Blurry, a gilmore girls fanfic

* This is my first songfic. I hope it is all right, please tell me what you think. The song is 'Blurry' by Puddle of Mudd. It's Jess POV. *

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
preoccupied without you

I cannot live at all

Nothings real in this place, I don't know where I stand. I don't fit in at all; you where the one thing keeping me here and now that you have gone I don't know what to do. I'm stuck; I need some one to help me. I feel so empty without you; you were the one that was always there, the one that believed in me, who believed I could do anything I wanted. I can't see a future for myself anymore; I can't imagine life without you. It's weird to think that I knew we would probably break up sometime, but this is different you ran away from your life and me. You leaving messed everything up, the whole town can't go on without you. All I can think about is you.

My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
and you could be my someone
you can be my scene

You know that I'll protect you
from all of the obscene

I would have protected you, I loved you with all my heart and I've never felt this way before. We were meant for each other. I don't think I will ever love someone in the same way ever again. With you everything was different, I felt like I was worth something, you made me feel real and not messed up. My whole world has changed in an instant. It's your fault, I could've protected you but you didn't give me a chance. I would protect you from the world. You don't know what it's like out there, in the real world; I don't know how you will survive.

I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

I want to be with you where ever you are. I want to know that you're doing all right. Why'd you have to leave me, we would've been okay. No matter where you are, it's not very far and I will find you, because you're all I need, all I think about. If you ever need me you know where to go but I don't know how much longer I can stand this place with out you here. Please come back to me, you're always on my mind.

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me

You left me with all this pain and it won't go away. I can't forget about you, the moments we have spent together are imprinted in my mind. Now that you've gone the memories are haunting me, causing so much pain. I don't know how to go on, without you in my life.

Everyone is changing
there's no one left that's real
make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you

I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

Everyone's changed, I've even changed, but you changed the most and it was me who caused it. I corrupted you, I made you feel differently about the world and that's what made you runaway. This town can't go on without you. Everyone's distraught, your mother doesn't understand, and I can't tell her, she'd hate me even more. Everyone blames me; it's the only reason why you would runaway. Leave your life behind, but why did you leave me behind; it affects me as much as it affects you. You had become to perfect for yourself, and you no longer could live up to that image because of the one mistake. That one moment we spent together ruined everything and it meant so much to me. I ruin everything; all that I touch gets messed up. Its been the same my whole life, I'm so sorry I messed up you future, but that didn't mean you needed to runaway. I think I understand though, you count live up to your image and you couldn't face the consequences telling everyone that you weren't so perfect anymore.

You could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

You know that I will always be there for you; well I would of if you had stayed. I can't help you now that your not here. I cant save you since you left. I can't protect you from the world. I think about you and what you're doing, you invade my thought my world. Where are you? Please come back to me, no matter where you are, nowhere is very far.

I hate you for leaving me. We could have gone together, made a new life together, but now where both on our own. Both alone, you were meant for more and I became dependent on you, your smile to brighten my day, you're innocent eyes and the glow that surrounds you. Now all I'm left with is memories of times that will never happen again, all I'm left with is the past. We could have had a future but you left it all behind, left me with all this pain.

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
the pain you gave to me

You'll always have a part of me, to always remember me by, to remember the times we spent together and of what you left behind. It will be a constant reminder of the past and the life you gave up. You can't take away that, it will always be there causing you pain.

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
nobody showed you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away

Why couldn't you tell me what you were going to do, that you were going to runaway, leave me behind. You told me you didn't know what you were going to do and that we could decide together but you didn't give me an opportunity to help, I tried to find you but you had already gone. Why couldn't you tell me what you really felt? I thought we could always tell each other everything and this is the biggest thing in you life and you can't tell me what you really felt. Everyone expected you to graduate go on to college and get a good job and then settle down. They pushed you to runaway to leave me, they don't know it yet and I don't think that they will ever understand.

I would have been there for you, protected you, loved you, but you never gave me the chance. You left without telling me. You left me with all this pain. I need this pain to go away but I know it never will. The only thing that would take it away is you. Please come back and take it all away.

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away
can you take away the pain

The pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me…..