I'm tired, I'm bored
I take the time
To let down my barricades
And see the world for what it really is
My barricades are precious
They keep me from being
Affected by the terrible things
Right there on the outside
They stand around, we play badminton
In the gym near the top of the school
They are my friends, yet sometimes it doesn't seem it
When once we were alike, now we are so different
They laugh and joke and say bad things
Swearing, speaking your name in vain
Oh Lord, why can't they see?
Why can't they see the blasphemy?
There was once a time I said such things
You know exactly when
I knew my wrongs and what I said
But three years on they can't tell their own
Lord, what do I do? What can I do?
All my friends at school say these things
And I wish I never had
It's still there, lingering, waiting
One day I'll just lose it, it happened not long ago
Bad things happened and I screamed and swore and cried
I'm sorry for those things Lord, I'm sorry they ever came
I'm sorry, I would never wish that upon he who hurt me
All around me, I can see it, I can feel it
Everyone is corrupt, lost in a dangerous world
We're swarmed by conformity, trapped in the mire
Swathed in anger and pain and hate, I can't stand it
I was once in that place, maybe I still am
But so far you've helped me through Lord,
Pulled me from the mud I sank in
Lifted me into the clouds
I feel I must be near grown up now
Only fifteen yet I feel I've been through so much
You've helped me through every step of the way
I know you'll help me through for the rest of my days
Help me Lord to keep the faith
Help me to endure the pain, the fear, everything
Help me through the hard times, the bad times
Please help me through to conquer everything
I need you Lord, more than ever
I've always needed you, more than anything
You're the life, the light, the goodness and the love
And whatever I do, I'll never let you go
Just as you've never let me go
Now and forever more
Amen.