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Rogue sighed as she stared out of the window. It was the last period and she was bored as hell her French teacher's voice droned away in the background as she ran her hand idly over the cover of the book in front of her. It was an old leather bound book with a strange hexagram shape edged onto the front. She'd found it while rummaging around a small bookstore in town the day before. She didn't know what had made her buy it exactly but as soon as she'd seen it a feeling of déjà vu had crept over her. (Although with all the personalities inside her head that happened more times then she would've liked!)
"Earth to Rogue."
Rogue was jerked back to the present as a hand was waved in front of her face.
"What?" She growled turning to face the hand's owner.
"Erm, like, the bell went 5 minutes ago." The ditzy freshman replied nervously.
"So?"
"You, like, said you'd come into town with me remember?"
"God Kitty ah went with ya yesterday can't someone else?" Rogue muttered as she gathered her things up.
Kitty sighed as they moved to the door. "You, like, promised you'd come back with me today 'cause I like, went into that stupid bookstore with you."
"The mall was closin' anyway." Rogue replied ignoring her last comment as they stopped in front of her locker.
"Oh please Roguey?" Kitty begged putting on her best puppy dog look. "I promise I won't be long."
"That's what ya said yesterday and ah've already told ya…NO."
"Roguey!"
"Ah can't hear ya." Rogue replied clipping her walkman on and turning down the hallway.
"Rogue please!" Kitty begged hurrying to catch up with her.
Rogue shook her head as she continued to hum along to her music.
"Looks like those two are at it again." Scott sighed as they waited by his car.
"Who?" Kurt asked glancing up from where he was knelt on the floor casually tying Evan's laces together.
"Like duh man who do ya think?" Evan replied. "Hey Kitty, Rogue what's up?"
"Rogue." Kitty replied sullenly.
"Ah am not!" Rogue half growled back.
Scott shivered slightly. "Err Rogue?"
Rogue looked over at him as they reached the car raising an eyebrow enquiringly.
"Have you absorbed Logan recently?"
"Huh?" Rogue shot him a confused glance as she made to open the door.
"You're growling."
Kitty's hand shot to her mouth as she tried to suppress a giggle while Rogue spun back round her hands on her hips as she glared at Scott. "Ah am not!"
"You, like, are too!" Kitty cried as her attempt at hiding her mirth failed miserably and she was overcome by giggles.
"That's it!" Rogue growled slinging her bag over her shoulder. "Ah'm walking!"
"Fine!" Kitty retorted crossing her arms and turning round.
Rogue clenched one gloved hand tightly before spinning round and heading off in the direction of the institute.
"Mein freunds!" Kurt cried as he jumped to his feet.
"Just leave it fuzz ball." Evan said as he watched her go. "We'll see her back at the institute anyway."
Scott sighed heavily jangling his keys in his hand. "Come on guys lets get going."
"Hey Kurt." Kitty grinned as they got into the car. "How'd you like to do me a favor?"
"Err." Kurt began a terrified look coming onto his face. "Vhat ist dis?"
"Come to the mall…" Kitty began only to be cut off by a scream from Evan as he fell headfirst into the car.
Kurt grabbed Kitty's hand quickly. "Vet's go!" He cried bamfing them out of the car.
"Kurt!" Evan screamed as he bent to untie his laces. "Get back here man!"
Scott sighed shaking his head. "Kids." He muttered as he readjusted his glasses in the mirror before starting up the car.
"Evan get in we're going."
"I'm comin' man, what's the rush?" Evan replied as he scrambled into the front seat. "Has Jean got a date tonight or summut?"
Scott's only reply was to step on the pedal as they zoomed out of the school parking lot.
Rogue's head was down against the wind as she made her way back to the institute her hands clenched tightly across the book held to her chest.
"Hey Roguey!"
Rogue spun round at the sound of her name. "What d'ya want Speedy?" She asked frowning slightly as the speedster came to a stop beside her.
"Whatcha doin?"
"Walking." Rogue replied shortly.
"Thought you got a lift with the rest of the x-geeks?"
"Ah do. But today ah'm walking."
"Oh." Pietro sighed chewing his lip as he walked beside her.
Rogue sighed, stopping dead in her tracks and turning to face him. "Ah ain't got all day ya now."
"What?"
"Well you ain't walking with meh for ya health so ya must want summut."
Pietro grimaced slightly at Rogue's tone before replying. "I just wanted to see how you were."
"Why?" Rogue asked, shock evident on her face.
"You seemed…distracted lately."
"Ah'm fine." Rogue replied shortly.
"You sure?"
Rogue sighed in annoyance. "Is this going somewhere?"
"Can't I see how a friend is?"
"We've never been friends Pietro. Team mates yeah, but friends?"
Pietro looked hurt for a second. "I've always thought of you as my friend."
