The Battles we Fight, the Wars we Lose
Summary: An AU that's just an idea that snowballed into this huge story line that has little to do with West Wing except for the characters. I do that a lot. Essential: When Josh was 22 he fell in love and had a child. Now she's 19 and struggle to cope with angsty things. It's a lot better than it sounds, trust me.
Each chapter is written with a song that epitomizes it. This is because the main character (my OC) is very influenced by music and she sees it as an integral part of her life, therefore it's an integral part of the story and therefore I have songs that go with each chapter. My website will have all of the songs in order to be played. I will also have lyrics for each.
Song lyrics: http://home.comcast.net/~mkforever/songs.html
Disclaimer: I don't own anything here. Not the characters, not the music, not the artists. I only own Tori
Introduction – Victoria by John Mayer
Dear Dad,
I never believed that life was just a journey we mindlessly travel through, I believe in the fork in the road. I believe that we sometimes need help making the choice between the two paths, and I think that I pushed away all of the people who knew me better and took the wrong path.
Please understand why I couldn't see you tonight. I nearly lost you once; you nearly lost me twice, now. The thought of you having to see the look of departure in my eyes once again was too much. I couldn't go through with it; even if my better judgment told me otherwise. I know I disobeyed you, and I know it will be hard for you to understand what I request, but please you must trust me. I believe in myself enough to know that seeing you would have stop me from what I have to do.
I saw Sam tonight because I trust him, and you trust him. I saw Sam tonight because I needed to confirm why I was about to leave, I needed to see his face and have him tell me it was alright and that I was going to make it because I believed him. I needed him to tell you, I said goodbye and that you were right. I wish I could have told you myself, but I couldn't endure the pain.
I never lived the life I know you wanted me to. I never lived the life I wanted to either. I wanted the nuclear family, the white picket fence, the dog in the front yard…what I got was you, and a climb to the top of the political world, leaving me alone with a heart that was always empty because I lacked something you could never give me. I know you lack that same thing too, and all of the Joey Lucases, and Amy Gardners could never fill the void we both have in our hearts.
I am your daughter, and I think I understand that now better than I ever have before. You didn't lose me along the way, I let go of your hand and lost myself. I veered off the path that everyone was telling me to go down. I ran recklessly and selfishly into the woods and almost died for my stupidity. I caused a lot of problems for the administration, and for you. I'm sorry, and there's never anyway I could express that better with any words from the English language. The life I almost threw away seems trivial to the harm I caused for so many other people I love. Tell them that I am sorry too.
Dad, I love you and always have, even thought you have not always been there for me. So tonight I am leaving, without you, without seeing you, and I will be away from you for a long time. Somehow, it seems like it has always been this way.
Give my love and apology to all of those I hurt.
Love,
Tori
Summary: An AU that's just an idea that snowballed into this huge story line that has little to do with West Wing except for the characters. I do that a lot. Essential: When Josh was 22 he fell in love and had a child. Now she's 19 and struggle to cope with angsty things. It's a lot better than it sounds, trust me.
Each chapter is written with a song that epitomizes it. This is because the main character (my OC) is very influenced by music and she sees it as an integral part of her life, therefore it's an integral part of the story and therefore I have songs that go with each chapter. My website will have all of the songs in order to be played. I will also have lyrics for each.
Song lyrics: http://home.comcast.net/~mkforever/songs.html
Disclaimer: I don't own anything here. Not the characters, not the music, not the artists. I only own Tori
Introduction – Victoria by John Mayer
Dear Dad,
I never believed that life was just a journey we mindlessly travel through, I believe in the fork in the road. I believe that we sometimes need help making the choice between the two paths, and I think that I pushed away all of the people who knew me better and took the wrong path.
Please understand why I couldn't see you tonight. I nearly lost you once; you nearly lost me twice, now. The thought of you having to see the look of departure in my eyes once again was too much. I couldn't go through with it; even if my better judgment told me otherwise. I know I disobeyed you, and I know it will be hard for you to understand what I request, but please you must trust me. I believe in myself enough to know that seeing you would have stop me from what I have to do.
I saw Sam tonight because I trust him, and you trust him. I saw Sam tonight because I needed to confirm why I was about to leave, I needed to see his face and have him tell me it was alright and that I was going to make it because I believed him. I needed him to tell you, I said goodbye and that you were right. I wish I could have told you myself, but I couldn't endure the pain.
I never lived the life I know you wanted me to. I never lived the life I wanted to either. I wanted the nuclear family, the white picket fence, the dog in the front yard…what I got was you, and a climb to the top of the political world, leaving me alone with a heart that was always empty because I lacked something you could never give me. I know you lack that same thing too, and all of the Joey Lucases, and Amy Gardners could never fill the void we both have in our hearts.
I am your daughter, and I think I understand that now better than I ever have before. You didn't lose me along the way, I let go of your hand and lost myself. I veered off the path that everyone was telling me to go down. I ran recklessly and selfishly into the woods and almost died for my stupidity. I caused a lot of problems for the administration, and for you. I'm sorry, and there's never anyway I could express that better with any words from the English language. The life I almost threw away seems trivial to the harm I caused for so many other people I love. Tell them that I am sorry too.
Dad, I love you and always have, even thought you have not always been there for me. So tonight I am leaving, without you, without seeing you, and I will be away from you for a long time. Somehow, it seems like it has always been this way.
Give my love and apology to all of those I hurt.
Love,
Tori