annoying her.
"How do you feel about that?" He asked, allowing her to think for a moment.
She opened her eyes and stared at the clock for a moment. "I don't really know." She paused and bit her lip for a moment. "Nervous I guess."
"Why do you feel nervous sweetheart?" He asked rubbing her shoulders.
Brennan shrugged her shoulder, closing her eyes. "I find that I don't want to be away from our child for too long."
Booth closed his eyes and kissed her back. "Then don't." He said bluntly. He moved his arms down and wrapped them around her waist. "Who said we need a sitter to watch her?"
"Angela asked me a few days ago if we're going to hire a sitter to watch Olivia while we're working." She stopped for a moment and thought of something else. "What if the sitter doesn't give her attention she is required? What if-"
"Temperance," He knew she was scared and he'd do anything to make her feel safe and content. "baby, we don't need a sitter to watch her."
"Why not? Our jobs are too dangerous to bring her to work with us, besides-"
"Bones," he said hastily. "We love each other and we'll watch Olivia together. We don't need a sitter to watch her, we've got our friends, your father and your brother. Everything is going to be alright."
"Okay?" he asked softly.
She smiled. "Okay, I'm sorry for getting a little anxious."
"Temperance you're allowed to, you just had a baby a few months ago. It's normal to feel that way."
She relaxed into his arms and smiled. "Do you feel this way too?"
He squeezed her shoulders and whispered into her ear. "Yeah I do. Whenever I am on a case without you, I can't wait to come and see you. I miss you al of the time."
She smiled and twisted in his arms. "Is that why you called all the time?" She asked laughing a little to herself.
He smirked. "Yeah, I thought it was silly at the time but you know." He said shyly.
She moved closer and kissed him on the cheek. "I think it was sweet that you always would call and check on me and the baby."
He looked up and smiled at her. "You think?"
"Of course."
There was a twinkle in his eyes when he looked up at her. He loved this woman more than anything and she did too. He moved a little closer to her and captured his lips with hers. She smiled against his kiss as he slowly made his way on top of her. He rested his forehead on hers and began tickling her sides. She let out a small laugh and struggled against his strong arms.
"Booth!" She yelped, moving her head to her left side, away from him. He laughed while his face grew serious and she watched him with love in her eyes. "Stop!"
"Not until you tell me you love me!" He teased.
She laughed and grabbed a hold of his hands and slid her fingers through them. "I love you."
That made him stop tickling her.
"I know." He beamed. "I love you too." He smiled cockily and asked, "Did I ever tell you how much I love you?"
She laughed and swatted at his chest playfully. When he gave her a serious look, she said. "Yes, everyday."
His eyes were dark and full of love, hers mirrored his in the slightest of passion. "Out of our friends, who do you think missed you the most?" He moved a strand of hair away from her face and kissed her lips playfully. He moved his head and rubbed his cheek against hers.
Brennan could only guess. "Let's see." The man I love.
Booth kissed her sensitive part on her neck. She bit her lip and closed her eyes, sinking into his touch. "You did." I can tell. She said leaning her forehead to touch his.
"I missed my partner very, (kissed her brow) very, (kissed her nose) much. (kissed her cheek)."
Brennan smiled and said. "I missed you too."
He smiled at her as she did to him and before they knew it the alarm clock started beeping. He rolled his eyes and groaned, he threw his hands up and felt defeat wash amongst him.
"I would love to stay in bed with you all day and prove how much I love you but-" He said only to have her lips cutting him off.
"Then ignore it and let's make love then."
"Bones! I have to get ready for work!"
"Okay." She said giving in to his protest.
He leaned down to kiss her softly on the lips. "I'm taking a shower if you'd like to join me?"
Brennan's mouth fell open slightly and she glared at him. "How is that different than making love in the bed!"
"it's not." He said getting dangerously close to her. She laughed, squirming from his embrace. "It's hotter."
"Booth." She warned before things got heated. He pecked her on the lips before searching for his boxers on the floor. To Brennan, he looked adorable because he was getting frustrated but when he glanced at his partner, she was watching him.
He grinned and said. "Like what you see there Bones?"
She said nothing as a small blush began to appear on her cheeks. "Of course."
He laughed as he slipped them on and closed the bathroom door behind him. After a few minutes, Brennan stared at the ceiling, her nerves were getting to her.
"You coming Bones?" He called.
She let a small mischievous smile emerge from her lips as she threw the covers off of her. Just by having fun in the shower could make me less nervous about work? What the hell, it will make me feel better.
Just as she made it towards the door she heart Olivia's cries from her room. She cursed quietly to herself and called out.
"Olivia is crying Booth. I'm sorry." She really was too.
"Okay Temperance, but you owe me later." He said back.
She smiled and muttered under her breath. "I cant wait." She shook her head and smiled before quickly making her way to her baby girl.
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TBC
Poor Brennan and Booth. They didn't get their fun in the shower! I think they got plenty just by talking, don't you?
What is Brennan going to do on her first day back? How will the others react when she brings Olivia to work? What will Booth do to get back at Brennan? Stay Tune and Please review! Next chapter will hopefully be up soon!
X H.