Rogue raised an eyebrow cynically. "Ah ain't got no friends."
"Yeah you have!"
"Lahk who?"
"Us lot for one."
Rogue raised the other eyebrow and looked at him. "The brotherhood was only eva friends with meh when it suited em or Mystique."
Pietro shifted uncomfortably. "Well…you can't tell me those x-geeks ain't your friends?"
"They tolerate meh cause they want meh to stay on their side."
"What about Risty then?" Pietro asked stopping as they neared the turnoff to the institute.
Rogue stopped, considering for a moment before replying. "Ah guess ya could say she is…sorta."
"There you go then!" Pietro exclaimed grinning widely before turning to go. "Cya Roguey!"
Rogue shook her head thoughtfully as she turned into the institute. "Ah wonder what he wanted?" She muttered to herself.
"Who was that?"
Rogue jumped back as someone suddenly appeared, blocking the path in front of her.
"Jamie!" Rogue exclaimed one hand flying to her mouth. "Don't scare mah lahk that!"
"Sorry." Jamie replied falling into step beside her. "Who was it then?"
"Just someone from school." Rogue replied sharply, cutting off any further questions with one look.
Jamie gulped swallowing down what he'd been about to say and walking with her in silence up the driveway.
"What's that?" He asked as they neared the lobby doors.
Rogue looked down at him blankly.
"The book." Jamie said pointing to the book she was still holding.
For the first time Jamie saw Rogue smile slightly as she stroked the leather lovingly.
"A memory…" She whispered.
"Huh?" Jamie's eyes widened at the voice that came from her. ' That wasn't Rogue!' He thought as he stared.
Rogue's usual frown appeared back on her face as she shook her head. "It's just a book ah picked up."
"But you said…" Jamie began as they entered the lobby doors.
"Ah didn't say ought!" Rogue retorted angrily before hurrying up the stairs to her room.
"Woah! What did you do to stripes kid?"
Jamie yelped swinging round as Logan came up behind him. 'For such a big man he sure does move silently!'
"No…nothing sir." Jamie stammered.
"Hmmm." Logan raised an eyebrow at him before turning and disappearing back the way he'd come.
Jamie stared after him about to follow Rogue when voices and the sound of car doors banging filtered towards him.
Jamie grinned. "Time to play!" He cried excitedly, Rogue forgotten as he ran back outside.
Rogue slammed the door to her and Kitty's room shut with a bang. "What's going on?" She whispered to herself as she flung her bag onto the floor and sat down on the edge of her bed.
"Who was in meh?"
She flexed her hands against the book still huddled to her chest and slowly brought it down to lay on the bed before her.
"This book why do ah feel lahk ah should recognize it?" She ran a shaking hand across the smooth cover before hesitantly opening it.
"Ah don't understand." Rogue whispered in frustration as she stared down at the empty pages in front of her.
Angrily she threw the book away from her and watched as it clattered across the room before coming to a stop in front of the mirror.
Dear Diary
When did I become so invisible?
The words leapt out at Rogue as she stared in stunned silence at the reflection in the mirror. The book had fallen open as it had landed and Rogue could clearly read what was written there.
Scrambling off the bed Rogue grabbed the book up off the floor staring down at the open page. Nothing, she couldn't see a single thing. Slowly as though afraid of what she might see she moved the book back in front of the mirror.
Dear Diary
When did I become so invisible?
"Oh mah god!" Rogue breathed as she stared into the mirror. "Ah can see it!"
Rogue glanced at the clock before grabbing a pillow off of her bed and settling down in front of the mirror. Slowly, carefully, Rogue began to read.
Dear Diary
When did I become so invisible?
Today is the 12th of May. It's my sixteenth birthday and no one remembers - not even mama. But then again the only thing she seems to remember nowadays is where she keeps her whisky. And my stepfather well he doesn't care about me the only thing he cares about are his darling sons. They make my life a living hell.
Why can't papa be here? Everything was great before he left it was just the three of us, me, papa and mama. We were so happy, or at least I thought we were. I thought we were a family. What went wrong? What did I do that was so bad? What did I do to drive him away?
Why did you have to leave papa, why? Was it because of me? Because I'm some sort of freak?
I have no one left now, no one. Oh god why did I have to be different? What did I do to deserve this punishment?
I feel like I'm trapped. Like I'm living some one else's life. Like I'm living a nightmare.
Is that it? Is that what this is, a nightmare? If so then I prey to god that I wake up soon. I just want this nightmare to end. I want to be free. I don't want to sit here and wait. Wait for the monster to come and get me. I don't want him here.
Oh papa, papa where are you? Save me papa. Please! Why can't anyone hear me? Why won't anyone help? Am I truly invisible?
Help me, please some one help me…
*Mirage*
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